Darkness.
Breathing down my neck.
Chills.
Darkness.
I can't see.
Heavy breathing.
I'm running.
Feet are stomping heavy.
Adrenaline coursing through my veins.
Screams.
Darkness.
Who is screaming?
Why can't I see?
They're saying my name.
Why do they know my name?
"HARRY WAKE UP!!!"
"HARRY PLEASE!"
There's multiple people.
I know those voices.
"Haz calm down. Come back to me."
Louis.
The darkness is becoming light.
Am I dead.
My eyes suddenly shoot open. All the boys are crowded around me. "Haz, are you okay?" I don't know what to say. I've lied so much to them. I can't tell them. "W-what do you mean I'm f-fi-fine." My lying is ass. My voice is stuttering. "Harry your not fine." "He's right haz your not fine." "Yeah I am. I'm sorry I woke you guys up." "There's no reason to be sorry Haz. and stop saying you're fine." "B-but I am." "HARRY YOU WERE SHAKING AND SCREAMING BLOODY MURDER!!!" I flinched at his screaming and rough tone. "I-i'm sorry I didn't mean t-to." "It's fine Lou. It was just a nightmare." They all gave me a sympathetic look. Louis finally broke the silence "Ok, how about I stay with you tonight just in case. Sound good?" I just nodded. I didn't trust my voice at the moment. "Alright we'll let you get some sleep." Liam said looking at the other boys as a signal l to get out basically.
Once they all left me and Louis were once again stuck in silence. He turned the lights off and laid down quietly. "Cuddle?" He wanted to cuddle. I nodded happily. Happiness. Something I haven't felt genuinely in a while. He wrapped himself around me cuddling closer and closer. It was silent for a while. For a second I thought he was asleep but something in me knew he wasn't. "Lou?" It took him a second to respond. "Yeah haz?" "D-did Liam tell you what happened? Like all of it." "N-no he um said that management was giving you a hard time. Sorry about that. They are always hard on you. I don't know why. They shouldn't do that." "yeah, they don't like me. Simon thinks I shouldn't be in the band. I almost agree." He sat up shocked at what I just let slip. "Harry if anyone deserves to be in this band it's you! Simon can go to hell!!! Harry, are you listening to me?!?" I nodded sadly. I know I know I should be happy that he thinks that but I don't know how to feel. "Sorry I guess he just gets in my head sometimes." "He gets in all our heads."
It wasn't in my head I knew it was true.
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Not even him
Fanfiction.....there wasn't anything we could do. I could do. What was done was done, there wasn't anything to change that. Not even him. Not even he could save me. It's not like anyone cared right. Not. Even. Him. TW- self harm, depression, drinking, langua...
