Running Back to You (HeeseungXreader)

Part 9 || let's talk

A/N's POV

Y/N: "I choose... Sunghoon" Enhypen widened their eyes and faced Heeseung. Heeseung side glared Sunghoon to which Sunghoon looked at y/n in shock.

Pdnim: "alright, we'll discuss the schedule with both of you. You're all dismissed" he stood up ahead and left the room leaving y/n and Enhypen all alone. The silence was loud and uncomfortable. No one knew what to do or say. Y/n thought this was the time to talk to Heeseung alone

Y/N: "Hee-" before she could even finish Heeseung harshly left the room. The members watched as y/n's face fell

Jake: "y-" she ran out the door trying to look for Heeseung. She ran to their practice room, to the break room, the cafe, literally everywhere. She was gonna give up until she remembered their old practice room. She held the doorknob tightly and slowly opened the door. She saw Heeseung sitting in the middle of the room looking at himself in the mirror. He was hugging and resting his chin on his knees. He looked back to see who opened the door and once he saw y/n he stood up and tried walking pass her.

Y/N: "Heeseung wait" she held his arm but he removed it from her grip unintentionally hurting her a bit. She retracted her arm and sighed "Heeseung please let's talk"

Heeseung: "what's there to talk about? It's simple right? You gave me a promise, I trusted you, you left like you vanished into thin air. You didn't leave a message, note, nothing. It's like, did you even try contacting us?! Were we nothing to you? Did you use us just for you to debut? What is it y/n?!" He was letting his feelings out on her. He looked down at her staring into her eyes as tears welled up in his

Y/N: "I'm sorry" she bit her lip hoping not to have a panic attack. She cried while her tears fell on the floor. Heeseung watched her wanting to give her the biggest and warmest hug "ask me anything and I'll try my best to answer"

Heeseung: "where have you been and what happened. Tell me this and I'll forgive you" those are the only two questions she couldn't fully answer. She was forbidden to tell anyone about her accident. It might risk spreading to the public causing different rumors

Y/N: "I went abroad for an emergency and I also did my training there" Sunghoon went abroad the first month y/n disappeared.. could he...? He disregarded his thoughts thinking it may have been too far fetched but not impossible. He felt sad because they agreed if she was to be announced that she'd debut they would always train together

Heeseung: "but why did you stay there for so long, once trainees are announced to debut there's only 6 months of training left. Why'd you stay for a year"

Y/N: "I'm sorry... I can't- tell you that"

Heeseung: "why'd you pick Sunghoon instead of me?" She didn't respond but kept her head down. Heeseung secretly scoffed and looked away from her. He sadly smiled and wiped the tears that fell off his eye. "So you leave me for a year without giving a proper explaination?"

Y/N: "Heeseung, I'm sorry I really-"

Heeseung: "BULLSHIT!" He yelled at her making her go silent. He was almost at his breaking point, "you can't just leave me for a year and come back not to tell me what happened! Do you know how much I fucking missed you!" Tears started streaming down his face and y/n just watched him in guilt "Do you know how hard it was to distract myself from thinking about you! I always failed during practices because I was distracted. The coaches scolded me every single time! Every night I pray that when I wake up in the morning you're gonna be in our kitchen with your amazing meals! But when I find out you're not there, my heart breaks! You don't understand how I feel because you don't seem to act like a person who has feelings!"

He didn't bother wiping his tears but he just let them fall. He panted heavily after yelling at her face. She whimpered crying as well. She hissed and wiped a tear

Y/N: "how could you accuse me of not having feelings! You don't even know what I've been through!" This time it was her turn to yell back at Heeseung "do you know how it feels like to train every single day by yourself?! Do you know how it feels like to be alone when you're at your lowest?! Have you felt suffering like I did?!" She started trembling recalling her sufferings. "do you know how fucking hard it was to not tell you where I was?! Did you really think I didn't wanna tell you what I've been doing?! Do you honestly think I intentionally broke my promise! You're not the only one who suffered Lee! IMAGINE GOING THROUGH ALMOST 13 FUCKING MONTHS WITHOUT ANYONE!" She broke down and covered her face "how could you think I didn't miss you too... how could you think I didn't pray to see you as well... I hoped every single day for a miracle that I'd get to see you again. Distracting myself was out of the question, it was a task impossible for me-" she stopped and held onto her chest. She felt a heavy feeling and she knew she had to take her medicine. Everytime this came home meant that she was stressing herself out and a panic attack was coming

Heeseung was about to ask her something but she pushed him to the side and ran out the door. He looked back at her totally confused. He was confused with how he felt. He cried and cried thinking about how inconsiderate he was. How could I say those things to her? I feel so bad seeing her be hurt. It's worse to know that... it's because of me. He stood up thinking if he should look for y/n. But the fact that she left just now meant she didn't wanna talk. He shook his head and made his way to the dorms

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Y/n burst into her room making her door give off a loud bang as it hit the wall. She was shocked to see Sunghoon already sitting on her bed.

Sunghoon: "y/n?" She completely ignored him and pushed him to the side. She immediately dropped to her knees in front of her bag and started finding her injection. She felt herself having a panic attack soon and she needed to find her medicine to stop it. She wanted to ask Sunghoon for help but she was already too stressed to talk. She found the syringe with liquid inside. She removed the cover of the needle and jabbed it in her arm. She squeezed the liquid into her body and removed it dropping it on the floor and falling back. Sunghoon caught her from behind before her head was gonna hit the ground.

Jake: "y/n?"