Quiet Is Viølent (Twenty One Pilots Fanfiction)

But from the things that work There are only two.

A/N: Who is BlurryFace? And why does he want me dead?

I sit at the breakfast table, surrounded by my family. All of whom are happy to properly see me, it makes me remember how much I've actually missed them.
"How's Josh doing?" Zack asks with a mouthful of pancakes.
"He's fine." I reply.
"Has he still got blue hair?" Maddy asks.
"Nah, it's red now-he dyed it the other day." I say, gulping down the last of my espresso.
"You mind if you could drop me round Josh's after I get dressed?" I ask, looking at my dad.
"Yeah, but hurry up I don't want to be late for work." He says.
"Ok, thanks." I smile briefly before running up the stairs to get in the shower and dressed. Luckily I kept some of my clothes here. I pick out a shirt and skinny jeans which have been in my wardrobe for over a year now.

After I'm ready I rush down the stairs to my dad who's already been waiting for the past 10 minutes.
"I'm sorry, I guess I kinda lost track of time in the shower." I say, even though it was only half true. I'd stayed in the shower a little longer, but was late because I came up with some lyrics I'd like to use in mine and Josh's new album. They were dark lyrics, that have a special purpose and meaning to me.
"Come on..." He says, grabbing his car keys and heading out the door. I follow slowly behind him. We get into the car. At first we are silent, but my dad starts some small talk.
"How are dealing with Aria's death?" I get the chills as he says her name, like he's just shaken my whole skeleton.
"Not good, I can't seem to think straight anymore..." I sigh uncomfortably. I've never liked talking about personal stuff with my parents, I normally spoke about it with Josh.
"Good. That's completely normal, it's all part the healing process. Don't worry, it'll go away in a little while" he smiles, glaring at me through his mirror. I start thinking if I actually want it to go away, its started to become part of who I am. Tyler Joseph- the boy who lost his head over a dead girl. It's a good name, but not a name I could live with.

"Thanks, dad." I say getting out the car and waving at him. He waves back as he drives off. I put my hood up be issue its raining and knock on Josh's front door. I wait for a while before knocking again. Then finally someone answers, but it's not Josh.
"Hi Tyler!" His younger brother Jordan opens the door.
"Hey. Where's Josh?" I ask.
"He's gone out, he said something about getting some air. I don't know, he seemed sad..." Jordan says scratching the back of his head.
"Any idea where he might be?" I ask, fumbling for my phone in pocket.
"I don't know, he said something about being gone for a while, but I wasn't really listening." Jordan says yawning in fatigue. I'd forgotten it was only 9am.
"Okay, thanks!" I say, running across the porch. I slow down once I see have 3 missed calls and a message from someone, and that someone was Josh. I instantly panicked and thought the worst, and the worst I could think was Josh jumping off a bridge. I read the messages which say,
"Hi, just wanted to say that you're my best friend and you mean the world to me :)."
My hands begin shaking. What does that mean? That could be anything. Was it his was of saying goodbye, or was it just a friendly reminder. Either way I was scared out of my mind. Josh would rarely leave his house alone, let alone go for a walk in the rain at 9am. I don't bother replying and cross the road.

There are 5 nearby bridges around here, he could be at any of them. I stop in the middle of the pavement to calm down. There's no evidence of Josh going to kill himself, but I just have this bad feeling that's crawling around inside of me. I soon decide to phone Xander and see if Josh is at his house or something.
"Hello?" Xander says in a casual voice.
"Hi, Xander? Is Josh there with you?" I ask, urgently tapping my foot.
"No, why'd you ask?" He questions, easing his vice with concern.
"Never mind, bye." I say hanging up, not wanting to waste time talking when Josh could be in trouble.

I come across the first closest bridge, no one's there but it in no way lessens my concern. I keep on walking holding in the tears and trying my best to ignore my thoughts.
He might not be dead,
But he could be.
He might not want to die,
But he could.
He could.
He has that power to take his life. And he could take it so easily, but then again, so could I. He was meant to be the strong one, not me. I sigh heavily and take deep breaths in order to calm down. Once I focus my mind I turn into the park without actually thinking. I hadn't been here since I kissed Aria. I go to turn out but see a lonely figure on the swing set. I narrow my eyes to catch a glimpse at their face, but their hood is up.

I feel my spirit lift up as I come to realise it's Josh. He was fine the whole time. I approach him quietly, not wanting to intrude his privacy. I sit on the swing next to him and look over in his direction. He doesn't look back, but I know he's aware of my presence.
"Hey, how's life treating you?" I say softly.
"Like hell.." he mumbles. I see the black bags under his eyes, he looks terrible.
"At first I thought that I could get over it, but now I'm starting to understand how wrong I was." he sighs emptily. I hate to see him like this.
"I know, but that's just what death does to you it takes away your happiness, your hope.., your faith."
"I know, but it never goes away. When will it go away?" He frowns.
"You just have to be patient, all wounds heal." I say, brushing the rain off my face.
"But not all scars fade..." Josh grumbles. I begin to wonder where that negative energy has come from. Did it develop recently? Or had it being growing inside of him for as long has he can remember?
"I'm here for you Josh." I know that's probably the 100th time either of us had said that to each other this week but it was true, we had each other's backs.
"I know. And I'm sorry about being like this. How'd you find me anyways?" He asks, looking up at me for the first time dice I got here.
"Oh, um Jordan told me you were here." I lie.
"Oh yeah. I'm glad you came, you're a good friend Tyler Joseph." He smiles showing some of his teeth.
"So are you." I grin back as I swing on the swing.

We spend the rest of the morning talking about future plans for Twenty|One|Pilots, including the lyrics I thought about this morning. Josh seemed very enthusiastic about it, but then again he always was when it came to music. We søøn had to part ways after Josh got a text from his brother about him promising to play basketball with him.
"I guess I gotta go." Josh says standing up.
"Ok." I reply.
"See you soon. Bye Tyler!" He says walking out of the park waving at me. I wave back before I start walking to my apartment. Josh seems to have opened up after I spoke to him. I never thought that I had the ability to change someone like that, and I never though
I'd be able to make Josh happy when I'm not even happy myself. I felt better even though nothing had really changed. Aria was still dead. I still missed her. I still loved her. I was still sad. But somehow, in all this darkness is managed to find hope. Hope that things get better. And hope that fear does not consume my life like it has done before. Because we never really move on, we just learn to live with it, and I can live with it as long as I have my friends and as long as I have hope. (HOPE IS THE ONLY THING STRONGER THAN FEAR)

I unlock the door to my apartment, realising this would be my first time completely alone after the funeral.
"Great..." I mumble to myself.

A/N: anyone else currently crying at Fairly Local as you play it over and over again because me too. I heard that a lot of people don't like it because they've changed but I've only heard this one song and I already know that I'm going to love BlurryFace. What do you think?!?