Honestly

Honestly Chapter 20

Chapter 20

{Elsa's P.O.V}

     Evil. Pure evil.

     Jack is just so-

     AGH!!!

     Sometimes he just says things that I can't help but... blush to!!! And the infuriating thing about that is he knows this.

     I felt my cheeks only to find them extremely warm. I didn't even want to look at one of the change room mirrors in fear I would just find a tomato sitting in the place my head should be.

     Calm down, Elsa, calm down.

     It's just a wink... yeah... just one eye staying open while the other blinks without it... that's all...

     ...But the smile... oh gosh- the smile.

     It was just so- wait, no.

     I mean... maybe if he was more insensitive or just didn't care about my feelings at all, he would've let out that laugh I knew he was keeping in...

     "That's not what you really wanted to say."

     I heard a voice in my head... my voice.

     "You wanted to say that you loved and adored his smile..."

     What is this?

    "...like the way you love and adore h-"

     No. Stop. Nope. Nope. Nope. Nope.

     No.

     I never even knew I had this voice in my head...

     ...if I didn't stop it, what would it- no...

     ...she...

     ...I...

     ...going to say?

     You love and adore... him?

     Jack...?

     Why would I think this? Crazy... plain crazy... why would I ever like him?

     "Well, here's one reason,"

     The voice was back.

     "He helped you when you when you were too afraid to ask for it-- without even you needing to say anything."

     Stop it.

     "Secondly: he's been with you since day one. Has never left your side... and you're happy because of this."

     Stop.

     "Finally,"

     Stop.

     "He was the one that picked up all your pieces the moments you felt the most broken."

     I'm going crazy...

     ...is this my conscience? Trying to guilt me into seeing Jack in a different way?

      Or maybe these are like those "demon and angel upon your shoulders" moments, but instead- there was just the demon.

     If this voice in my head is technically mine... then all that it says... it doesn't count as my thoughts, does it...?

     "Yes, it does."