away we go • formula 1

Future?

"Oh wait so it's not secret kissing anymore?" Alex asked nibbling on a crsip. "Oh.", my face got red. George kept his arms around me and only grinned.
"So boys that's my girlfriend and you boys are my best friends. So get used to it.", he piped up.
"Girlfriend?", I asked a bit amused as we've not talked about that at all. Now George was turning red and buried his head in my neck. "Oh Georgie.", Lando taunted him. "I mean you do kinda act like a couple.", Alex tried to help George out. He really was too precious for this world. "We'll talk about it later.", I whispered into George's ear and felt him nod.

When the boys talked I thought back to when I  was waiting in the medical center. I was thinking about George and I the whole time. Ever since Austria he was on my mind constantly. And Max? He had left my thoughts as quick as he entered them. Yes you could call me names for changing my mind so fast but George wasn't just a boy I just met. He was my first love. He was the most important person to me for quite a significant amount of time. It was a very innocent relationship as we never had done it but our connection was extremely deep and strong. To think that I just ignored his presence for 1 year is hard to understand for me. I was hurt when we broke up. I knew it was inevitable because I mean look at him. But it hurt nevertheless.  I never got over George. So maybe that hurt made me latch into Stoffel like that. Whenever George and me were in rough spot I clung to Stoffel even more. It wasn't fair on my part but I didn't realise that at that time.  So now that he is back in my life he consumes it. I don't think it's healthy either but it is how I feel. And Max? I don't even know. There was some genuine attraction but the bad boy image definitely did its part.  I still think he is a nice person and I do still get nervous around him but I think it's because he is intimidating and not because I am madly in love with him. I hope my hormonal my unstable brain is set on this mindset now because even I am exhausted with my mood swings and changes of mind. Max and I should be friends. George and I can hopefully be more. I need to tell George this. Sooner rather than later.

At my motorhome we indulged the food Lando brought from McLaren where he most certainly would get a seat next season.
"This really has to be my favourite tradition of ours.", I said smiling looking at my three boys.
"Yes and next year we might get the chance to do it even more often.", Alex winked. "Yeah hopefully", I said. Apart from George no one knows that I got a contract as it was not public news yet. "But your test and development driver contract is until 2020 right?", Lando asked. "Yes but I might not be at all the races.",I played along. Out of the corner of my eye I saw George trying to not give anything away.
"Why are you grinning like that Russell?", Alex asked. "Probably picturing Linny naked.", Lando deadpanned and made me turn red real quick.
Alex choked on his food and George was quick to stop the stupid grinning. "Lando!", I complained. "What it's true and you all know it.", he said and kept on eating.

The boys left my motorhome really late. When they are here I feel happy and home.
I arranged to go back home to Monaco with Stoffel after this weekend which meant that I wouldn't get to see George for two weeks as our schedules didn't match at all. 
"So do you wanna stay over?", I asked him after Alex and Lando left. "100%", he smiled and kissed me.
We got ready for bed which in George's case meant he stripped down to his boxers and brushed his teeth. I would lie if I said I wasn't stealing looks at his perfect physique. He noticed me staring but saved me the embarrassment of calling me out on it. We cuddled up together and it hit me. I was not gonna see him for some time and ever since Austria we've been in this bubble but that would change and I didn't know if I looked forward to that.
"George?", I asked. "Yes?". "I will miss you.", I whispered. "Carolin?". "Mhmm?". "I'll miss you more." The smile on my face grew. "Promise you will call? I need to hear your voice once in a while.", I admitted. "Course I will. I'll even FaceTime you just to see your perfect face.", he said and pecked my lips. "George?", I asked again.  "Yes?". "About earlier.  You know. The "my girlfriend" thing", I was a bit nervous. "Yeah. I know it was a bit out of the blue and I don't wanna pressure you. It's just... I don't know it feels so natural. Maybe it's because we know each other forever but yeah it slipped. I'm sorry.", he explained his side while we stayed cuddled up. "Why are you apologising?", I asked. "I don't wanna pressure you. You already told me how you feel and we don't need to label it. I just... I guess I want you to be my girlfriend.", I felt George's heartbeat quicken. I grabbed his hand and intertwined our fingers and kissed him. "Thanks for letting me down gently", he breathed after our kiss. "No.. George this was a I want to be your girlfriend kiss.", suddenly George was on top of me. "Don't play tricks on me now Lin", he said. "I'm not. I would love to be your girlfriend again. You make me feel so loved. I was a mess I admit that but I am sure now. I want you. No f1 hot shot or anyone. Just you. The one that seems to always know what I think or feel. The boy that showed me love once before. The boy that stayed by my side even though I was an emotional wreck that messed with everyone's feelings. George I would love to be your girlfriend again, if you want me to be.", I admitted everything. He looked at me with his love filled eyes and leaned down to kiss me. The kiss was full of love, warmth and happiness. "Of course I want it". We kissed again.

George's hands were everywhere on my body. He was definitely the dominant one here. Even though he was way more exposed that me I felt naked and nervous. His hands wandered under my shirt and he took of off smoothly. "It's still a tragedy that your six pack is better than mine", George said while he kissed down my neck and I had to laugh. "Don't ruin the mood you idiot.", I said and pulled his face to mine. I rolled us over and now I was on top.  "And now she's stronger too.", he joked. "I will leave you here like this if you don't stop.", gone was all my nervousness. Maybe that was George's plan all along. "Now we can't have that.", he pulled me into another kiss. Clothing item after item was disregarded. Kisses were shared and I felt loved like  haven't been loved in a long time.

The next morning I kind of had to rush to get to Stoffel on time. "Text me when you are home safely.", George said just before he left my motorhome. "I will and you too.", I kissed him. "Bye girlfriend.", he grinned and kissed my lips again. "Bye boyfriend.", I said being red as tomato probably.
I got to Stoffels car just on time. My suitcase was full to the max and I nearly lost half of my stuff on the way but I was on time. "There is my best friend.", he cheered and hugged me. "Give me that George told me about your wrist and you shouldn't be carrying such heavy things with it.", Stoffel immediately grabbed my luggage and put it in the boot of his rental car. "That Boy", I huffed. Secretly I found it incredibly cute of him to text Stoffel to make sure I was good. "Is a good one. But we always knew that right?", Stoffel put his own stuff in the car too. "Yes we did.  Even when George and me where on and off for some time you said he was a great boy.", I reminisced. "Yeah imagine my conflict I liked him and knew deep down that you loved him but on the other hand I wanted a chance with you too.", he chuckled and got in the car. "To be honest I was a mess anyways. I remember when I told a George that we kissed out of spite. And then he just said fair play cause he made out with some girl a club anyways.", I slapped my forehead. "Yes 15/16 year-olds are confusing and excuse eine stupid as can be.", Stoffel chuckled. "Hey! But yeah... it's true at least for me."
Out drive to the airport was nice and there we met up with our trainers as they would come to Monaco with us to keep us in shape.

I missed the flat in Monaco it really was like out of a movie. "This might even be nicer than Lando's place in England.", I had to admit. "Is it? Good that you like it that much and as we want it stay that way: clean your room!", Stoffel ordered semi-jokingly semi-real. "Damn boy no need to shout I will.", I acted faked pissed. "No bit really. Please clean it as you won't allow any cleaners to enter it. You haven't been here in two weeks and I think it wasn't clean when you left.", he chuckled. „Yes annoying big brother of mine. I will clean just let me text George that I am home and then I will get to it.", I chuckled and pulled it my phone.

I am home. Call you tomorrow❤️ ~ Lin

And with that I got to cleaning. 

Come online we are playing F1 ~milk boi
Give me a minute ✌🏻~ Lin

I went and started my computer and f1 2018.
The second I logged into our discord server I heard Lando scream. "Oh what a lovely welcome Lando.", I laughed. "Oh Carolin I here. I'll invite you to the lobby. Max is gonna join too.", he said all excited.

Oh this could be interesting.