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Suffocated

She's suffocated.

She's only half a term into the school year and yet she finds herself awake in bed at night crying. But why?

She's stressed.

She knew this year was gonna be difficult. She knew she'd have times she's want to give up. But I guess she just didn't understand it fully. Because here she is, behind in school work, feeling like she did at the end of grade 10. Mentally and physically over worked to the point one small thing sets her off.

She's broken.

Or more rather breaking. See she's still alive fighting each day no matter how tired and worn she is. But that doesn't excuse for the fact that she's been torn to pieces and is breaking ever so slowly and painfully. Why?

She's weak.

She can't deal with big amounts of stress yet big amounts of stress is all she deals with. Her body is so weak and chubby (not fat, she hates the word) that she hates it. How can she ever love her body? She doesn't understand why it is the way it is.

She's crying.

She never cries. A girl so strong, independent and perfect; why would she ever need to cry? That's what everyone sees though. In the dark, sat on the bed, hugging her plush ever so tightly, is her; crying from the immense pain living has become.

She's not alive.

She may be breathing. But she isn't truely living. Not alive more dead. Just existing. Hoping that the next day will be different even if she herself knows it won't. Existing. Hoping maybe her eyes will dry a little quicker and she'll be able to withstand a bit more stress.

She's suffocated.

Suffocated by life, by school- by everything that surrounds her.

Please help her breathe again...