not in the same way || c.h.

33

  It's been about a month since Calum has officially moved in. Kendall was a bit unsure about it for the first couple weeks, but now I think she was starting to like him. They got along really well and I wasn't worried about leaving the two of them alone.

  Everyone else got along with him pretty well too. Luke has been starting to loosen up a bit when it comes to him. He hasn't fully accepted him yet but he's getting there.

  Also, Calum had his friends move into the apartment building. I think the five of them shared one of the bigger apartments on the fifth floor. He said he wanted me to have the extra protection around in case he for some reason wasn't here. And just in case any of my friends needed it or whatever.

  Overall things have been calm. I still go to work, I just work less now since the stress of everything else has been getting to me. School finished up a couple weeks ago, so now I had to find an actual real adult job. But I told myself that I'd give myself a couple months to worry about that.

  I think I'm starting to fall in love with Calum. It's weird to think about because our relationship is so weird on it's own. We get into arguments about stupid stuff and are mad at each other for hours. Then we make up by having sex and we're attached to each other all day the next day.

  It's weird, and I'm afraid to say anything to him about how I feel in case he doesn't feel the same. He's said before that he's never done this before or anything like that. So I don't know if he'll ever feel that way about me.

"Do you have work today?" Calum asked as I started my makeup at my vanity.

"No but I need to go run errands." I said as I blended in my foundation.

"Can't Kendall do it? I don't like the idea of you out in public right now." He said and sat at the door of our bed.

"I can't hide forever Calum." I said and briefly looked over at him.

"I know but I still haven't come up with anything and I'd prefer it if you stayed here most of the time." He said with a worried look on his face.

"Would you prefer it if you came with me?" I asked and sent him a questioning look.

"I'd prefer it if neither of us left the apartment at all." He stated which made me sigh.

"Babe I can't lock myself in the apartment forever." I said and stood up to sit next to him.

"It's not forever, it's until I can figure something out. I'm almost there, we're just stuck at a dead end right now." He said and rested his hand on my lower back.

"I've stayed locked in this apartment for a month besides work and school. I don't go anywhere anymore. I miss being able to go to the park with Noah or go shopping with my friends or get lunch or anything." I said and rested my head on his shoulder while he rubbed my back.

"I know baby and I'm sorry that I'm keeping you locked up but I'm only doing it to keep you safe. I just want you to be safe and I know you're safe as long as you're here and you're with me." He said and pulled me closer to him and held both of his arms around me.

"Can you come with me?" I asked and looked up at him.

"Bren I don't like it." He said but I just gave him a pleading look in hopes that he'll give in.

"Fine fine we'll go, but keep it short please." He sighed and gave me an unsure look.

"Thank you." I said with a smile and kissed his cheek.

"Uh uh uh give me a real one." He said and pulled me back over to him and dipped his face in front of mine.

I giggled a bit and pushed his face away from mine to try and escape his grasp. However he quickly pulled me back into his chest and kissed me long and slow. These kisses were my favorite because it literally felt like I was being sent to another dimension or something. It was like we were the only two people in the world, as cheesy as it sounds.

I hummed as he slowly pulled away but leaned his forehead against mine. I kept my eyes closed and kissed him again just because he was so addicting.

"Do you kiss all the girls like that?" I joked as I fully pulled away from him.

"Nope, just the special ones." He said and sent me a wink before I went to go put my shoes on so we could go.