Death is not the end

09. Complicated

Clarke's POV

Lexa stood in front of me and said nothing. I was standing in shock I couldn't say anything I just watched. She turn around and walked to the guard and whispered something in his ear an left the tent. A part of me wanted to run towards her and grab her tell her not to go but I just froze.

The feeling I am feeling is hard to describe but is a mix heartache and me being glad and the was a bit of confusion. I was more shocked than anything and I thought that I was dreaming and I hope I wake up soon. I couldn't handle it if I were to stay in this dream any longer. Remembering about the bleeding at the back of my head maybe it is just a concussion and I will wake soon. I felt the exscursating pain at the back of head.

Then realisation hit all the guards have left and Octavia was brought back into the room. With someone walking behind her.

"Follow me Heda said to give you each a separate tent and then she would like to see you" the girl pointed in my direction. I knew the best thing to do was just follow this girl and see where it takes us and I also realized that maybe it wasn't lexa but a child or something, maybe lexa had a sibling that she didn't know about.

We followed the girl and I watched as all the people of the village scanned us. I still in shock couldn't believe what I saw. I went over it and over again in my head and couldn't find an explanation as to why that was not lexa. Lexa did respond to when I called her name, well I whispered it but anyway and she looked just as shocked as I was so it had to be her.

A tall man came running up to us and drifted me out of my thoughts while stopping us in our tracks he was definitely not a warrior, maybe a craftsman "Heda would like to see her now"

The girl nodded her head and the guy gestured for me to come with him. I turned back to look at Bellamy and the rest and gave them an unsettling smile.

I followed the guy as he took me up a hill and I could see the tent allocated for there heda.

I stepped into the tend and it brought back so much memories of when we were fighting against the mountain. Funny thing the tent look exactly like that one.

"Heda will meet with you shortly" the guy said and he left the tent leaving me alone in the tent.

I can't help it by now the tears were falling from my face. Did I really see her? Did I really see lexa? My heart was beating fast and I could feel it pump out of my chest.

I heard someone talk outside the tent and heard the flap open excepting to see lexa I wipe my tears away and turn around quickly.

"Clarke are you okay" Octavia said coming closer. I couldn't hind my fear and feelings from my friend and I let my tears drop.

Octavia pulled me in for a hug and I hugged her back staying in this position. I needed my friends right now and I think she understood that and she understood the silence until I spoke up again my voice raspy and cracking. "Lexa... She... She...sh...sh is alive"

Octavia let go and looked me straight in the face. I think she was trying to see if I was asking or stating it" Yes she is"

"How? I watched as she died Octavia. Float me she died in my arms" I was trying to rap my head around the fact that lexa was actually alive but I couldn't, how. How the fuck was she alive?

"You have to go now" the guard came in and grabbed Octavia by her arm.

"O, no" I tryed to fight back but failed,he through Octavia out and I tried to leave but he wouldn't let me. I wondered around the inside of the tent for a while.

A few moments later

I was still waiting in the tent and I've been crying. My eyes started to feel heavy and I went and layed on the bed. I was just going to take a short nap and wake in time before lexa got to the tent.

A hour later

I don't know how long I was out for but that nap helped. I opened my eyes and sat up on my elbows on the bed rubbing sleep out of my eyes. As I looked in front of me I noticed someone standing by the table looking at it. It didn't take me long to realize that it was lexa.

"What you doing" she turned around a little shocked I don't think she expected me to wake up.

A few seconds pass and she is just looking at me. Oh shoot I just slept on her bed. I jump of the bed and stood next to it. "I am sorry..."I said pointing to the bed"I got tired and...well..."

"Clarke..."

"I didn't mean to..."

"Clarke it's fine" she stepped closer to me. I could feel my heart beat out of my chest and it started racing.

She stopped a few centimetres in front of me and we just stared at each other. We stood like that for a few seconds before I broke the silence.

My eyes started tearing up "I...i thought that I lost you" a single tear drops down my face which lead the way for the rest to come pouring down. I can't. I had to. I wrapped my arms around her and embraced her in a tight hug my head on her chest and my arms wrapped around her waist. "I thought I lost y..."

"Shhh" she said hugging me back. I looked up at her and she looked down to me. I could see the tears forming in her eyes as well."I am here"

We stayed like that for a while until I finally got the courage to pull away. I didn't want to pull away I was scared that I would loose her again that if I let go she would drift away or I will wake up from a dream and I didn't want to.

I rises my head slowly from her shoulder and when blue met green I felt...safe. It felt all my worries and troubles had drifted as long as I had lexa with me. I was not surprised to learn that the love I had for her was still there however I was surprised to learn that the love grew, even in her absents it grew. I loved her more now then ever.

However I knew things would take some time before they got back to normal that is if they ever go back to normal. For all I know lexa could have moved on with her life and I could just be ruining it. I would hate it if I came back into her life and end up turn it upside down after all these years, I love her too much to do that.

"How are you alive?!"

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Well Clarke had a nice nap. I kinda struggled with this chapter. I didn't know how I wanted lexa to react and I knew what I wanted to happened but it was hard to put it in words.

A little fluff and by little I mean little. How long is it going to take for them to get back to normal? Idk if I want them to go back to normal.

Anygays 😊

Thanks for reading 📖 hope you enjoyed feel free to comment  unless you have something negative to say tho your consrictive criticism is appreciated 😊

Ps I know the pic has it turned around Lexa is crying and Clarke is comforting her but yeah...and credits to who created the pic.