away we go • formula 1

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Daniel went to see his personal trainer and so Max and I were left alone again. "So..", Max started. "So...", I said. We were in the hotel lobby standing around like a bunch of idiots. "Do you wanna come by my room? Play some FIFA?", he asked. "Sure. It'll distract me.", I said. I felt really awkward and nervous. The thing is I didn't necessarily know why. Max and I were friends for all I know and I don't think splitting up with Stoffel changed that. But it kind of did. 
"Max could we maybe do something else than play FIFA? I really hate it. And I don't think I can take another hit today.", I asked truthfully. "Sure. Do you wanna watch something or play something different?", he asked while he opened his door. "Anything really."

"I'm sorry about you and Stoffel.", he said and sat down next to me. "Oh thanks. I guess it just wasn't meant to be.", a deep sigh followed. "You know? Being single is not that bad actually.", Max tried. "how so?", I turned my body towards him. "Well you don't have to worry about hurting them. And also you don't feel bad when you don't have time for them. Thirdly you can have as much fun when you are going out as there is.", he listed some ridiculous reasons. "Max all of these suck", I chuckled. "Ok so then tell me what you'll miss". "Firstly I miss cuddling. I'll really miss it. Secondly having someone to be there unconditionally. Thirdly not being alone. And many more.", as I thought about the reasons I got a bit sad.
He stayed quiet and so did I. "Max I'm sorry. I'm gonna go I made things awkward once again. And you surely don't need my drama on your shoulders.", I got up and tried to leave. "Woah woah, where are you going?", Max grabbed my arm and stopped me. "God! I'm such an idiot.", I tried to stop the tears from coming. Max pulled me into his arms, : "It's not your fault.". "I'm a mess. I'm sorry.". "Don't worry about it. what are friends for?", he lessened his grip on me and gave me a smile. "Now come on. I'll let you pick a movie and order some room service. Sounds good?", he asked and I just nodded.
"Can we get burgers?", I asked while trying to sort my face out. "Sure let's have a cheat meal. I'm just going to grab something from Daniel's room. I'll be back in 5 minutes just pick a movie.".

Max' room was very nice and spacious. But it felt cold and not like home at all. They say home is where the heart is but why do I feel so lost then. I love racing the rush I get, the speed, the battles. But never before have I felt this alone. I haven't called my brother in weeks or any of my friends back home.  I still have my flat with Stoffel in Monaco but I feel that is going down the drain too. The only time I'm enjoying myself is when I'm with Lando, Max and Stoffel. If I were Stoffel though I would keep my distance. I felt the tears prick in my eyes but I wouldn't let them fall.
"Hey have you picked something?", my train of thought was stopped. "Sorry I was just thinking. How about R.E.D. 2?", Max was back in the room with a box in his hands. "Sure. A shame we don't have play seats here or we could have played some iRacing.", Max said an plopped down on his bed.  "You play?", I was surprised by that revelation. "Yes all the time. Do you?", he seemed very excited. "Yes. Maybe we could play some once we are back in Monaco.". "Anytime.", he smiled and started the movie.
I was sitting on the very side of the bed as I didn't wanna intrude his personal space. About 20 minutes into the movie there was a knock on the door: "Room service!". "I'll get it.", Max got up and went to collect the food.
"Shall we pause the movie and eat at the table?",I asked remote already in my hand ready to pause. "No don't worry. We'll eat in bed.", he grinned. "You'll get crumbs all over it.", I chuckled at his stupid ideas. "Well I guess I would have to ask you for shelter then.", little cheeky bastard. "I suppose you have to. And I might be kind enough to provide you.", I grinned and put a fry in my mouth and Max mirrored my motions. soon enough we ate all the fries and I started my burger. "God I'll never learn how to eat these not like a complete fool.", I chuckled after struggling with my burger just after the first bite. "I don't think it is possible.", he said as a big chunk of tomato fell out of his burger. "Imagine: A first date and you take them out for burgers. Many girls would freak over having to eat a burger in front of you. Try being sexy while eating a burger it's never been done.", I had to laugh a little at the idea of that. "My ex would've killed me. But I would do that. I think the next girl I'm gonna take out, I'll take out for burgers.", he joked. I looked at him and saw Max smile a genuine smile. His blue eyes lighting up, the corners of his mouth turning upwards. "I'm sure she'll love it.", we looked at each other and I felt at home. "Thank you for this Max. It was really kind of you to care for me.", I grabbed his hand and gave it a squeeze. "Anytime. But just so you know. That sleeping situation was no joke. I don't wanna sleep in this crumb infested bed.", he was dead serious. "Well aren't you lucky. I have a clean bed in my room just for you. But let's finish this movie first. Afterwards we can change rooms.".

Sometime between eating the burgers and the ending of the movie we ended up cuddling. "See you don't have to miss it", Max whispered. "what do you mean?", I was confused what the Dutchman was talking about now. "You said you'll miss cuddling but you don't have to. I'm up for a cuddle whenever you need it.", I just cuddled closer to him.
"I really love Marvin.", I said after the movie was finished. "He is crazy.", Max was in complete disbelief. "I know and I love hin for it.", I sat up but Max pulled me back. "Max... Come on. I'm really tired and I wanna get to the clean bed.", I tried to persuade him. With a huff he sat up hill got out of bed.
Making sure we had everything we went to my room which was just 4 doors down the hall. It was smaller than Max' room but nice nevertheless. "Welcome to my room. Do you can have the bed and I'll take the sofa.", I said and went to get a Pyjama. "What no? I'll take the sofa. It's your bed.", he was not having it. "No way. Not gonna happen.", I shook my head. Suddenly Max' face changed and he came straight over to me and threw me over his shoulder. "Max!!!", I screamed and laughed. "Yes dear?", he acted like everything was complete normal. "What are you doing?", I asked. "Carrying you". "Smartass."
Then I was thrown on something soft and I recognised it as my bed. "Max I told you-". "I know but I decided that we are gonna share.", he explained. He must have seen my surprised expression and quickly added: "If you are comfortable with it.", he scratched the back of his neck. Was I comfortable? Yes! Was it all going very fast? Yes! He started turning away and didn't know what to do but grab him and pull him down on the bed. "Caro?", his face was incredible close to mine. "Stay please.", he nodded. We both got settled in bed and there was something lingering in the air. "Max?", I turned on my side to look at him. "Yes?". "Do you think that this all going a bit fast. I mean we know each other for a few weeks and now we are laying in bed together just hours after me and Stoffel ended it.", I looked at him fearing what would come next. "I don't think it's weird. Everything in our life is fast so it just makes sense that we built our friendship very quickly. Why should it be weird? My friend is sad over her break up and I'm there for her. Nothing weird here. Don't worry.", he explained a brushed away a strand of hair. "True just two friends.", I said and turned on my back. "Or so."