Invisible Stars- Phan

8-Phil/Dan's Pov

A week passed, I told Dan everything. It wasn't easy, hell no. I broke down several times but he was still with me. In return, he told me about his PTSD and we've been helping each other ever since. I'm fully healthy now and back at work, though I did have to convince Dan earlier today that I was perfectly fine to go to work. Today was rather busy but I managed to get through it and I'm proud of myself for that "Phil, I'm not sure about this" I chuckled, wrapping my arm around Dan's shoulder and looking at him "trust me, this will help. I'll be here with you every step" I did a bunch of research on PTSD after he explained his struggles to me and found out that one of the ways to help with it is face your fears so I'm now taking Dan to the orphanage "I can't do it" I stopped walking when I noticed he had stopped, I saw the fear in his eyes. I took his hand comfortingly and smiled at him "you can do it. I'll be here, I won't leave your side" he took a deep breath and nodded, walking along with me. I opened the doors to the orphanage, checking on Dan. We walked in, standing like statues as we took in our once home. The floors were wooden and dirty, the walls were a musky grey that carried scratches on it. Children, running around and playing. Memories, so many memories "I can't do this Phil" I pulled him back as I noticed he was trying to escape and I held his hand tightly "we'll be in and out, I know how hard this is for you" I noticed Lola taking care of some kids and I called her over, smiling. She gasped and ran over "Dan! Phil! How wonderful to see you! What brings you here?" I explained that we are here to help Dan and he's finding it all rather scary. She understood and told us to just explore while she takes care of some children. I nod and take him to our old room, gasping when I saw it. It hasn't changed! Lola hadn't let any children stay in here, saying it was 'too precious to give away'
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"Oh my god!" Phil let go of my hand and ran in, spinning in the middle of the room laughing "it hasn't changed a bit!" I gulp, looking around. I didn't take into account that Phil held my hand, and a small blush grew on my cheeks. I smiled as I watched Phil spinning around in the room and before my eyes, he changed to his child self. I knew full well it was a flashback, but I didn't care
Flashback
I laughed, watching Phil spin in the room "join me Dan!" I shake my head, trying to ignore him and read "I'm good" he frowned and ran up to my bed, taking my hand and jumping up and down "pleaseee Danny?!" I bite my lip, exhaling and looking away. I knew we'd get in trouble and I didn't want that, but who was I to say no to him? I put down my book and hop off my bed, spinning in the room. Our laughter filled the room, as we spun faster and faster. The only sounds heard were our laughter and our shoes on the wooden floorboards. I stopped and took Phil's hands, smiling at him "I love you so much, lion" he hugged me tightly, nuzzling into my shoulder. My hands reached his back and stroked it softly "I love you too, bear"
End of flashback
I stared, watching Phil and I decided to join. I walked in the middle of the room and started spinning "there you go!" I couldn't hold it in and started laughing as we spun faster and faster. We ended up falling back on my old bed, laughing. I reached my hand to the top of my head, opening my eyes and staring at the ceiling. Phil copied my action, laying his hand on top of my palm and staring up at the ceiling "I'm proud of you" I didn't look at him, continuing to look at the ceiling. I didn't think I'd do that again "how are you doing?" I look over to him, closing my hand around his and chuckling when I see a small blush form on his cheeks "alright so far, thankyou lion" his blush grew wider, knowing I hadn't called him that in years. The last time I called him 'lion' was the day we were separated, I often wonder if our lives would be different if we weren't separated "you're welcome, bear" he hoisted himself up, bringing me up too and smiled at me. I heard a slapping noise in the background, making me flinch and my breath hitch "no! Stop!" I closed my eyes tightly, almost like they were sown shut and tried to stop the memory, without success

Flashback, Trigger Warning
"No! Stop!" I screamed, kicking and hitting the woman, trying to get the whip out of her hands. I stared as she whipped Phil's body, blue bruises forming on his arms and legs and face. Blood spilling. I growl and stand between Phil and her, staring up at her "Please, it was my fault! Leave him alone, punish me!" Phil whimpered behind me, making my heart ache. She was about to give another blow before Lola ran up and stopped her "that is enough!" She took the woman out of our room, leaving me and Phil alone. I spun around quickly, kneeling down to Phil's level "Phil, Phil. Are you ok?" It was my fault anyways. He was just trying to protect me, he didn't deserve this. I crawled into the corner, squeezing in and cuddling him "shhh, I'm here. I won't let anyone hurt you more" he cried into me chest, not talking. Blood dripped on the floor of our room, blue and purple bruises decorated his skin. His hair, a mess "Lola!" I cuddle him close, protectively and never wanting to let him out of my sight. Lola ran in, kneeling down and looking at Phil "hey buddy, shhh, c'mon let's look at you" he poked up his head, looking at Lola. She gasped, seeing his injuries. She scooped him up in her arms and cuddled him close, taking him away. I growled, looking at the blood on the floor and running out of my room, running to the woman "how dare you beat Phil up! What did he ever do to you?!" She snarled down at me, crossing her arms "you're 5, you don't know what you're talking about" I stomp my foot, pointing my finger up at her "I may be 5 but I'm smarter than you! You can't just beat up a child because you're angry!" I could tell she was getting angry with me and before she could do anything, Lola came and grabbed me, leaving
End of flashback
Phil ran over to me, looking at me "Dan, Dan, look at me" I opened my eyes, seeing an older Phil who wasn't damaged and injured, in fact he was perfectly healthy. I'm in the present "s..sorry" he held my hands tightly, smiling up at me "you don't ever need to apologise for your feelings, what was it?" I sighed, taking a deep breath and looking over to the corner where it happened. Dried up blood could be seen on the floor "you got beaten up, ended up in hospital. You were only 7, you didn't deserve that!" Phil caught onto what I was saying, also noticing that I was slipping back into the past. He sat on the bed, hugging me tightly "Dan, you're in the present. I'm fine, see? I'm not in hospital, that was years ago. You're safe, I'm safe, we're safe" I nodded, resting my head on his shoulder and closing my eyes. Rest

Damn! Long chapter! Hopefully that wasn't too much info!