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Fiction vs Reality

There's a beauty in the way words can transport you to another realm. It's a captivating experience when words become your comfort against the world. No matter where you are there's always gonna be words somewhere, and from there you can escape normal reality, escape the prison of day to day life.

I guess that's what got me, what stole my heart just as it did to everyone else.

A world where no one could hurt me, a world where I understand why things happen. Their mistakes make sense. Not here though, no matter how many possibilities I go through in my mind, their mistakes and anger just confuses me. Human nature is odd. I understand, but I don't want to. I want to be able to be mad. Logic, however, has other plans for me.

So fictional worlds it is. There I am protected, there I know a happy ending will occur. How? Because I can create one, I can put myself through so much in fictional places but in the end it's worth it because I know I'll be happy.

I can watch characters die, then bring them back. I can cry my heart out and not be judged there. There....where is there? It's an endless possibility.

One day I'm in a forest, the next I'm at the beach where the wind whips the seas waves back and forth harshly. Then suddenly I'm on a rooftop in a foreign country have dinner with the one I love most.

I'm free to go wherever I want.

Now do you see? It's perfection, no matter how many bad things happen it's still perfection.

Instead I'm stuck in a constant cycle of life. Wake up, get ready, work, home, prepare for the next day, sleep, repeat. I'll sleep the days away on the weekends and wish I were elsewhere since I have no one to hang out with, no motivation to try get out.

There's no excitement in life, unfortunately. And I don't think there will be for a while. So I'll strap in my mind, I'll close my eyes and dream. I'll hold my tongue and smile during the day and try to disappear when I get home.

I'll use my mind to run far far away from this planet. Maybe fight some aliens...though I've never been one for space stories. Maybe I'll become a pirate and runaway with a crew, fall in love with the captain perhaps. Obviously I've gotta take my cats with me, they're the only things really stopping me from diving off the deep end in reality.

The fur balls are full of love, I just hope I can give them everything I can in life.

So, where to next? There's plenty of fictional worlds waiting for me, plenty of fictional people for me to get attached to since I'm alone in real life.