I have no idea what kind of dream marathon I have going currently. But I HAD THE WEIRDEST DREAM POSSIBLE. In it, I was getting married to someone else, I was close to the make up artist or something, kept telling him to do it again and again because when ever he did it, someone came, hugged me and it it got spoiled(it's a dream, bound to be weird). So the marriage was an arranged marriage. Except things took a turn when my ex came to meet me on that day(very cliché) and told me he still has feelings for me, etc etc. So in my building we have this place we used to go to(lets call it Africa), in the dream we went there, we were saying our goodbyes in an intimate way, he told me he loves me. But the guy I was getting married to, saw us, he told everyone, the wedding was called off. My mom took me for a walk, to discuss what is happening, and ironically we were taking the lift up, back home, and my moms ex boyfriend(who she is friends with currently) came in the lift too, he too gave me advice. That is all I remember. It was queer.
The marriage part was so weirddddd I am only 18!
So it was a Sunday, I decided to watch a movie, it was a sad one, it kind of made me sad too, so I was in a gloomy/ non talkative mood for the whole day again. Until afternoon came, I did my puzzle, and then went to meet a building friend. We chilled, I took pics, listening to the advice of Brad browning articles, to make my ex come back, etc etc.
I posted it on instagram for him to see. But what I realised was. I was doing something or the other every day. Without actually putting stories out for him, I seemed to have something to post everyday. Every day I was either meeting someone or doing something story worthy, so I thought of this. Let me be active right now, for a bit, get him habituated to seeing a story of mine everyday and then suddenly not post for a REALLY long time, again making him think about me a little bit. Till 26th I have stuff lined up ish so maybe till then I will post and then stop.
21st June (Monday)- I have really been busy, these days, college takes up most of my day, I have an internship, I am coding, Doing my puzzles and in the evening I like stepping out for a bit, either to meet friends or go for a walk alone(which is refreshing and needed). So even though there isn't something eventful as such happening everyday, my time has been relatively productive, not a mundane cycle of events that frustrate me and um yeah, his thoughts have been out of my mind (other than the Netflix thing and discord stuff). So yeah, my day went by, I went for a walk in the evening, and I bumped into this girl, she was my senior(so basically his classmate) and the last time I met her, I was literally walking with him, over there. So she brought him up a couple times, avoided telling her, but then I told her anyways. Not for sympathy, but because she kept bringing him up, so yeah that. She was like "no ya when he comes back you guys will get back." She really shipped us cause she had seen us since school, being together, not knowing the complications that we had. So for an outsider it was easy to say you guys will get back, but she didn't know the internal drama. But her saying it did make me a little happy inside my head and a little wishful. That is pretty much it for 21st, not too much, yet I don't have time to dwell over him leaving me.
So 22nd June, woke up in the morning with a throbbing headache. I felt so sick, I thought I was going to throw up. I just felt so sick. The first thought that came to my mind was, maybe covid? Because I have not taken the vaccine yet, and have been all over the place. But it was so bad, had no energy, it could be because of my iron deficiency issue. I was low the whole day. I somehow stayed up for college, but then slept in the afternoon cause I felt sick. Although, all day the fact that "The girl he used to like/his best friend" had her birthday on 23rd of June, was playing in my head. So I was like oh I have to prepare myself for stories/ pics that might make me sad, but before that could happen another best friend of his, posted a pic with that girl, wishing her. So I had got the date wrong, her birthday wasn't on 23rd but on 22nd itself.

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How I am getting Through a break-up
Non-FictionHonestly, I love reading and figured out that writing stuff and putting it out there is liberating. So I decided to write down everything I feel at each point through my break up so that others going through the same ting can relate and I can probab...