away we go • formula 1

fairy lights

We started the first movie just after the food came. The four of us we cuddled together on the sofa with the fairy lights in the back, lighting up the room.
"Thanks for this Linny.", Lando said while munching on his fried chicken burger. "Yeah thank you. And you're forgiven.", Alex joked which made me grin. "I helped you know?", George piped up. "Sure you did lover boy. Did you buy tea cakes again?",Lando winked at him. The boys knew about our tradition and thinking about it made me blush. "Oh shush it.", George swatted Lando's head.

Alex seemed very into the film while Lando looked to be kinda bored. And George? Well he was looking at me more than at the tv. "Stop staring.", I said and went back to concentrating on the film. I felt his arm move around me.  I looked at him and cocked up an eyebrow shaking my head. "What?", he acted all innocent and I just huffed but couldn't keep myself from smiling. George placed a kiss on my head and I snuggled up to him.
"Wow I didn't feel this single in a long time.", Lando said when the film ended and pointed at myself and George. "Get over it milk boy", I told him and got the remote. "So what are we gonna watch?", George asked unbothered by everything Lando said. "It's Alex's turn to choose.", I said. "Finally!", he exclaimed. Alex usually hated the film we picked, especially the ones I chose. He always opts for a horror movie or something along those lines. "Guys this one is great I swear. And Lin if you get scared you have George so no complaining", Alex pointed at me. "What about me? What if I get scared?", Lando croaked. "No worries little Lando I got you.", Alex said and pulled Lando in an embrace. "Oh my hero", Lando fake fangirled which made all of us laugh out loud. "I missed you idiots.", I said with a big smile on my face and snuggled into the sofa. "We missed you too.", Alex said and started the film.
The film was a nightmare. "what about this is "great"?", I whisper asked George. "I don't know.", he whispered back. "It's bad. I hate it.", I spoke in a hushed voice and turned to face him. "You hate every horror film", he chuckled. "Yes but this one... this one is the worst we have ever watched.", I whisper yelled. "Ok shut it you two.", Lando bellowed. "Sorry.", I said and tried to hold in my laughter. "Yeah, yeah.",Lando said.
"How about we go into the kitchen and get a drink while these two enjoy the film.", George asked. "Sure. Let's go.", I said and he pulled me up from the sofa.

"Do you think Alex even noticed us leaving?", I asked getting two glasses. "No. He was very into the film.", George said and put his hands on my hips. The little touches made me feel something. Something that was missing before. I must've had the stupidest smile on my face. "So there's something I wanted to ask you.", George said. He looked at me and I already knew it wasn't something bad. "Ask me.", I winked at him. "So you do have a room for yourself but I wanted to know if you would like to share?", he seemed a bit unsure and I decided to mess with him. "You want me to share with Lando?", I asked. His face showed pure amusement. "You are unbelievable.", he said and pulled me into his arms. "Of course I'll share with you.", I muffled into his chest. He took my face into his hands and kissed me.
"Thank you.", he said and went back to hugging.
"Can we maybe not go back to the film? I have an idea on how we can spend our time better.", he winked and plastered kisses on my face. "Yes we do. This was my present to all of you. So no we are not gonna go upstairs and make out.", I told him and dragged him along back to the living room.

"Back from the make out session?", Lando asked with a cheeky smile. "Course Lando.", I said and plopped back down on the sofa. "Let's get this hell spawn of a film over with.", I said and cuddled into George's chest. I didn't look at the tv once because I already knew the film was terrible. Laying here on the sofa with my three friends was truly something I missed. I'm thankful that the boys didn't hold a grudge against me I sure as hell would've.
They were immersed into the film and looked content. I really missed this. The boys were stuffing there faces with sweets which they normally would never do because of the diets. But tonight we ignored any dietary restrictions or anything. We just enjoyed our time together. 
I felt my eyes get heavy and closing involuntarily.

"Look at your girlfriend.", I heard a voice. "She's not officially my girlfriend.", another voice whispered. "What's the hold up?", a third voice came into the mix. "Verstappen." "You do know that she likes you right?" "Max was like a teenage fantasy but with you she's her true self." "Let's not discuss this. It between her and I. I'll carry her up. Goodnight boys.", George said and I felt someone pick me. "I know you are awake.", he whispered when he stepped into the room with me still in his arms. Of course he did. "Sorry. I know that wasn't meant for my ears.", I admitted when he let me down. "It kinda is and it kinda isn't.", he spoke in a soft voice as he brushed a strand of hair behind my ear. "We can talk you know?", I said and looked into his eyes. "I don't know if I'm ready for that talk.", he truthfully spoke. "Ok then let me clarify for now. At this moment in time I like you. Not just because you are available but because you know me and every time I'm with you I'm happy.", I whispered. He looked at me with a certain look in his eyes. I knew what this meant. I saw it once before. He looked the exact same when we spoke about a long distance relationship. It's a look of uncertainty. "I promise.", I added and kissed his lips. "I'm sorry.", he breathed. "Why?", I ran my fingers through his hair. "This is not the confident George that I would want you to see.", he seemed frustrated. "I like this George a lot.", I admitted and pulled him to the bed. "Let's sleep, ok?", I said and he just nodded.
I got changed into my pyjama and when I came back George was stunning on the edge of the bed in just his boxers. "Trying to seduce me?", I joked. I desperately wanted to diffuse the tension. He just gave me a weak smile.
George must be convinced I still like Max and that he is just a rebound. And to the outside this must be easy to assume that.But it isn't the way I am feeling on the inside. I do deeply care for George and a part of me never let go of him.
"Sorry.", I mumbled and twiddled my fingers. "What for?", he asked. "I don't like Max. But I feel like you feel used. And I'm sorry I make you feel that way.", I couldn't look at him. "Don't try to deny it. I know you. I knew that look from before. I can't give you more than my word and if that's not enough than I'm sorry. But I promise I do like you.", I whispered.
"I'm sorry too.", George started. "I knew what I was doing that night in Austria and you did nothing to make me think that you don't mean it.", he stepped up to right next to me and took my face in his hands. "I like you.", I stated again looking right into his beautifully mesmerising orbs. "I do too.", and he pressed the softest kiss ever on my lips.

Just as he was pulling away from me I pulled him closer and kissed him with all I had. The kiss was filled with fear, love and passion. A combination that described our situation perfectly. "Thank you for letting me into your life again.", George whispered against my lips. "Shut up now and kiss me.", I demanded with a chuckled. George did as I said. The tension was building and somewhere int his whirlwind of emotions he picked me up and placed me on the bed. I lost myself in the kiss. The only thing I felt was electricity running through my veins and being safe and sound.
George was now on top of me and we were fully making out by now. I'm the desire was building up and I felt this urge in my stomach to speed things up. I kissed down his neck and turned us around so I was on top. "Lin" "wait" "what?", I said still kissing him. His firm hands pushed me away from him just far enough so we could look at each other. "We should stop or I can't control myself anymore", he stated. "And that's a problem because?", I questioned him. "Because as you might remember the walls are thin and you are not quiet.", he teased. I did feel kind of embarrassed by that. "As if you were", I huffed and rolled off of him. "No but maybe we shouldn't do this here where they can definitely hear us.", he said a pecked my lips. "Alright I suppose I would not like it if they made comments about this and they would. But kissing is fine, right?", I asked. The tension form before seemed to have vanished. Maybe because George's kisses made me forget just about anything. "Kissing is more than alright.", he said and pulled me close.