My Blood Brother (jenlisa)

Chapter 14

       CONFRONTATION AFTER THE PARTY
   

Lisa's  POV

"Lisa wants wrong with you, why will you say such a thing about her perfume it's been six year's, you're not even close to her, she will think you're a weirdo for saying that".

Wow my subconscious was running wide, I'm I weird?

"Yes you are".

"No I'm not" I couldn't help but reply my subconscious.

I couldn't help it, it felt like the first day I met her unconscious in the garden, her scent filled my nostrils I couldn't help but stare at her pretty face, I could still remember how her palms felt like, they were so soft I felt I could held her forever.

I just couldn't stop myself from having these thoughts again, I'm back now and she is closer than ever but I can't be close to her  because it might ruined a lot of things.

I always had this feeling that Kia and Jennie will end up with each other, I just knew it.

What I'm I even thinking, I hate feeling this way it's just so hard to comprehend sometimes.

It's feels like I'm going crazy since I just got here and everything is feeling so farmilar again, I don't want that feeling I hate the feeling.

The feeling of being weak and not being able to been in control, I don't want that.

Those years in Thailand I used to have thought about Jennie, I always thought about what she was doing, where she was going if she was safe or not, it took a very strong will power to stop myself from thinking about her, up until now I still can't surpress by feeling for Jennie.

I know at a point I denied having feeling for her but it hurt more to lie to oneself, but there is nothing I can do.

I know for sure she will never feel the same way towards me, she has Kia and Kia is a real man unlike me.

Sometimes it's hard to be me.

I just know that Jennie will never be mine.

I remembered one of those conversation I had with nanny Mina before I left for Thailand, she was saying that Kia has feeling for Jennie but I doubted it, because we were still young and Kia used to tell me everything then but he never mentioned having feeling for Jennie, he never mentioned it up until now.

I should just leave like I planned, I never knew they were having a party I thought that when I visit it will only be nanny Mina at home. I wanted to just greet her and then I will just go back to my apartment.

Yes my apartment, I rented it when I first arrived Korea I didn't want to live in the same roof with my parents because I want to be in control of my life.

Sometimes life is unfair, we don't always get what we want.

That's my life I guess, it's just me and my painting.

I just laid on my bed staring at the ceiling until my eye lid felt heavy.

THE NEXT MORNING

I heard a knock on door at first I wanted to ignore it but the person kept on knocking.

"Whose there" I said while I tried to get off the bed.

I finally reached for door when I opened the door, I was surprised to see my brother standing there smiling at me.

"I guess you had a very good night because you looked refreshed" he said smiling.

"Yes I guess" I said looking puzzled.

"Well I'm glad you slept well, I came here to give you this clothes since I didn't see you with any luggages last night" he said still smiling.

"Oh thanks that's so thoughtful of you" I replied him laughing because he was acting funny.

"Because last night was kinda embarrassing, I just strolled in looking as if I just came back from playing golf" I said.

"No problem Lisa I just wanted you to be comfortable, I guess that the hotel you're staying at is far from here and I don't want you stressing yourself this early hours of the day" he said.

"Thank you for being so thoughtful" I told him.

"Well you know I always have your back" he joked.

But I didn't laugh and it's starting to become awkward for the both of us.

"Well Lisa father wants you to have breakfast with us before you leave, he wants to talk to you about something" he said awkwardly and left.

"Okay" I replied casually.

With that Kia left, After he left my door post I tried to get myself ready for the breakfast with my parents so that I can get the hell out of this place already.
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At the dinning table

It's being a long time since I did this with my parents, I remembered after that trip with the Kim's they were barely around.

I remember eating alone all the time and Kia was never around those days he was always at Jennie's playing house.

I was smiling while I eat and that caught my mom's attention.

"Lisa I guess you missed us eating as a family" she asked.

I couldn't help but fake a smile at her question.

The truth is I didn't really missed anything apart from nanny Mina because she was always around.

"Yes mom I missed all of this" I replied her while staring at my food.

I heard someone cleared their throat so I look up and it was my annoying father who thinks he knows everything thing.

I did an eye roll and he caught me.

"Lisa you look different and act differently now, I guess Thailand really changed you for the best" he replied while chewing on his food.

"I guess so Dad" I replied calmly.

"Well I'm not pleased that you didn't informed us of your return, we would have done a welcome back party for you" he said looking at me straight in the eye.

"It's useless Dad and I don't like parties" I said.

"Come on honey you would have informed us, we were got off guard, and where are your luggages? cause I didn't see you with any last night" she said looking at me.

"What is going on here why are you guys going emotional on me, is it because I have done what you always wanted" I said slightly rising my voice.

"LISA YOU WILL APOLOGIZE TO YOUR MOTHER THIS MINUTES!" My father shouted.

"No I won't do no such thing, none of you showed concern about me, not one day did you call me, even after the surgery was done you never called to show affection. For crying out loud I am my your child".

"Did you think I came in here yesterday for y'all? I don't even care about you guys anymore, I came here because I wanted to see my nanny that's why I came. And I'm not going to live in this house" I said angry-ly and Left.

That's was the last straw I was trying to keep it cool with everyone but they don't want that, I know that I shouldn't blow up like that but I couldn't help it, it's has been building up for year's and I finally get to see them and I just exploded.

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