Tell Me You Love Me

Chapter 5

Because change is literally the only constant...Energy, matter, it's always changing. Morphing. Merging. Growing. Dying. Its the way people try not to change that is unnatural. The way we cling to what things were instead of letting them be what they are. The way we cling to old memories instead of forming new ones. The way we insist on believing, despite every scientific indication, that anything in lifetime is permanent. Change is constant. How we experience change, thats up to us. It can feel like death, or it can feel like a second change at life. If we open our fingers, loosen our grips, go with it, it can feel like pure adrenaline, like at any moment we can have another chance at life.

-Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy

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Callies POV

Its been a week since Erica kissed me and I havent seen or spoke to her. Every time I try, I freak out. I'm still coming to terms with being Bisexual and I need to sort that out before I comfront her. Arizona has been amazing as always. I wouldnt know what I would do without her.

"Callie we've got to go, car crash" Arizona yells. I put my coffee down and ran to the Ambulance. As soon as I was in Arizona set off and we blue lighted it to the scene.

"What have we got" I ask the first responder.

"3 car pile up, the lady from one car is out and in the other ambulance, there is one DOA (Dead on Arrival) and 2 trapped in that car" he says pointing to the thrid car that clearly took the most impact. With that I thanked him and went straight to the car he pointed to.

"Hey there ,Im Callie the Paramedic and this is Arizona" I say as Arizona walked up beside me.

"Mark and this is Addison" the young male whimper in pain. I could see Addison was barely conscious and without me havin to say anything Arizona went straight to her.

"can you tell me where it hurts" I ask Mark

"everywhere, but mainly my back and legs" he cried

" is she going to be okay" he ask clearly worried about her.

"Arizona is looking after her, so lets just concentrate on you okay" I smile trying to reasure him.

As I put the collar arounds Mark next, I saw Arizona rush away I look and saw her talking to the fire brigade. Within seconds she was back and I could tell by the look on her face Addison was really bad.

What felt like minutes but must have only been seconds, the fire brigade were at Addison's side and attempting to cut the roof off to free her.

"why can't I hear her" Mark panicked.

"She's not doing so well Mark, they are getting her out now and taking her straight to hospital"

"is she going to die" tears started pouring down his face.

"we are going to do everything with can and so will the doctors in the hospital"

"she can't die, I love her, I was going to tell her tonight, I cant lose her" he cried

"tell her now, she can still hear you"

"I love you Addie, so much please dont leave me"

"let them get her out now, okay?" he just nodded

20miutes later they were both out, Addison was already on her way to hospital via helicopter. Me and Arizona took Mark in the ambulance.

"what am I going to do if she dies" he asks.

"lets not think about that now okay"

"what If i waited to long, for what? because I was scared, I'm such an idoit"

There is something about this situation that is hitting home with me. Ive been scared, scared to take the leap, scared because I know things are changing, but I can't let that stop me from being me. I am who I am, there is changing that.

After we dropped Mark off at the hospital we were called out on more jobs. It was quite a busy day. When we had a little breather I went to find Mark. He was doing really well and Addison was doing much better. I love good outcomes like that, expecially when it doesn't look like that at first.

"ready to go" Arizona smiles as I close my locker.

"yeah" we left the staff room and headed home.

"I need to pop out, I wont be long I'll pick food up on the way back" I say as I drop my bag in the hallway.

"okay"

I picked up my car keys and got in my car. I can't remember ever feeling this nervous. Before I knew it I was outside Erica's front door. Giving myself no time to back out I got out the car then went and knocked on the door. My heart was beating so fast. I was about to walk away when the door opened to see a shocked Erica.

"Callie" she whispered

"hi" I smiled shyly.

"what are you doing here"

I dont know what happened but I couldn't speak, I couldn't get the words out. So without thinking I leaned forward and kissed her. It took a few seconds but she started to kiss back.

"I'm sorry" I sigh after a few minutes.

" for what"

"last week in the pub"

"the truth is, I like you a lot and I was scared because I never knew I liked women until I met you and its been a massive shock and I sort of freaked out. I just needed to sort my head out, I'd be lying if I said Im not scared because I am, but I'm not going to let it control me"

"its okay, I understand, and I like you too" she grinned before leaning in pecking me on the lips.

"would you like to come in" she asks

"I would love to but I told Arizona I wouldn't be long and that I'd bring food"

"oh okay" I could tell she was a bit upset.

"But can I take you out for a meal tomorrow" I asked

"Id love that"

"good, I'll call you later" I leaned in and connected our lips and said bye before I got back into the car. I picked up a pizza on the way home.

"pizza, Im starved" Arizona says while running to me and taking the pizza off me. I couldn't help but laugh. I took my shoes off and followed her into the kitchen.

"someone seems happier"

"yeah I erm, I went to see Erica. Short of it is I kissed her and I'm taking her on date tomorrow" I couldn't help but smile at the thought.

"how do you feel now"

"scared, terrified, happy, but it feels right"

"I'm happy for you, now lets eat I'm hungry" Arizona says before Taking the plated food into the living room. That was a bit werid, normally she asks lots of questions, maybe just because we've had a long day.