Trained For Sin

Chapter 53

Last night was a spontaneous and intimate moment that I haven't had with Nathan in months. I missed how perfect we were together in perfect sync molding together screaming out for each other. I was so happy to finally be in his arms again like how we used to be. But Cathy's words wrung in the back of my mind I knew I had to tell Nathan the truth of the person I really am. Was. Before he begins to remember all the horrific things, I've done for him without any explanation.

The warm glow of the morning sun shinned in through the bedroom window illuminated his sleeping features. His muscular arm was draped over my waist as I focused on his bare chest and the comfort I felt from his deep breathing. I would gladly stay in this exact moment with him forever. He's always been the one to wash away my pain.

Nathan groaned softly moving away from me slightly as he reluctantly opened his eyes waking up. He noticed me staring with a small smile making him pull my waist closer to his. "Good morning." He smiled leaning down to kiss me. I held his face in my hand as we pulled apart his forehead leaning against mine. "Rose and Finn will be awake soon expecting breakfast." I breathed against his lips.

"I'm not ready to let you go." Nathan replied in a deep sleepy groan flipping us over, so he was hovering over me. "You have no idea how much I've missed this." I breathed through the kissing. Nathan rested his arms on the mattress beside my head as I held his face. Running my nails up and down his toned, muscular chest and back loving the feeling of his bare body against mine.

"But we have children to feed. And you have an exciting day ahead of you at the office." I replied pulling my head away from his placing my palms firmly on his chest. I smiled giving him one more peck on the lips before sitting up from the bed to get dressed making Nathan groan collapsing onto his back.

Noticing the clock read eight in the morning as I threw a tee shirt on. "Fine." He huffed in annoyance standing up to put on his boxers. Nathan stood behind me bending down leaning into my ear as I looked through the bedroom window overlooking the city. "But I intend on continuing this later." Nathan kissed behind my ear and down my neck holding my waist. I closed my eyes feeling his lips against my tender skin trying not to melt into him.

"Before things get too serious," I turned around to face him with seriousness. "I-I want- I need to tell you-" I began making him frown until Nathan's phone rang. Raking my fingers through my disheveled hair as he walked away to answer his phone talking to Lee about the day ahead.

We all thought it would be a good idea to bring Nathan to his office to try and help him gain any memories. Everyone else at the office who doesn't know about his mental state just thinks he's coming in to check on things and his previous clients cases while we're back in town.

Deciding to get into the hot shower to wash off last night's sweat and makeup as I went through every scenario that could possibly happen when I tell Nathan the real reason we met. All the different ways I could explain it without sounding like a horrific crazy person.

"I don't understand what the big deal is." Valerie replied as I vented in the kitchen. "He doesn't know that part of your life. Why would you want to risk the huge step forward that you two made in your relationship last night and tell him?" She asked as she poured herself coffee.

"How could you ask something like that? Of course, she has to tell him! He's still the same man he was he's just forgotten." Eve replied making me look around and up the flight of stairs worried Nathan would hear.

"Because I love him a-and I trust him. Just like I did when I first told him." I answered. "And if I don't tell him and he remembers bits and pieces of all the fighting and arguing... I-I don't know what I'd do. I don't know if there would be any coming back from that." I looked down at my plate of bacon and eggs.