not in the same way || c.h.

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"You're awake?" Everyone said as they all walked towards my room.

"Yeah I woke up while Calum was sleeping." I said as they all sat down around the room.

"How are you feeling?" Ashton asked.

"Are you hungry?" Michael asked and kicked hot feet up on the foot of my bed.

"I'm fine, and Calum just went to get me some food." I said and they all nodded.

"Soo you forgave him huh?" Zoe asked with a questioning look.

"Well I heard everything the whole time, so I was kind of forced to listen to him for days straight without saying anything back. If I wasn't forced to listen to him then I probably wouldn't have if I'm honest." I said and shrugged my shoulders.

"You've given him too many chances Bren." Avery said with concern in her voice.

"And this is his last one. I made it clear how this was going to go and he didn't argue or anything. I told him that he's not going to walk all over me or take advantage of me or any of that anymore and he agreed to it." I said which made them all sigh.

"How do you feel about him going to prison for a year?" Kendall asked and sat on the edge of my bed.

"I don't know how I'm supposed to feel. I mean how do you feel in a situation like this?" I asked and they all shrugged.

"You feel what you feel I guess." Avery said and shrugged.

"Well I have no idea what I feel. I don't want him to go but he has no choice. What better way to restart a relationship than going to prison for a year?" I said rhetorically which made them laugh a bit.

"By the way Luke, you better apologize to him when he comes back." I said sternly and pointed a finger at him.

"What why?" He asked with wide eyes.

"I heard the shit you said to him. You were being a bit unreasonable." I said which made him scoff.

"Do you not remember what he did to you? Do you have amnesia or something?" He asked which made me roll my eyes.

"I don't care if you like him or not, but at least the others are being civil with him. I don't care if you like him, just be nice, and that goes for all of you. I'm sick of you guys arguing with him." I said which made him scoff again and roll his eyes.

"He's an asshole, literally the worst boyfriend you have ever had." He said and crossed his arms over his chest.

"It's not his fault he doesn't know how to love. He was raised in a gang with heartless people around him constantly. He didn't have a mother at all and he hardly had his sister either, give him a break. You don't know the half of it, so just stop. That's all I'm asking and I'm asking you nicely." I said and looked at all of them.

"Okay." They all said.

"Thank you. If I can forgive him, then you can too. He said he's going to try better, so let him. If you don't let him then it's not gonna happen and if you're constantly picking fights with him then that won't help either. You love me, so let me try and love him." I said and they all nodded their heads in agreement.

"Hey I brought you pizza." Calum said as he walked in the room.

"Thanks." I said and took the plate from him while he sat down in the empty chair next to my bed.

"Ahem." I looked at Luke and gave him a look to tell him to apologize. He rolled his eyes at me and sat up a bit in his chair while Calum gave me a questioning look.

"Calum." Luke said which made Calum's head snap towards him.

"Yeah?" He asked.

"I'm sorry for being a dick." He said with a bit of shame in his voice. Apologizing was sometimes hard for him, which is why I knew I'd have to tell him to do it or else he probably wouldn't do it.

"You had your reasons for it." Calum said and let out a bit of a sigh.

"So we're cool?" Luke asked.

"Yeah we're cool." Calum said and nodded his head.

  The eight of us all sat in my room and talked for hours. Obviously there was the occasional nurse that came in to check on me and stuff but that was fine. Once they all left to go home it was just me and Calum sitting here talking about random stuff.

"You know you didn't have to tell Luke to apologize to me, I'm a big boy I can handle it myself." He said and leaned back in his chair.

"I did have to or else he probably wouldn't have. He's stubborn and finds it hard to apologize sometimes. And you weren't handling it that well either." I said and gave him a look.

"I was, just probably not the way you'd want me to." He said which made me laugh.

"Exactly." I said and gently held my hand over my stomach in hopes that it'll ease the pain.

"They still don't like me, I can tell." He said with a sigh.

"So make them like you." I said and shrugged my shoulders.

"Can I focus on getting you to like me first? I'd much rather you like me over them if I'm honest." He said which made me laugh.

"I already like you and you know that." I said and shook my head at him.

"You should get some sleep, it's getting late." He said after a few minutes.

"Are you staying?" I asked and he nodded his head and stood up from his chair.

"I'm probably just gonna head home and shower in the morning though." He said and stood next to my bed and helped me lay down in a more comfortable position.

"You don't have to stay here every night you know." I said as he tucked me in and moved my hair away from my face.

"I know but I want to." He said and kissed my forehead before heading over to his cot and so he could sleep. Normally I'd ask him to lay with me, but there wasn't much room for him if I'm honest. Plus we both moved around a lot in our sleep so that wouldn't end too well.

"Hey Cal?" I said and turned on my side that didn't have a large incision in it and faced him.

"Yeah?" He asked and turned on his side so he was looking at me.

"Hold my hand?" I asked and reached my hand towards him. He smiled a little bit and reached his hand over to connect it with mine. His bed was pretty close to mine so it wasn't a far reach at all which was good for my arms really.

"Goodnight Cal." I whispered and closed my eyes.

"Goodnight B." He whispered back and gently kissed my hand before we both fell asleep.