Delilah

1-A Fresh Start

It has been just over a year since I graduated high school and moved out here to Alabama.

Honestly Alabama wasn't my first choice, but I couldn't stay in Texas. I couldn't be remotely close to him. 

Yes it had been a year since I got free but that doesn't mean the memories of everything that happened still don't affect me. I do see a therapist though and she's been helping me with seeing that it wasn't my fault. 

Even though some times I don't believe her.

My hair has grown out too, it's not as long or as healthy as it once was though. My strawberry blonde hair nows come to just under my boobs. 

Another thing that happened was my best friend Bailey moving over two thousand miles from where I am. Her and her boyfriend Noah are currently still attending Stanford. Oh and they're still in love as ever. Yuck.

Bailey has come to visit me a few times but I know if she has any time to go visit someone she sees her dad. I get it I mean he is her dad after all. 

Caleb my brother tries to visit as much as he can since I refuse to go there. I know in some ways it's selfish of me not to go there especially since I don't even know if he stuck around. 

Anyway back to school, it's been really good and I think healthy for me. It offers the perfect distraction. I also made friends with this one girl Jasmine. 

We were roommates freshman year and we just clicked. She knows somethings about my past but not all of it, that's reserved for Bailey. 

Not that I don't love or trust Jasmine but Bailey witnessed it first hand, and I always knew she would never pity me for what happened. 

Jasmine is a total wild child, like I once was. She's got dark skin, and these mesmerizing crystal blue eyes. Of course whenever I compliment her on them she remarks with, "Have you seen your eyes? I wish I had enchanting green eyes like you."

Unintentionally she has been helping me move on from what happened. She never lets me wallow when I am having those days. Instead she does anything to cheer me up. I don't know what I would've done this past year without her. 

Which is the only reason why when she asked me to come with her to a party tonight I agreed. 

I have been to my fair share of parties since college started, but this one is a big one. I guess it's some guy on the basketball team's birthday. I am not too sure on the specifics. 

For the past thirty minutes Jasmine and I have been sitting on the floor doing our hair and makeup. "Do you think I should do pink gloss or clear gloss?" Jasmine asks holding both tubes in her hand. 

I point to the pink it, "It will go with your pastel pink dress." I say and she nods her head in agreement before applying the pink gloss. 

Using my finger I apply some cream blush to my cheeks. Looking in the mirror I study my make up choices. 

One thing I miss was the confidence I used to have, the feeling of not caring what you look like. He stripped me of all the confidence I had making me second guess everything. 

That's the thing about relationships isn't it? Your partner is supposed to build your confidence not tear it down. 

And if they tear you down it's really hard to build your self back up.

Standing up I flatten my royal blue dress on my thighs. It's a simple dress I made senior year. It's satin, has spaghetti straps and comes down to mid thighs. I paired it with black open toed heels.

My hair is loosely curled just the way I like it. 

"I'm gonna hit the bathroom one more time before we leave." Jasmine says before leaving our room and heading to the communal bathroom. 

I sit down on my bed and pick up my phone. Opening instagram the first post to pop up is from Bailey. She's in a bikini sitting on the beach with what I am sure is an alcoholic beverage in her hand. 

Noah sits beside her both arms wrapped around her, Bailey is using her free hand to take the picture. The caption reading, 'Beach day with this loser.'

Speaking of the devil my phone chimes and a text message pops up from her. 

Bee🐝: How do u feel about Noah and I coming down there for a few days during 🎄break?!?

Me: Could you? Would your dad mind?

Bee🐝: Brady is visiting too so he won't be alone. Idk when maybe right after Christmas, I might be able to actually spend ny there with u

Me: Are you sure?

Bee🐝: Shut up, ofc Dee. I haven't seen u since what? two days during 🎄break last yr

If you haven't noticed Bailey hates typing out words.

Me: Well if you can make it I would love to see you. I miss you Bee

Bee🐝: Miss u too Dee. how's classes?

Me: Good, I'm going to a party tonight!

Bee🐝: Oooooo let me know if u meet any hot guys;)

Before I have a chance to respond an incoming call from Bailey pops up on my screen. 

"Hey." I answer, no one responds but I hear a lot of heavy breathing on the other end. 

"Noah." Bailey squeals and I am scared they might be having sex right now. Wouldn't be the first time she accidentally butt dialed me while doing the nasty with Noah. 

I shutter of disgust runs through me, that was scaring. More so of which part I had to hear. Like seriously right as they were-

"Sorry, Noah is being a bitch." Bailey says into the phone. I laugh, "Why'd you call me?"

"Are there any hot guys I should know about?" She asks and I hear Noah grumble something along the lines of, 'Don't call guys hot that aren't me.'

I sigh, "No Bee there are no guys on my radar."

She boo's and I mentally slap her. "What about Nick from your one class. You said he was cute."

"Yeah doesn't mean I am ready for anything."

I haven't even gone on a date since everything went down. Yeah I find some guys hot I am still a hormonal girl after all but that doesn't mean I am ready to put my self out there again. Especially after the guy I thought I could trust and was in love with did the things he did. 

I hear more shuffling and some mumbling before Bailey speaks again, "I gotta go babe time difference and all that but just so you know when you are ready tell me who he is and I will come down there and give him the speech."

I laugh, "I still want to hear this 'speech' you keep alluding to." She giggles, "Find a guy worthy of the speech and you'll hear it anyways gotta go love you Dee."

"Bye love you." I say and the call disconnects. 

Jasmine who had come back mid conversation stands from her bed, "You ready to party?" She grins and I smile back.

"I'm ready to party."

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A/N First Chapter of Delilah is complete. 

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