Quiet Is Viølent (Twenty One Pilots Fanfiction)

There are things we can do

"Where should we go then?" Josh asks smiling at all of us.
"How about the park?" Jenna suggests, enthusiastically. Me and Josh exchange looks, he frowns. That was the place we went with Aria, I can't go there for a while.
"Actually..." Josh says quietly, until he's interrupted by Xander.
"What about the lake? There's a good spot on the cliffs overseeing it- it's a wonderful view." We look at Xander, thankful for his suggestion.
"Good idea." I grin awkwardly. I hadn't been to the lake in years, it'd be nice to go there again.
" okay shall we go now or..." Xander says, already eager to leave. Out of all of us Xander seems the least affected, but I know he's hiding the sad truth that his best friend is gone forever. I feel guilty for not seeing if he wanted to sleep round, but he had to take Jenna back anyway. Something tells me he's distracting himself from thinking of Aria. Over the past 15 minutes he's be unable to sit still. Maybe it's his way of coping with it, maybe it's not.
"Yeah, it's already passed 3:00." Josh says pointing at his watch. We all stand up. I feel for my phone in my back pocket, it's not there.
"Hang on I have to get my phone from my bedroom." I say, rushing out to go and grab it. I scurry into my room and grab it in my bedside table. Uses the photograph of Aria. I'd forgotten is was there. I think I'd subconsciously ignored it, but now I'm staring at it, reflecting on the memories we shared. The good and the bad. I want to cry but I don't want to be the weak one, even though I know I am anyway. Shoving the phone in my pocket and turn away. I close the door. I don't look back.

We got into Xander's car, Josh calling shotgun. Me and Jenna sit in the back together avoiding eye contact.
"How about we put on some music." Xander says, switching on the radio. He puts on a song called 'Welcome To The Black Parade' by My Chemical Romance, another band that inspired us. It was a extremely sad song, but Xander kept it on for some reason, passionately mouthing the lyrics. Josh just sat there on his phone and Jenna stared out the window. It was a beautiful view. She noticed me looking at her and I immediately turned away. A smile crept through her face. After that I ignored everything else and focused on the lyrics. The black parade was about the comfort of death, and how it approaches you in your most fondest memory, which in this case is a parade. I wonder how death would approach me. Would it be my fondest memory? Or that cliché light at the end of the tunnel nonsense? I hope that someone will guide me to the end, because I wouldn't want to spend this final moment alone. But who's to say they'll be anything at all?

A while later we arrive at the cliffs overlooking the lake. Xander parks in a small car park right near the edge which is kinda scary.
"Let's go!" Josh says as we all hop out of the car. We sit at a bench with the best view of the lake and I start a conversation.
"How was work?" I ask Jenna who seems to be in a world of her own. She looks flustered and confused until she zones back into reality.
"Oh, it wasn't too bad...only a few impatient jerks." She sighs.
"Some people don't really understand how lucky they are." Josh says resting his chin on the table.
"Agreed." the rest of us mumble. The atmosphere suddenly became morbid and everyone found themselves constantly sighing. Maybe it was part of the grieving process. We keep somehow making ourselves sad about small things and I don't like it. I don't like other people being upset and me not being able to do anything about it. I'm starting to wonder if things can ever be normal again. I want to move on, but I can't.

"Should we head down to the lake and throw rocks or something?" Xander asks after he's finished taking pictures of the view.
"Yeah that'll be fun." Jenna grins. We head down the path that leads to the lake. It isn't that far of a walk but it still tires me out. There isn't that many people around which is good. And we starts examining the rocks below him.
"Here's a good one!" He says skimming the rock perfectly across the water onto the other side of the lake.
"Woah! That was awesome." Jenna says in awe.
"Let me try." She picks up a rock and does the same actions as Xander, only it went straight into the water. I chuckle darkly.
"Flick your wrist more." I say, demonstrating. I skim the rock but it lands straight into the water like Jenna's. she giggles softly.
"Well done(!)" Xander applauds me. Jenna tries again, getting the rock half way across the lake.
"Josh you gonna try." I ask, turning to him who's laying on a nearby rock.
"Nah, I'm ok." He says adjusting his sunglasses. I don't know what urges me to do it but I splash water on him. He jumps up screaming with the fact he's covered in cold water.
"Hey!" He shouts playfully as I splash him with more water. He gets me back and gets Xander and Jenna wet in the process.

Sooner or later it turns into a full on water fight. We all run about soaking each other laughing our heads off. The laughter seems to ease my thoughts which is always a good feeling. Once we've tire ourselves out Josh and Xander go to get some drinks they'd left in the car. I lay beside Jenna on the grass as she is still panting and out of breath. I look at her and chuckle.
"That was fun." I smile at her staring into her deep blue eyes. We lay there for a few seconds, staring at each other.
"I'm glad I met you Tyler." she smiles. I smile back. I grab her hand with a firm grip.
"Me too." I whisper, kissing her on the cheek. She blushes. Kissing Jenna felt like I'd never lost Aria, and for a split second I believed she was Aria.

Xander and Josh come back a few minute later with some red bull.
"Sorry, this is all I had. I how you like red bull" Xander says placing several cans of them informs of us.
"Who doesn't!" Jenna says grabbing one. The rest of us take on and we sit around for a while.
"It's getting late." Josh says looking at his watch."its already 6:00."
I go to day we should leave but I hear my phone go off-it's my mom.
"Hi." I say in a monotone voice.
"Hello Tyler, how have you been?"
"I've been ok."
"Are you sure? You know I am your mother you can tell me anything." she says suspiciously.
"I'm actually with Josh, Xander and our new friend Jenna."
"I'm glad you're with your friends but how about you come over a see us this evening?" She suggests, obviously worried about me.
" Okay, I'll see if Xander'll drop me off. Bye."
"Bye.she says hanging up. I've never liked speaking on the phone, it's too awkward because you can't physically see them.
"Hey Xander do you mind dropping me off at my parent's house?" I ask after they'd finished their conversation.
"Sure, I was thinking about leaving now cuz I'm getting kinda hungry." He says patting his stomach.
"Ok, let's go before Xander eats one of us" Josh jokes. We laugh amongst ourselves whilst walking back up the path.

Getting in the car Xander turns the radio back on. This time it's a song called 'Terrible Things' by Mayday Parade. It was another extremely sad song, I could barely handle it. It starts to get too sad so Xander switches it over. This song was actually one of my old songs I wrote whilst in college called Whisper. I hadn't heard it in a while and I'd forgotten I'd given Xander a copy of my disc.
"Is that you Tyler?" Jenna asks a few seconds later.
"Yeah." I reply, blushing.
"It's beautiful." She says quietly.

Once Xander's dropped me off at my parent's house I say goodbye and head inside. I find my mom waiting for me by the staircase. She looks worried and as if she hadn't slept in days.
"Are you ok?" I ask.
"I was gonna ask the same about you." suddenly I feel really sad again. Like the distraction of my friends have gone and I'm left alone again.
"It must hurt like hell." she frowns, pulling me into a tight hug. I begin crying because this is the last place I saw Aria alive. It was the last memory we shared. I can still hear her shouting my name. The pain in her voice hurt my head, I couldn't help her, all I could do was watch her. It haunted me.
"Everyone else is eating, I saved some food for you if you want some." She says. I nod. She begins to walk into the kitchen.
"Mom?" I say stopping her.
"Yeah?" She replies.
"Can I sleep on the couch? I don't want to be in my apartment alone."
"Of course you can honey." she smile sweetly then carries on going to the kitchen.

After eating and talking to my family I head to the couch, in hope of getting a good nights sleep. And for the first time in a while, I actually do.
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A/N: the song at the beginning is one of the saddest songs I know, it's called 'Terrible Things' by Mayday Parade.