Death is not the end

18. Azgeda

Clarke's POV

It's been about a week. A whole week I haven't seen or heard of Lexa, I would see her around camp but when I look again she is gone. I have also been avoiding everyone else. We meet up once a day to check on the pods and getting people on the ship from what Raven tells me about her meeting with Lexa more people are skeptical about going on the pods. The fact that we aren't certain weather there is a humanity to return to or what not.

Not long Lexa asked for Raven to sit in on all the meetings. I mean at first I didn't think it would last but she seems admin and I don't think she wants to see me right now.

Lexas POV

"What do mean your 5 days late" I was pissed. Becca wants Clarke and the rest gone in less than 2 weeks and this...unimportant trash decides he is going for a stop in the woods for a quick break which then ends up being 5 days .

"Get him out of my sight" I show off to the guards and sit down on my thrown. I need to speak to Clarke but how, I haven't spoken or looked in her direction for over a week and frankly don't think she wants to see me but at this moment it's not about what she want, i would rather have a pissed Clarke then a dead one.

I head to there meeting tent, I knew she would be here and if not here she would be out hunting with Madi or by the river.

The guard steps in front of me and opens the flap for me to enter. I enter the tent and when I look up my eyes immediately search for Clarke's. As soon as our eyes lock when that green met blue I couldn't look away all my emotions and feeling for the blonde in front of me stared to reappear not that they every left maybe have been hidden away but never gone.

"How may we help you commander" The boy with medium length hair known as Finn asked stepping in my view of the blonde. My face immediately went cold, just the thought of this guy made my insides twirl. He gave me a look which clearly said 'get on with it'.

"Yes, I need to speak with Clarke" It hadn't gone unnoticed by me that Raven kept looking between Clarke and I, Bellamy kept his eyes on Clarke and Octavia showed the necessary respect towards me.

"Clarke is not going anywhere with..." before the boy Finn finished his sentence I felt Clarke's hand slip into mine and she turned me around and dragged me outside.

Before my brain could even process properly what had just happened I was outside and Clarke stood in-front of me waiting for me to speak but for the life of me I couldn't remember why I had come to her.

"Lexa!" Clarke's voice brought me out of my haze and I focused again and with that remembered what I had to say to her.

"Yes, Becca sent a messenger to inform us that she doesn't accept skykru into her alliance." Yes Becca did mention this earlier but the part I was leaving out was the main reason, I wished it wasn't true and hoped that Raven can get everyone out of here in time.

The transportation of people from one...what ever that thing is...a ship as they call it, is taking a little longer than expected. Becca and the rest have been told about the primfyer (is that how you spell it) but don't believe us, well skykru.

"Yeah lex we knew that. Why are you really here?" I hadn't realized how much I had missed her calling me that...the nickname lex was a privilege only Clarke had if anyone else dared to call me that I would have there head chopped off. To think about it not even Costia has had such a privilege but then again the way I feel about Clarke is totally different to the way I felt about Costia.

"Well she also said that you have 14 moons till you will be forced with violence of swards to leave. Not just our land the planet, they want you all gone. As you came you shall leave." by now we started walking in the direction of my tent it seems. I honestly hadn't even realized we started walking and I think I started moving first and Clarke just followed.

Honestly if we could all stay here and live happy for the rest of our lives I would be happy even if we die here as long as we died together and happy.

I am also starting to get skeptical about if there is an earth to return to the fact that we are going with all of this on a hunch doesn't sit right with me. It's times like this I wish the commanders were still in my head and I could ask them for advice. Yes I trust Clarke and all but what if her people are wrong I would hate to have my people go somewhere they would be killed and I always put my people first and she understands that.

"And what do you want"I turned to face her and saw the sincerity in her exasperation. The question was so sudden and took me by surprise. I knew what she wanted me to say but unfortunately I can't say it, not that I didn't want to because I did and I do but because I couldn't. If she got even the slights indication I want them to stay and reasons behind it she would try everything in her power to make us stay and I am afraid that will get her killed. Clarke is stubborn in that sense but also she wants what's best for everyone else.

"It's not up to me Clarke and you know that" it only broke my heart to see the blonde so devastated, I knew she expected me to say something else and I wish I did but before I could say anything else the blonde stoped in her tracks.

"Okay then I will inform Raven that we need to make 2 trips and we will be out before the last moon hits"she said as she was about to leave me in front of my tent.

"You can come in you know! You are always welcome" her head turned towards me and she had a confused expression on her face "Even if I am not here my guards have the order to send you in anytime you want and only you"

"I thought you wouldn't..." I couldn't help myself anymore before she finished her sentence my lips met hers and we shared a lengthy kiss.

When we pulled away I had our forehand's still touching "you are always welcome no matter what" and with that I walked in the tent.

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So we are almost done with this book I know I have been saying that but we are really almost done😩

I have just been feel demotivated to post thats why i have not posted and can't promise i will post so sorry in advance🤗

Anygay 😏

Thanks for reading 📖 hope you enjoyed feel free to comment unless you have something negative to say tho your consrictive criticism is appreciated 😊