Quiet Is Viølent (Twenty One Pilots Fanfiction)

Oh my too Deep, I liked it better when my car had sound

A lone figure stands in the doorway of my room. Their outline stands firm and alarmed. All I know is that what just happened was a dream, or a nightmare. The only question now is am I still dreaming? They slowly approach me as I lay there in fear. It gets closer and closer until we're face to face. I hold my breath. I can't think straight, everything seems so confusing it feels as if my head is spinning. A hand reaches out and gently taps my hand.
"Tyler?...Tyler are you okay?" I take a sigh of relief, it was Josh; I'd completely forgotten he was sleeping over.
"I had a bad dream, it's nothing to worry about, just go back to sleep." I say in a slow, slurry voice. He yawns loudly.
"Okay, goodnight Tyler..." He says quietly, strolling out my room in just his boxers.
"Night." I reply.

Once I could hear Josh snoring I sit up and turn my lamp on. I could fall back to sleep, not after what I'd just dreamt. I pick up my phone and try to distract myself, because anything that could keep my mind off things I'd be thankful for. I look through Twitter and Instagram finding nothing particularly interesting or distracting. I lay back in my bed sweating from the heat- Josh must of turned the heating up. Throwing the duvet off the bed I stretch my legs out across the bed. I feel cramped, like I'm trapped in a box which only allows me to think the same things through my head, like a permanent repeat button. And now it seems like sleep can't even take me away from reality.

About an hour or so of pondering over the things a regret in life a finally attempt to fall asleep again, hoping I don't have another bad dream. I turn on my side, I lay on my back, I turn to the other side, but nothing seems comfortable, much like my life. Everything in my life at the moment is uncomfortable especially having a conversation about myself after my best friend has just died, it makes me feel selfish. But talking about her is uncomfortable. Her name is on the top of everyone's head but no one says it anymore, not without it being uncomfortable. I hate it. I hate not being able to talk about something that's on my mind, in other words I hate my mind.

I wake up to the sound of the galling winds outside. The weather has been all over the place recently, which is typical Ohioan weather. I stroll into the living room and find Josh perched on the sofa with a cup of coffee.
"Morning." He says, his voice is croaky and tired.
"Morning." I yawn sitting beside him.
"You said you had a bad dream...what was it about?" He asks curiously. i look at him thinking deeply about my unusual dream that both haunted and confused me.
"...It was about Aria...and Jenna...they died- so did I." It was all I was able to say. I mumbled it quietly to show Josh I didn't really want to speak about it, even though deep down inside I really did, I just thought it'd be too much pressure on Josh and attention on me. Once again I felt selfish. I keep forgetting Josh lost Aria too, and Xander. We all went through the same thing, so why am I coping so badly?
A voice inside of me says it's because I love her. Another says it's because I'm an idiot and I overthink things. Both are right- I'm just an introverted kid who's soulmate died.
"Okay. I understand." Josh nods slightly. A silence lingered the air. It was unsettling and awkward. I'd encountered several awkward silences, but this had been the first with just Josh and Me. The silence was eventually broken by Josh.
"Tyler I think we need to talk about our band.." Josh states. I narrow my eyes suspiciously.
"You're not going to kick me out the band are you(?)" I joke. We both laugh briefly which opens me up a bit more.
"We have a show in less than a week, and it's probably the biggest venue we've had with the most amount of people." Josh exclaims.
"But I was wondering..." he says with less enthusiasm and demean.
"If we should postpone it.?" I glare at him with surprise. He loves performing; we both do.
"No!" I immediately say easing my voice.
"We can't..." I add.
"Tyler I was just wondering if it would be a good idea to call it off for a while to sort some things out, you know?" I know what Josh is saying I just don't agree. We play music to tell people to stay strong and that's what's we're going to do- stay strong and play music.
"No I'm fine,we can do it." I curl my lips in an upward fashion to show that I am strong enough. Am I?
"Ok, if you say so." Josh smiles, glad that we can actually perform without me screwing things up as usual.
"We should do something with Jenna, we could do with some company." Josh suggests.
"Isn't she at work?" I question, raising an eyebrow. Josh face palms.
"Oh yeah. I'll text her and see if she wants to hang out somewhere after her shift." He says.
"Good idea (((like MCR)))." I smile.

After letting Xander know about our plans we sit around for a bit eating snacks and energy drinks waiting for Jenna to respond. She finally replies just after it's turned 2:00.
'Yeah I'd love to! Meet at Tyler's 3:00? ;)' she texts.
'Yep :) see u soon!' Josh replies. We haven't even properly know Jenna for 24 hours yet and she already feels like a pretty close friend, despite my dream about her.

It takes about five minutes for me and Josh to process the fact that we're still in our pyjamas and boxers. We rush to get dressed knowing that that Jenna and Xander will be arriving shortly. I share my clothes with Josh like we always have.

Once we were both dressed we head back into the living room and see all of the mess we'd made from the snacking. I quickly throw all the rubbish in the bin as Josh brushes off any crumbs on the sofa.

The doorbell rings and Josh jumps up to answer it, me trailing behind. He unlocks and opens the door as if it were his house.
"Salutations!" Josh grins at Jenna.
"Xander should be here søøn, then we'll discuss where to go." He adds.
"Sounds fun!" She smiles back. Her eyes divert to me.
"Hi Tyler." She says.
"Hello." I reply, suddenly transforming into a nervous wreck.
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