Steven Universe Hard times

Breakdown

OVERTHINKING

(TW: slight thoughts of death)

Steven cried like he had never cried before. His chest hurted a lot and he felt dehydrated. He felt useless and also felt like he was just being sensitive. He felt delusional for thinking things can get better, nothing can get better.

I hate myself SO MUCH

Why am I like this

I'm useless

They just like me cause I'm what's left of mom

Why should I try

I should just... disappear

All these thoughts crowded Stevens' head.

Maybe they will be happy if I go with Mark out of this town... They won't have to worry about handling me. Why was I even scared of telling them I was leaving? They probably don't even care... Steven thought. He stood up and wiped all the tears in his face.

Wow, I'm really pathetic...

Steven then felt his phone vibrate. He reached down to see Amethyst calling him. Steven answered the call...

"Dude where are you? You're not in your bed, did you leave already to hangout with your friends?"

Amethyst questioned

Haha they're pretending to care about me this is funny

" STEVEN WHERE ARE YOU DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW WORRIED WE WERE WHEN YOU DISAPPEARED," Pear yelled in Amethysts ear.

Lies

" Yeah Steven, we were worried," Garnet said as usual with barely any emotion.

More lies

" I will be there in a sec I was just taking a walk,' Steven said and hanged up

Steven sighed in annoyance as he walked towards to temple. He walked pass the stores and even waved at Pd his only friend his age when he was younger... Steven suddenly recalled the moments where Pd would talk to him about his job how useless it felt. Steven was really immature at the time

 I should talk to Pd more. Hes nice.

then he felt his phone ring and remembered Connie's missed called when he saw her messages.

Huh, that's weird why is she calling me....

NOTE: Hiii. Ever since I've continued writing this series again I really miss steven universe. I wrote this listening to True kind of love and escapism... I'm trying to pre write my stories so I can make them better reread it and also post continuously