I Just Wanna Play In The Sun (Bondi Rescue)

Chapter Eleven

Lilo’s POV

Flicking through the TV channels, I found that daytime TV was extremely boring. After my outburst this morning I felt better but not all the way there. I longed for when Mouse or Dunno came, it’s lonely here. As if on cue, there was a knock at the door. Clicking the TV off, I pulled myself up to the door. When I opened it I was greeted by not Dunno or Mouse as I expected but another life guard. I raised an eyebrow, holding the door close to me.

“And you are?” I asked, coming out with more venom than intended. The guy was taller than me, with black messy hair.

“I’m Matt Dee. One of Mouse’s friends.” He smiled at me. Matt Dee was sweet, just from first meeting him.

“My nice Lilo name.”  The words didn’t come out right. I couldn’t help it they just wouldn’t form a sentence that made sense. Matt Dee laughed, making my cheeks heat slightly, embarrassing. “I meant-.”

“I know what you meant don’t worry.” I nodded and offered for Matt to enter. He walked in and took in the mess that was my living room. Boxes were still stacked around the place. “Mouse sent me to check on you. He told me what happened.” Matt turned around and looked at me, making me look at my feet.

“I don’t normally open up to strangers but as you are a friend of Mouse’s then maybe I can.” Matt Dee urged me on and I took a seat back on the sofa. He also took one. “I don’t know what happened. My mood just completely changed. I couldn’t control it.” Matt nodded and shuffled in his seat.

“If it carries on you do need to see a doctor.” Matt Dee advised. Anger built up in my body.

“You have no right to tell me what to do!” I blurted. Matt Dee didn’t seem taken a back from my outburst. “I can’t believe this.” I felt the panic set in again, and I started to shake feeling my anger still boiling away inside me.

“Hey Lilo, calm down.” Matt Dee comforted me, taking me in his arms. Tears started to fall again. God! What is up with me?

“I don’t get it?” I asked out of desperation. Matt soothed me more until I had calmed down enough to be spoken too. These episodes are just getting frequent. When I was in my teens and at high-school I had occasionally heard voices in my head. People called me crazy.

“When did all this start?” Matt asked eventually, after taking a deep breath.

“I don’t know when it did. The voices started in my teens. The moods and isolation started only just recently.” I spilled. Matt’s one of those people who give off that vibe of caring.

“Voices?” Matt asked, his tone unreadable. If anything I know believed the people from high-school I was crazy.

“Yeah they are just there sometimes.” Matt Dee looked kinda shocked and worried. “What?” I asked, bringing my knees to my chest.

“Urm, nothing. I’m gonna go now and talk to Mouse before I tell anything.” I looked at him with puppy dog eyes begging him to tell me. Matt Dee smiled sympathetically then went to the door.

“I’ll see you soon.” Matt left. God! I need to know! Why was he like that? Gahh! I flopped down on the sofa properly so I was lying down. Today I was going to be bored. I haven’t really been off from school/ work now in ages. Never have I felt so bored. The only thing I can do now is sleep. Sleep is something I try and do when I’m bored but I never actually get to sleep.

Later on…

Another knock at my door woke me. I went up and opened it. Mouse and Matt Dee were both standing there, serious looks spreading across their faces.

“Lilo, I think we need to talk.” Mouse said, walking past me, Matt walked in as well. I sat on the sofa, Matt on a chair and so did Mouse.

“What’s this about?” I asked taking a sip of juice from my tumbler cup. Mouse looked at Matt.

“It’s about you.” Matt Dee spoke up. Mouse nodded, clasping his hands in front of him.

“I don’t understand.” Matt looked at his feet, obviously uncomfortable about the subject.

“Matt told me what you told him and Matt has experience of what he thinks you are going through.” Mouse was starting to worry me and I think he could see that as he came and sat with me.

“I don’t know if this is what you have but I lost my sister to schizophrenia and my brother to bipolar so I know what the symptoms of both look like.” Matt Dee spoke slowly. “What I can tell is you could have schizophrenia.” Oh…

~OOOOh just when Lilo was getting used to life in Bondi. Tell me what you think- vote and comment please.  Matt Dee is a role model for anyone who is going through tough times.~