Not even him

CHAPTER 13

[ok so this chapter is going to be intense and so will the next one a bit so a big tw which i said in the beginning so if your not comfortable with that then this might not be for you.]

Head pounding

Cold

Naked

Stuck

Pain

A lot of pain.

I need help.

I-i need help please.

Me and the boys had just gotten back from shopping and having lunch it wasn't bad. The boys were really nice and I was feeling a bit better. No one knew what happened in the shower room at the gym and I wasn't really planning on it at least not today. The boys weren't trying to push anything out of me about what happened at the hotel and while me and Liam weren't here. It was nice. I really was trying not to think about it too much otherwise I'd probably break down. I just didn't want to feel it yet. I needed to be numb still. I had already asked the boys if they'd want to go to a party tonight and they said yes. At least I won't be alone. I already plan on getting wasted. It didn't matter what it was I had to use or what mix of things. This way they'd at least be there to haul me home. Or well more like liam will be there the others will probably want to have fun too. It wasn't meant to be fun for me, more like an escape for as long as I could.

The sun was setting and we were all getting ready for the party. While I was getting ready Liam walked into my room to have a 'talk'. "Hey, Haz I just wanted to check and make sure you're not normally one to go partying. You usually go to a club sometimes but not intense parties like this. You've had a lot going on and I don't want you making any decisions you'd regret." "Li, I know. I just need to get away for a night. After tonight we can sit and have one of your oh so famous talks. Then we can talk about everything. But only then right now I just need to pretend it's not there. Just let me do that for a night." Liam let out a slight sigh " Ok, just please talk to me. I'll always be here and I'm not going to let you get off easy."

As we pulled up to the party it wasn't small that's for sure. Someone had rented a huge mansion and bought a lot of alcohol. I also heard some people had some drugs here but I wasn't really one of those people. We all walked in together and found a spot to chill. Eventually we all started to go out and do our own thing. Me and Liam were the last left. I had already downed a bunch of drinks one after another and Liam did his best to stay with me. I could feel the drinks starting to get to me and needed to use the bathroom. I had to leave Liam even though he didn't want me too as if I'm some child.

The house was huge and it was hard to find a bathroom where people weren't ust going to town. I eventually gave up and decided I was going to have to ask someone. I walked up to a small group of people and wasn't really scared which I usually would be more hesitant considering who I am. With all the alcohol I've consumed my judgment was clouded. When I walked up they all got quiet looking at me oddly. "Sorry, do any of you know where I can find a bathroom people aren't fucking eachother in?" One of the dudes chuckled slightly while the others just stood there looking between me and him. "Uh yeah why don't I just show you the way." "Yeah, ok." As we walked away he pu his arm around my waist which immediately made me uncomfortable. It'll be fine. He continued to push us closer to each other as we walked through the crowd of people. Even in my drunken state I knew I should probably get away from this man. It sempt like my prayers were answered when I was Liam. Me and the man were walking kinda fast so I'd have to be quick to get his attention. When we got closer to Liam I tried to get away from the man but ended up tripping and barely bumping into Liam only in time for me to whisper something to him "help Li." it was all I could get out before the man caught me. "Hey, careful there you would've fallen." I just smiled. "Sorry, I'm a bit clumsy." "ah, no worries, I am too."

Soon he was leading me more and more through the house with less people. God I hoped Liam heard me. I was starting to get scared. He then just led me to a hallway. "Here's a bathroom. Not many people are down here so no one should be in there." "Oh, um thanks sorry I got you away from you friends." "Oh they were getting boring anyways. I much rather be here with you." His presence was just unsettling. Right as I was going to turn the knob he grabbed me. " Oh, you really thought I'd leave you alone princess." I shifted uncomfortably under him as he held me down and shoved something into my mouth before I had a chance to scream. "There's no getting away. You're mine now. Mine." He shoved me into the bathroom locking the door behind him. "OH this is going to be fun, my puppet." I couldn't be saved anymore. I was stuck. He came up behind me pushing me against the sink. I could see and feel his evil stare. He was staring back at me through the mirror. "Now do me a favor and be as still and quiet as possible." What was next was something I'll never forget, something that violated my existence.

LIAM'S POV

I was running through the house as I gathered up everyone; the only person missing was Harry. He had gone to the bathroom forever ago. Me and the boys were all looking for him. I thought back to before I started getting nervous and started looking for Harry. Someone had slightly bumped into me and I think they said something but I'm not sure what it was. Since then I've been searching for him. I just had this gut feeling. After I failed looking for him In one part of the house I bumped back into Louis who was also helping search for him. "Did he ever say anything to you? Do you remember who he was with or what direction he went in?" "I never saw him after He went off to find a bathroom. I just have this gut feeling somethings wrong ever since someone bumped into me." "Did you see you bumped into you? Did they say something to you?" "I wasn't sure It was Hard to hear. It sounded like a failure though. I didn't really see the person who bumped into me just the person behind the-" I was cut off by my own thoughts. I saw the person who was behind them and that's when it hit me what the person said. "Harry." Louis just looked at me like I was insane. "Yeah harry that's been who we've been talking abo-" I didn't hear the rest I found myself following where that person came from.

HARRY'S POV

My head was pounding, I was naked, I was stuck and cold. It was dark and I was in pain. I was lying on the floor of the bathroom at some random party alone. He th-that man he -raped me? He did. Oh my god he did!!! I found myself panting, everything was coming back. I couldn't move, I needed help. The pain was everywhere. I heard footsteps and wanted to hide. I didn't know who it was but now I was scared. Soon the door opened and I found myself in someone's arms. It took a second to recognize who it was till I heard them telling me I'd be ok and talking to someone else giving them orders. It was Liam. I just stayed there numb. I thought that'd be what I wanted but now that it was here I just wanted to go back. I just let myself slip into darkness despite Liam's pleas not to.

The door bursts open as i layed on the floor. Numb.