The Way You Broke Me /on hold

5. I put my past beside me

~Alexandria~

My mood has cleared up when I was around everybody. Santiago has already been kicked out of class twice, Isa and Angelo successfully made an explosion, and Leonne beat up a group of eighteen-year-olds for making fun of her. But my good mood wasn't permanent as I was met with an oh-so-familiar face sitting in front of me.

The tension in the room was to cut with a knife. My fists were so tightly squeezed that my knuckles appeared white like snow. The familiar feeling of emptiness was now replaced with irritation and pure hatred. His face was different, his body was different, he was different but so was I, and I knew he noticed that. His jaw was sharper, his eyes were now a shade darker and his pupils were dilated. The once short hair was now long and a dark color. He had more tattoos, at least more were visible. he was dressed in a fitted dress shirt and black suit pants. I was yelling at him on the inside but stayed silent on the outside.

"Are we going to sit like this all day or are you finally going to talk?" My fathers' voice makes me realize I was probably examining him too much. Of course, we weren't alone in the room, we didn't have the comfort of just sitting not saying a word until all of this was finished. No, we needed to talk, we HAD to talk.

"I think the silence is somewhat comforting" Angelos's loud thoughts brought a small grin to my face.

"I would like to say something: How the fuck did you have the n-"

"Isa not now" I cut her off, raising a hand. It makes the room fall silent again, I didn't want another fight to break out.

We sat in silence long enough. We are both adults. Let's start to treat each other with respect. I put one leg on another and fold my arms on my knee.

"How long is this 'marriage supposed to last?" I ask not looking away from lucifer. The question was directed at my father.

"As long as it takes to find your brother, sign the contract, and then you can decide" I take a deep breath in, who knew how long it would take to find that fucker.

"Of course I wouldn't mind a few more grandchildren" a small chuckle comes from Lucifer.

"What's so funny?" I ask raising an eyebrow

"Absolutely nothing my dear" I roll my eyes at his cockiness.

"You just never quit do you?" I ask taking a deep breath in and out.

"Quit what?" he asks also raising a brow

"Why are you so cocky?" I shake my head in diss approval.

"Why are you so stubborn? These are the question we live with but never get the answer to" I roll my eyes again.

"You make me want to get hit by a train" I express my feelings like my therapist said to do. I will notify her that I am making good progress.

"I love you too" he smiles at me. His words make my cold blood boil

"You never loved me" I scoff

"You don't recall the loving marriage we had?" He asks mimicking my body language

"I remember the marriage but not the loving part" I lean a bit into him "Besides I put my past beside me" I lean back into the chair making myself comfortable.

"Really? Because you seem awfully agitated with my presence"

I lick my lips and take the pen into my hand.

"I said past, not emotions" taking the marriage contract into my hand, reading it carefully, and then painfully signing it I throw the pen onto the office table and look around the room.

"I am assuming we are going to be flying to Italy?" I ask no one in particular.

"You would assume correct, girl" A redheaded woman stated, with a french accent. She was standing not too far from Lucifer, eyeing me like I was some kind of threat to her. And rightfully so, I am a threat to her whole existence.

"Great, I am going to go pack. 

The unsettling feeling of stress was raised upon me. The room I was in just a second ago was suffocating. I fiddled with my fingers while I was making my way to my office. My office was a place where I could think and not get emotionally distracted. It was the room that I locked myself in every day for a year, just to escape everyone and everything. It was also one of the biggest rooms in the house which allowed me to move around freely. I pushed the huge glass doors and met face to face with Leonne and Santiago who were discussing plans for our next alliance.

"How did it go? Are you okay?" Leonne asked me, worried. I made my way around my desk and sat down.

"I'm okay, do we have a follow-up on Diego?" Santiago nods and passes me the tablet that he was supposedly carrying in his hands the whole time.

"We got his exact location but the money was never transferred, nor used so it's probably still with him, we need to make sure he keeps it and doesn't spend it away.

"Okay," I exhale checking all of the drug transport information along with our weapon expansion plan and the current status of men "Um, plan a follow-up meeting with me and the Germans, be sure to tell Angelo and Isabella everything, they should be here in about fifteen minutes." I pass the tablet back to Santiago

"The weapon accessibility seems good right now, and the new shipment of drugs is arriving in two days to this estate, make sure it gets here on time, we don't have time to be late understood? I have to go pack see you guys later" And with that, I go out to pack.