The Unexpected (Ranboo x Reader)

The Talk

TW- effects of depression, and big sad

I didn't even bother getting out of bed today. I felt so horrible. I was mentally so distraught and I wasn't motivated to do anything. I just sat in bed all day rolled up like a burrito in my covers thinking through everything. My thoughts basically giving me no time to breathe all day. But I finally remember that Ranboo wanted to talk to me today. This is what motivated me around 7pm to finally get out of bed. I checked the time and honestly wasn't phased that I stayed in bed that long. I've had many episodes like this. I know it was bad but I didn't care. I walk into my bathroom and tried to tame my unruly hair with some water as it was a mess from being wrapped up in a blanket all day. I look into my mirror for a while after taming my hair. I look so bad... but I just knew I couldn't do anything to make myself look better. My eyes were so red and puffy from crying all night, my skin looked so pale and drained of life, and of course me still in my clothes from last night. I was so exhausted, starving but not bothering to eat, and hating life as a whole. I was so worn that I didn't plan on fixing anything but I'd have to go out in public to talk to Ranboo. I had to make it seem like I wasnt completely wrecked by yesterday. Especially since he had texted me this morning that he wanted to see me around 8pm and I now only had an hour to get around. Once it hit 7:50pm I put on a new outfit, grabbed a jacket, and got my skateboard as I stepped out of the door. I made my way back to the park that we had met earlier. As I approach I see Ranboo sitting on a bench waiting there for me looking down at his phone. I stop for a second contemplating if I want to go up and talk to him or run. Either way I think my heart will hurt, but I give in and begin to walk towards him. He turns to look at me when I get closer and set down my skateboard. He looked about the same as I did. Puffy eyes, unruly hair, and quite pale skin. Him staring at me made me feel so horrid inside. My heart broke seeing him like this and the fact that it was because of me made it worse. Ranboo finally spoke as he stood up from the bench.

"Hey Y/N..."

My heart continued to just shatter. His voice was so hoarse and crackling like he would burst into tears at any moment. God why did I do this to him? Why did I do this to myself? I'm so selfish. I look into his eyes though as he says my name. I'm as well about to break into tears once I mutter my response.

"Hi Ranboo... great night we're having huh.... Ha...ha..."

I wanted to curl up into a ball and cry. Even with the sarcastic comment to try and lighten the mood, the tension still remained. He looked to me concerned once the moonlight actually hit me well enough to show how bad I looked.

"Y/N..."

He walks up to me a bit closer than before and puts a hand on my cheek. I feel the tears rush out of my eyes as I feel his hand touch my skin. I had honestly missed Ranboo since last night. Spending my entire night thinking about the man sent me into a deep longing for him, even if it's just him saying my name. I look into his eyes though none the less and he speaks again.

"Y/N I wanted to bring you out here to explain all that happened yesterday ... it took me until you were skating back to your house in tears to realize what I did..."

He paused for a second letting a couple of tears fall from his eyes as he looks down. There is an emptiness on my cheek as he let go of my face but moves his hand to hold mine. He walked me over and we both sat of the bench Ranboo previously was on. Still with my hand in his I feel him give it a couple small squeezes. I get a little more anxious as the tension only grows.

"I shouldn't have brought Emily to come sit with us. She's a fan. That's how it should have stayed. I hate myself because I even noticed as soon as she came to sit with us you were uncomfortable..."

He lets out a massive sigh and just crumples over crying some more into his free hand. I wanted to comfort him so bad so I let go of his hand. As I do he looks up to me in concern that he'd screwed up again but instead of saying anything I just hug him. I tightened the hug as he now began to cry into my shoulder and I the same to him. God I missed him so much. My heart still broken from the encounter only being now ripped out of my body with Ranboos heat wrenching regret in himself. I liked this man there's no way that I could stay mad at him. I knew he regretted what he did and honestly it wasn't like we were an item in the first place. I take his head off my shoulder holding his face in my hands when I mutter some words with a small smile on my face.

"Hey hey... look at me... Ranboo you are so incredibly special to me. Of course I was uncomfortable with Emily being there but that's just for another reason... you are alright it wasn't really your fault. I hope you know that."

I wipe a couple of tears from his eyes after my response and he gives me a little confused and concerned look.

"I never got to fully get into this... but why did you not like Emily..."

Pink rises to my pale face probably more apparent than other times and I look away taking my hands from his face in embarrassment. Should I just tell him how I feel? Is it the right time? What if he doesn't feel the same though. He began to notice me going through a dilemma in my head as he turns me back to looking at him. He still has this concerned look on his face and it fills me with a bit more confidence that even through this he cares. I finally decide that it might just be time to tell him. I take a deep breathe and gather my thoughts.

"Ranboo... I want to tell you something..."

He continued the look and nods his head to inform me he's listening.

"I like you... like really like you... that's the reason that I didn't like Emily..."

His eyes widen and he's sat there in shock. I still continue with my explanation.

"Yeh... she just sat close to you.. and smiled whenever you talked... and laughed so much when you made jokes... I- I-... I guess I just got jealous..."

More shock rising to his face as he looks into my eyes. He had no response only action. I couldn't believe he did it too.

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