Trained For Sin

Chapter 16

"I was sent here to kill you." I breathed hesitantly never looking away from him as his features morphed into confusion into realization. I took the opportunity to continue wanting to explain my situation.

"My name and resume were a lie to get close and work with you. I-I didn't expect to become your secretary or anything. I just- I thought I would get to know you and what you did from afar. We never even had to meet." I began as he turned his back from me raking his hands through his dark black hair.

"But I didn't kill you right away when I had the chances. Because I didn't understand why I would be sent here to kill someone like you. You're nothing like the other people I've-" I continued before he turned to me a cut me off. "I can't believe what I'm hearing" Nathan turned making me step closer.

"I'm sorry-" I began. "You wanted to kill me?" He beamed moving away from me. "You've killed people?" Nathan scoffed in mistrust making me look away in guilt and shame.

"I never wanted to, I never wanted this. But I assure you all of the people I've killed deserved it! They- They were horrible, horrible people who did horrible things and got away with them. This was never a job I wanted." I said feeling as though I should be defending myself to him.

I knew I shouldn't have been telling him any of this and exposing myself, but I knew if he didn't take this well, I had the resources to leave without a trace. But I felt the need to tell him he was in danger from my boss. And for some unknown reason I felt like I could trust Nathan to tell him the truth.

"Still! There is no reason why someone would need to kill another human being and profit off of it." Nathan grit sternly making me look up at him with pleading eyes. "Wallace Corbin." I said calmly making him frown. "He assaulted a fourteen-year-old girl five years ago. He got away with it because there wasn't any evidence against him. So, he moved where he continued to assault more girls. Do you really think his life was worth sparing?" I asked full of hurt and anger. I needed him to understand that I have killed people who only deserved what I did to them.

"I'm sure you've seen people get away with crimes that they should have been put away for." I continued making him turn his head away raking his fingers through his hair. "Yes. But that doesn't mean I take the law into my own hands. I trust the system." He replied sternly making me tense. "Well, good thing I'm not a lawyer." I retorted.

"I never had the luxury of having a career set for me at a young age like you. To have something to pass down to me. I've never even had parents or a family for that matter. My brother and I were bounced around orphanages and foster homes all throughout our childhood. Until I finally left and decided to live on my own. I had multiple jobs and I still couldn't afford to pay my bills and the dump of an apartment I had at the time. I was poor and miserable until one night a man came into the diner I worked at." I began as he held into every word.

"He promised me a job that would pay me four figures. But I-I didn't know I would be killing people at the time. My boss tricked me into signing a contract to stay with the organization for ten years. And I knew if I changed my mind at any moment or didn't do as I was told there would be someone after me. I've never wanted any of this." I pleaded looking up at him to his eyes were glued on me. As the silence grew for a few moments his eyes softened as he thought.

"What about Rose?" Nathan asked after a moment making me look away. "I've kept her a secret from them ever since I was pregnant. I couldn't risk them using her against me or putting her in danger from the people I go after. She lives with my brother. I've only been able to visit her when I am able to. The decision to leave her nearly killed me." I breathed feeling horrible for not being the mother I desperately wanted to be for Rose.