Attached- Tsukishima Kei

15

Even more time passes by and I decided to put more focus into Suna and our relationship with the extra time I had on my hands.

We began dating more seriously and even introduced each other to our parents. Soon enough, both of our social media's were filled with one another and we were spending as much time together as we possibly could.

I didn't end up going to watch the nationals game, though I did watch it on tv. It's not the same as when you're there in person but I still didn't want to miss the game.

The boys did great. I really am proud of all of them.

Kei did as I said, packing my things and returning them. When he came, his own stuff was packaged neatly in a box waiting on my porch for him.

Suna had no shame in expressing how he felt about Kei and I falling out. I don't really understand why, and was kind of hurt by his words of 'it's okay, you don't need him anyways' and such.

But I shook it off and decided that maybe he's right. I had Suna. And that's all I needed.

Until it wasn't.

"C'mon Rin, let's have a bit of fun. If your girlfriend isn't here then she won't know." I hear as I stand quietly outside of his room door.

"Even if she isn't here, it's not right." Suna sighs, and when I peek through the crack of the door I see he makes no efforts in stopping her as she has him sit on the edge of his bed and drops to her knees.

I pull out my phone, putting it on silent as I start to record.

"So? Didn't you say she was cheating on you anyways?" The girl scoffs and he rubs his face.

"Yeah. I'm pretty sure, with her so called 'best friend." Suna grits out, leaning back a bit as the girl reaches for his belt.

"Then? You shouldn't feel guilty about this." She giggles.

"Let me break up with her first at least. I'm not going to be a piece of shit like her." He pushes her head away and she deadpans.

Piece of shit, huh?

Pushing my emotions down, I open the door fully and smile, pointing the camera at the two.

"A-Athena?"

"She's black?!" The girl quickly stands up, looking at me in horror. "Rin, are you trying to get my ass beat?!" She scrambles to grab her things, looking at me in fear as she rushes out the room and eventually out of the apartment.

I blankly look at Suna, blinking at him as he stands up and adjusts his clothes.

"Listen-"

"I'm cheating on you?" I ask in a calm tone, raising an eyebrow.

He gulps, straightening up as he walks towards me.

"I was just saying things, baby. I know you're not–"

"And I'm a piece of shit." I restate his words and he reaches out to grab me but I take a step back, stopping the recording and putting my phone away.

"Come on. Don't do this. I love you, okay? Athena I love you so much."

I pause, hesitating because that's the first time he's said that to me.

He takes this as an opportunity to take me into his arms, rubbing my back.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry for saying those things." He apologizes but I scrunch my face up in disgust, pushing him away.

I grab his hand and drop the apartment key he had given me, the one I also used to let myself in a few moments ago, in his palm.

"Suna–"

"Hey, no. Not Suna, baby come on. It's Rin, or Rintarō or babe. Not Suna." He cups my cheeks but I push his hands away.

"Just a few seconds ago you were calling me a cheater when you know damn well that Tsukishima and I aren't even friends anymore. You called me a piece of shit, was letting that girl touch you wherever she wanted, and was making plans to break up with me." I remind him and he reaches a hand up to rub the back of his neck in guilt.

Gosh, I cannot do this right now.

"We're breaking up. I can't forgive that." I turn around on my feet and he scoffs.

"The fact that you're acting like you don't fucking care just allows me to believe even more that you're cheating on me! You aren't showing any emotion at all." He calls after me, and I hear what sounds like the wall being punched. "I LOVE YOU DAMN IT. THIS ENTIRE TIME I FEEL LIKE I'VE BEEN BEGGING FOR YOUR ATTENTION."

I slip my shoes on, gritting my teeth at his words.

"NO MATTER WHAT I DO I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH, RIGHT? IT'S SO FUCKING OBVIOUS IN THE WAY YOU EVEN WATCH HIM ON TV." Suna walks over to me, putting a hand on my shoulder as he slowly leans his head down to rest on my other one. "Just...just admit it."

"You're in love with him, aren't you?"

~

"Hi sweetie, dinner will be done in half an hour." My mom greets me as I walk into the house.

"Oh, I just ate with Suna-Kun, so I'm not hungry." I excuse myself before going upstairs.

"Suna...?" My mom mumbles as she looks after me.

"She hasn't called him by his last name in a while." My father joins her at her side and they frown as they look at each other.

I close and lock my door, changing into more comfortable clothes before packing up Suna's belongings that I've acquired throughout the time we were dating.

I shut my phone off, laying down in my bed once I'm done.

"This is...pathetic." I cover my eyes with my arm, laughing at myself.

However, the laugh soon turns bitter and tears begin pouring down my cheeks.

Holy fuck, where did I go wrong?

I feel like I'm starting from zero again. After Kei and I officially ended our friendship, I didn't really talk to Hinata, Kageyama, or Yamaguchi either. I only talked to and hung out with Suna after or before his games and my classes.

I don't even have any friends anymore. I have nobody to talk to.

They say there is a reason for everything that happens in life, but what possible reason could this have? Is this karma? Did I do something in this life that justifies all that I've been through lately? Or perhaps in a different life?

I don't understand. I don't know what I did.

"I want to go home."