Let Me Down | John Murphy

Promises

Chapter 24

"Thanks for protecting me from Raven down there," John says as I reach the top.

"Kind of had no choice," I smile, pulling a fussy Dawn up to my chest. "Isn't it our thing? I stand up for you, and you stand up for me?"

Smirking, he nods. "I guess it is."

So... we have a thing now? What does that mean?

"John... what are we?" I say aloud the question I've been dying to know but shit scared to ask.

I don't look him. I'm too afraid to, which is why I'm relieved to have Dawn with me.

Watch mummy get shot down by the guy she likes.

I know we technically confessed our feelings for each other, but I still don't know what that means. Do I call him my boyfriend? And if so, am I even ready for that?

Yes, I like John. But that doesn't mean I know for sure what I want in regards to the future. Rory's death is still raw. And I don't know if I can handle losing somebody else that I let myself love.

"What do you want us to be?"

Answering my question with another question? Great. Just what I wanted to hear.

I wasn't expecting a relationship. Or, even the l word. I just wanted some kind of answer.

"Never mind," I shrug, moving away from John.

I should have never said anything at all.

"Quinn I-"

However, the sound of Clarke's scream cut John off, alerting us to the problem outside.

"Finn!"

Oh fuck, no.

Handing Dawn to John, I found myself practically jumping down the ladder and running outside of the dropship to find grounders surrounding the one we were protecting.

This is why he felt off. This was his plan all along.

What the fuck do we do now?

...

Pacing. I find myself pacing along the boarder of our camp.

If you can't already tell, I'm a little anxious. Finn's been in the grounders possession long enough for anything to have happened. We need him back. ASAP.

"Everything's going to be okay, Quinn," Bellamy tries to reassure me as I begin to pick at my nails.

Is he blind? Can he not see the obvious danger our friend's in?

"Tell that to the big old pole over there," I nod, referring to the focal point installed by the grounders.

"We're gonna get him. We'll get in close and hit them hard," Bellamy promises.

"Son..." I hear the sound of Marcus Kane begin to speak.

Imagine calling your daughter's baby daddy, son, and not your daughter, daughter.

"There's thousands of them. Even if we could kill hundreds... they'd still wipe out this camp and your friend would still die."

And I thought my mother was negative.

"We have to try," Bellamy insists.

"Abby," Raven cries. "Abby, we have to do something."

"No, Raven," she shakes her head.

Standing there, I realise something.

These people are all cowards. They'd rather sit there and watch an innocent die.

Okay, so maybe he die kill a couple of people. But people make mistakes. Finn doesn't deserve to die because of that.

I look to Raven, Abby, and the rest, and recognise their tears as they accept this fate.

This is bullshit.

"No, I don't accept this," I say aloud for all to hear.

"Quinn, we don't have a choice," Abby explains.

"Bullshit!" I snap.

"Daughter-"

"Fuck off, Kane!"

I haven't said a word to him since I found out my mother was a whore and fucked him, leading to two fucked-up twins being born, who were separated and now want to kill each other.

Seriously, what would I say?

"Quinn-" I hear Bellamy try, but I push past them and make my way through the crowd till my eyes lock with our current home.

I think back to what Billie was saying before...

Flashback

"So... what? You're important to her or something?" I asked my twin in regards to her relationship with the commander.

Billie nodded. "Some might say we're best friends."

I watched her crouch down to my level before she whispered in my ear. "So, I'd watch myself if I were you because if you try to kill me... she'll make your death look like an accident."

"I'm going to save you, Finn," I vow before marching towards the prison my sister has been living in...