Fate Has A Say

Sleepless nights

Breakfast was awkward for sure, when  Alexei and Riley met in the morning. Both were hollow eyed from lack of sleep. Jenny and AJ were in the dining room, so besides a general good morning, Riley, just sat down, mainly to avoid looking at Alexei. Oh, yes, and to hide her blushes.

Alexei on the other hand, was quietly simmering in regret. "Regret for pushing her away, years ago. He never got the chance to be with her, the way he wanted to. Now, it was too late. He was getting married and he didn't know what to do. He knew he loved Melissa. After that night when he was drunk, it had taken a while after they started to date before he had become intimate with her. Even though he believed that Mac had betrayed him, his body and heart had felt how wrong it was, to be with Melissa, after saving himself for Mac. He hadn't been with Melissa after meeting Mac again. They were getting married soon and he had to get over this desire for Mac otherwise, his future, would be negatively impacted. Maybe they needed to make love just once, for closure. He knew he was being selfish, but he couldn't cancel the wedding and he loved Melissa. She was gentle and kind. He wanted a family with her. She would understand." Idiot! Why then, did he always imagine Mac as the mother of his kids.

Mac, after getting over her embarrassment, was shocked out of her stupor, when Alexei asked Jenny how far she was with the wedding plans. "That bastard! After what he did to her last night, he was casually discussing wedding plans. She didn't think that he would want to be with her, and not Melissa, but to just talk about it, so casually, in front of her was the height of disregard. This time, she didn't feel hurt, she felt angry. She would get over him. She was determined to, but first, he was going to give her something she had always wanted from him. Since she turned sixteen, she had wanted one thing from him and she would get it. Bastard thought he could play with her feelings, well he could think again. She was going to seduce him and when the time came, she would leave this life behind. Jenny would still be her friend and she would keep her secrets. She knew she could count on that. As for, Melissa, if she was correct about her suspicions, then Melissa deserved what she got. Mac had woken up this morning with every intention of making it clear to Alexei that what had happened the night before, would never happen again. She had been hurt by him, too many times. It wasn't going to happen again. This time, she would take what she wanted and leave with her heart intact. If she didn't feel anything, then she couldn't be hurt."

Finally, Mac was thinking about herself and her needs. Would she be able to do it though? Could she escape with her heart intact? She was so deep in her thoughts that she failed to realize that Jenny was talking to her. "Yes Jen? Sorry, I was thinking of something." "I was asking if, you want me to drop AJ off at school. What are you thinking off? You looked quite fierce." "Crazy bird. Hope she's behaving." Jenny laughed and checking if AJ was ready, she rose from the table. In a few minutes, Mac was alone with Alexei.  Giving herself time to gather her courage, she stacked all the dishes in the tray, and just as she was about to take them to the kitchen, Alexei's arm was around her, pulling her back against his chest. She froze. She wasn't ready yet. "Mac, can we talk?" She was relieved that, that's what he wanted to do.

"Yes sure Alexei! What do you want to talk about? I can help with other stuff for the wedding, if that's what you need." His arms tightened around her and his chin nuzzled her shoulder. "No, I want to discuss something with you. Can we go to the living room? I'll take the tray to the kitchen and meet you there." Mac took a seat on an armchair, while, she waited for Alexei. When he arrived, he frowned when he saw where, she was sitting. Taking a seat on the two seater couch, he asked if she was comfortable where she was. She replied that she was perfectly fine.

"Look, Mac , I can't say that I'm sorry for what happened last night. I'm not. Neither am I, a cheater. (At her raised brow) I kissed Melissa that day, because I thought you were cheating on me. I'm sorry Mac. For everything. If I could change the past, I would. The only good thing to come out of it, is Melissa. I love her and I want to have a family with her but, we did not get closure and you must know by now, that I want you. It's driving me crazy. I know you want me too. So, I propose that we get it out of our systems. One time, we make love, one time. Then we put the past behind us, forever. What do you say?"

"Twice! We do it twice, then it's over." Mac looked shocked. At her unwavering stare, he gulped then nodded. "Alexei, I've never been with anyone and I take the pill to regulate my periods. Are you clean?" The poor fellow was red in the face when he told her that he's only been with Melissa. Before the shame at her brazeness could hit her, a pang of deep hurt, hit Mac in the chest. "Alexei was supposed to be her first and she was supposed to be his first. She was so jealous and angry at that moment, that she could have happily beat the shit out of him. I hate him!" she said to herself.

"Okay then, when do we do this? Let's get it over with now." Her blunt attitude  was confusing and upsetting Alexei. He didn't know what to say. He was jolted out of his thoughts by the hand on his chest. As usual, when they had contact,  he went up in flames. The fact that he had to go to work, didn't even occur to him. He definitely wasn't confused anymore. He stared into her eyes as she drew closer. Her hand on his chest moved to his neck. He thought she was going to kiss him but her lips moved to his ear. "Let's go to my room. Last one there, is a rotten egg!" Before he could react, to her silliness, she was running. He chased after her. Yeah, she really, didn't know how to seduce a guy. (That means...neither do I!)