Not even him

CHAPTER 11

 [sorry this ones short, it's kinda a filler and i know the last one was short too but they should be longer from now on.]

I woke in Louis' arms. Suddenly I remembered what happened last night. The boys will want to talk to me. I don't know what to say. I can't tell them. I'll just say it was a classic nightmare. That'll work. I know they are already suspecting things from me so I'll have to be careful with what I tell them. They'll hate me if they find out. Yay more secrets.

I carefully untangle myself from Louis' arms. I can smell the heavy scent of bacon. Liam probably got up early to make us all breakfast. He's basically the dad of our group. When closing our door I make sure to be extra quiet. The longer they all sleep in the longer I don't1 have to explain myself. I can already sense today is going to be a long day. There definitely isn't a reason to make it longer.

Walking into the kitchen I could hear Liam talking on the phone. The only person to really call this early would be either Paul or management. Great just what was needed more things to do this week. I silently grabbed some food. Liam had made my favorite chocolate chip pancakes with eggs and bacon. Not long after I sat down Liam came back in from his call. "Management?" "No, Paul. Said management called him and wants us to do some stuff out today as a group. They think it'll help with all the rumors." "Rumors. What rumors?" "People think we're falling apart after all the articles about what happened at the hotel the other day and at the airport. We haven't been seen out as a group in a while so they're sending us to go shopping and get lunch. But before we do that they also want us to go to the gym. Say that we need to look manly and fit." I nodded while eating my food. At least it's not something too horrible but I couldn't get rid of this gut feeling that something was going to go down today and that something about this week seems off. After a while of both of us just sitting in comfortable silence Liam spoke again. "I guess I should wake the others, tell them what's going on today. Oh, don't let me forget to talk to you later. I think we all do. I know you don't want to but I'm worried. We all are." With that he walked down the hall to wake the other boys.

The first to actually make it to the kitchen was Niall. He was already dressed in his gym clothes. I guess Liam told him already. "Morning, how'd you sleep last night? You know after um-" "Good it was just a nightmare. Scary one. It's fine though." I cut him off. "Oh, ok. Well if you need anything I'm always here for ya." "Yeah of course." Louis came down just after we finished talking. I could tell he was tired. He's not a morning person. "Morning guys." "morning." me and NIall responded. He grabbed some food and sat down with Niall and I. "I'll be right back. I gotta go change." I said getting just as a very grumpy Zayn and Liam walked into the kitchen.

Heading to my room I knew they'd talk about me more than likely. I started rummaging through my suitcase for something to wear today. I used to love going to the gym sometimes but now, I haven't been in a while with everything going on. I knew I needed to especially with the things people have been saying about me. I needed to get more fit. Skinner.

I always needed to be skinner. I needed to be perfect. I just wanted love.