Quiet Is Viølent (Twenty One Pilots Fanfiction)

Cause This Time There's no sound to hide behind

*Again, I'm sorry for not posting as regularly as I do, but this time I actually was busy (for once). And I'd like to thank you all for 14k and 53 followers,you all mean so much to me! Thank yøu all! *
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We arrive at TacoBell. It was never discussed but Josh knew that's what I would want to eat. He smiles at me briefly as he parks the car. I know his smile is just there to hide the pain from me. If he were alone, he'd be frowning.

We get out the car and enter through the doors. We sit down I can feel a slight draft. I put my hands in my pockets and find Aria's phone in there. Goosebumps appear up my arm. It felt like I was touching her hand for split second and I jolt my hand away.
"You ok?" Josh asks. I look up at him and snap out of my daze.
"I miss her." I say. the words slipped out of my mouth like second language.
"Me too." Josh sighs, resting his head on the palm of his hand.

After we order our food Josh throws both of our trash in the bin and sits back down. We share a collective sigh as one large woman starts shouting at an employee.
"Some people just don't know how lucky they are." Josh says, his eyes remain watching the woman get angrier and angrier. As he sits there watching the woman, I start looking out the window. Staring at all the people getting on with their lives, totally oblivious as to what's happening in the world around them, I realise something. Something that I've always been told as a child, but never really understood it until now;
You don't know what you've got, until you've lost it.

Those words ring in my ears, this is my wake up call. The voice telling me how important she was to me, and only now I've realised how dependant I've become. All my life I've been on my own, but after I met her the past didn't matter, nothing mattered but Aria. I look up to the sky and wonder how many people are thinking the same thing. All those lonely faces who've lost what mattered most to them and struggle to keep on living for the sake of their family and friends. Because living for someone is hard. It hurts, but still you do it because you love them. I go through my mind all the people who I love, and who I live for. Josh is the first name that comes to my head. He's been with me all along, and I know he's never going to leave because that's the type of guy Josh is. The type of guy that never gives up, the one shining the light at the end of the tunnel, the voice telling me it'll be okay.

I glance at him. He immediately notices and smiles. I look him in the eyes, and see that behind his smile lies great pain, yet he still smiles, refusing to show emotion. Eventually I smile back.
"You wanna come back to mine?" Josh asks. I nod without thinking it through. Now thinking about it I'd prefer to be alone but I don't want to disappoint him.
"Ok." I say dully. Standing up I realise how weak my legs are I wobble slightly. I regain my balance and attempt on walking but instead I slip and smash my head into the corner of the table. Then, falling bitterly to the ground I black out for a second.

I reopen my eyes to find Josh perched next to my limp body.
"Quite a fall you had there, you ok?" He asks, sounding a little too serious. I nod my head and sit up. I notice everyone's looking at me and blush.
"Can we just leave, please?" I say, trying not to cry but the pain still aches in my throat.
"Yeah sure. " Josh says standing up then helping me get back into my feet. Getting up I suddenly feel really dizzy. I shake my head and try to focus on the door.
"Are you sure you're ok?" Josh asks grabbing me by my upper arm incase I loose my balance and fall again.
"Yeah." I sigh, ignoring the migraine that whirls through my head like a storm.

*
We arrive at Josh's house and my migraine hasn't gone, but my dizziness seems to have disappeared. Right now all I want to do is sleep, but not just for a few hours, forever. I want to fall into a eternal sleep where no reality can haunt me. As we head up to Josh's room I realise that I haven't asked Josh if he's ok, so I decide now will be the right time. We enter Josh's room and he immediately falls and lands on his bed. I sit beside him, not really wanting to lay down.
"Josh, I never asked you if you were okay. Are you okay?" I ask quietly, trying not make this moment as awkward as it already is. He lifts his head up slowly, then the rest of his body.
"Of course I'm not, my best friend died." He says, hiding his sad face by looking down at his feet. I don't knew why but what he said made tears well up in my eyes.
"She's never coming back." I cry, burying my face in the depths of Josh's pillow. My migraine has worsened and now all I want to do is die. These feeling are out of the blue, but the more I try not to think about it, the worse it gets. I soon feel a warm hand placed in my back. It's obviously Josh's but still I look up to see if he's going to say something that will make me feel better , but all he says is;
"Tyler, you need to sleep. Sleep and then think things through." He says, with no particular expression or sound in his voice that implies any sympathy or sadness in his voice. He gets, up walks out and closes the door. I have no idea why he's doing it, but then I close my eyes and start actually thinking it through:

I hadn't left the house, until Josh told me too. I hadn't eaten until Josh told me too. And I haven't slept and know Josh has told me too.

I'm broken and this is Josh picking up the pieces. Slowly and carefully he's rebuilding my life, and it's taken me so long to realise how much he's actually been there for me. Man am I lucky to have a Joshua Dun.

* The woman in the music video at the start of the chapter is called Kina Grannis , and that's who Aria is based on. I know you all have your own idea as to what she looks like, but I thought I should let you know.*