The Way You Broke Me /on hold

Mother/un edited

~Lucifer~

"Can you please just shut up? No, I can't cancel it. You know what fuck you get me Simons on the phone"

She's been on that phone for an hour and whoever is on the other side hasn't done anything and it's clearly pissing her off. And fuck if it's pissing her off it automatically pisses me off.

"No Lance if I don't get it in by tomorrow evening with all the sketches and plans I will fucking fire all of your department do you understand? I have had enough shit for today so I don't give a flying fu-"

"Hey, Lex chill okay?" I walk over to her "It's going to be okay just breath"

I shouldn't have done that. Fuck now she's even madder than she was before.

"Shut up both of you" She hangs up her phone and throws it at the wall.

I feel so bad for her. She didn't deserve any of this. She didn't deserve what I did to her and what my uncle did to her. What my family did to her and to know that she lives with those memories, that she had to heal without me, alone, is horrible. The guilt is eating me up alive.

God, why was I so stupid three years ago? Why did I ruin the only thing that loved me, that hated me, that promised to love me in health and sickness, in better or worse? How could I possibly have that again?

"Why the fuck are you staring at me like it's the first time you've seen me?" Fuck I missed her.

"Nothing sorry" She snorted and walked back into the kitchen. To be fair she looked a lot better than the last time I've seen her. She looked healthy and happy for the most part.

The fact that she was going to Italy tomorrow made it a lot easier for me since I didn't have to convince her about going there. I still have meetings tomorrow and I am ready to be done with them.

"Seriously get a grip" Her voice booms from the other side of the room where she was standing with an open bottle of red wine.

"Can I have some of that" Truth be told I didn't drink wine that much since I don't really like the taste of it I preferred whisky or vodka.

"You won't like this one so the whisky is in the back" She remembers.

Of course, she remembers you dum ass she was married to you at one point.

"Thanks" I stand up from my chair and make my way to the back of the kitchen where I find a hidden door.

Behind that door is one hell of a wine cellar and on the there side was a bar with other kinds of alcohol.

"Bottom right corner" Alex calls out

"Yep got it" She probably rolled her eyes right now.

I walk back in and see her sitting on her kitchen island with her eyes closed and the head was thrown back. She took her jacket off, now I could perfectly see her tattoos. She got a new one, a black snake that wraps around her left arm.

"I got it a year later" what would you know she can read minds. She opens her eyes and sits straight. "After you know..." I nod and lean over the counter in front of her.

"At first it represented you," I let out a low chuckle, of course, "But now it's just" She did a little pause I think she needed to burp "A reminder" she takes a sip of her wine. "you got a new one too"

True, I also got it a year later. It was a scorpion on my right arm.

"Yeah, remember when we got one for each other?" She giggles and rolls her head around. Yeah, she's definitely drunk.

"I still have mine" she looks at me blankly "Do you?"

"Of course" she sighs and presses the wine bottle to her lips just to realize that she already drank it all so she stands up and walks over to the cellar.

Her round ass brushes against my dick and I feel it harden. Fuck I'm whipped.

"Im not having sex with you" she states and rolls her eyes. This woman is going to be the fucking death of me.

"Just wait" I smirk and she looks at me with a raised eyebrow

"Im not" she stated again in her cold tone and I know immediately I pissed her off once again

she sighs and plops herself on the huge couch.

"Look Luc," Ah fuck here we go "we got married four years ago and three years ago we realized it was a mistake" I take a sip of my whiskey and fold my arms. I really want to know where this is going "And if it wasn't a mistake it was just" She pauses once again to burp "Toxic you know?"

Of course, I know and I know I fucked up really fucking bad

"And you fucked up really badly" I chuckle "So this has a really small chance of working out if not none" Fuck this shit.

"I know Lex, I know, I know what happened and I believe you-"

"You believe me now you didn't three years ago," she scoffs "Fuck you didn't believe me, and I was your wife" I look down as she looks at me

"I was your wife, and you did not believe me" She slowly repeats it like she just realized. But then laughs, like actually laughs but then stops. I gulp down my whiskey, put the glass on the table, and look at her. In all her beauty.

"Even better" She took another big gulp of her wine and brought the bottle up "I was the mother of your child" Alexandria stands up and separates her arms like she wanted to give me a hug "But you know its life" she rolls her eyes and walks over to the table and slams the bottle on the table.

"Lex-"

"No, no I understand" She looks me dead on the eye "Family is more important"

Fuck. Her head snaps around and she takes off to the stairs.

"Lex" I yell out but she waves me off with her hand.

I remember when that hand used to-

Get a grip Lucifer

"Alexandria" I yell out once again

"I can hear you no need to shout dumbass" She's already halfway up the stairs

"We didn't finish speaking"

"We didn't I did" Sassy fucking ass "Badnight" her wishes are the fucking best.

"Love you" I yell out the last time in hopes that she can still hear me

"Fuck you too" I smirk and walk over to the bar to pour myself some more alcohol. "Also your sleeping on the couch"

Once again: Fuck

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A/N
So i wrote lucifers POV how did you like it? Or did you like it?
Anyways I'm watching Grey's anatomy rn for the 20th time So excuse the mess i call a chapter. Tell Me how was your Day.
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xo Mika