not in the same way || c.h.

14

"You kissed Calum? You go girl." Avery said excitedly once I walked through the door.

"Let's not forget I'm a disgusting cheater." I said and plopped down on the couch with my glass in my hand.

"You'll get over it, and so will he. I thought Calum wasn't your type?" She said and sat down next to me.

"Well he's different now that I've talked to him." I said and started sipping my vodka.

"Clearly." She said and leaned back against the couch.

"You're gonna tell him right?" Zoe asked.

"Yeah I have to. I'm going to tomorrow before I leave with Calum. Oh by the way I'm leaving with Calum for a couple days, I'll be back Saturday." I said and sunk deeper into the couch cushions.

"You're leaving with him? Where are you going? Why are you going?" Avery asked in surprise.

"I have no idea where we're going, he just wants to talk to me about some stuff but for some reason we have to go far away for that to happen so I'm just rolling with it." I said and finished off my glass and placed it firmly on the coffee table but it ended up falling on the ground and shattering.

"You're such a clumsy drunk." Kendall sighed and got up so she could clean it up.

"And you're an angry drunk." I said and felt my phone vibrate in my back pocket. I saw a text from Cole and a missed call from Calum. I called Calum first just as a first instinct and waited for him to pick up.

"Hey what are you doing?" I asked and looked up at the ceiling.

"Nothing I just got home. I was wondering if you just wanted to skip tomorrow, you only have one class right?" He asked.

"Just the one. I don't think I'm gonna go, I'm gonna have the worst hangover." I said and watched the three of them look at me in confusion.

"You're drinking? You really regret kissing me that much?" He chuckled and I just rolled my eyes.

"I don't regret kissing you, I just regret cheating. I feel like a piece of shit." I said and moved my hair out of my face.

"I don't even know why I asked, no one ever regrets kissing me." He said cockily which made me roll my eyes and scoff.

"You're so annoying." I said and stood up to go to my room and change.

"What time do you want me to pick you up?" He asked after he laughed at my annoyance.

"Um well Cole has class at 8 so I'll have to talk to him before then so... 8:30?" I said and threw my hair up in a ponytail.

"Alright, see you bright and early princess." He said and let out a yawn.

"Goodnight." I said and hung up the phone so I could get my stuff together for the next couple days. After all of my stuff was together I remembered that I had a text from Cole that I still haven't answered. I didn't want to break up with him, but I knew I had to. I just didn't want to hurt him.

Cole: Hey babe, I haven't heard from you since this morning and wanted to make sure you were okay.

Me: I'm fine yeah, do you think we could talk before your class tomorrow?

Cole: Yes of course, is everything okay?

Me: Everything's fine, I'll see you tomorrow.

Cole: Goodnight

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  The next morning I woke up with a headache. It wasn't as bad as I expected it to be, but I definitely felt really gross so I decided to take a shower.

  Once I was ready I got my keys and my phone and headed to Cole's place on campus. I was kind of nervous to do this whole thing. I didn't know what to say or do. I feel so bad for doing this to him.

"Hey." He said as he opened the door.

"Hey." I said nervously and walked through.

"I'm sorry but this is going to have to be quick, class starts in like 10 minutes." He said a bit rushed and started putting his stuff in his bag.

"That's okay." I said and rocked back on my heels.

"What did you want to talk about?" He asked and threw his bag over his shoulder and grabbed his keys.

"Well um... I just think maybe we should break up." I stuttered nervously and watched him stop everything he was doing.

"What why?" He asked with a hurt look on his face.

"I just don't think this is right anymore, and we're both so busy doing different things and going different ways." I said and nervously played with the hem of my shirt.

"Did I do something?" He asked and took a few steps closer to me.

"No no you didn't. It's me, it's all me. You should be with someone else, someone better than me." I said softly.

"So we're broken up now?" He asked and I just nodded my head slowly.

"Can we still be friends? I don't expect us to be best friends or talk as much as we used to, but I just don't want you to be a stranger." He asked slowly.

"Yeah I'd like that." I said and gave him a friendly hug.

"I gotta go to class but I'll see you around?" He asked and I just nodded my head.

"I'm sorry if I hurt you." I said as we walked towards our cars.

"Don't be, I think you're right even though I hate admitting it. We're just so busy and we're chasing different things. It's okay." He said and gave me a small smile.

"Bye Cole." I said and got in my car.

"Bye Brenna." He said and did the exact same.

  It went a lot better than I thought it was going to go and that made me happy. I didn't want us to have to go from dating to complete strangers because even if I didn't love him in a boyfriend way I still loved him as my friend.