How I am getting Through a break-up

Chapter-4

It is now 10th june, The morning was good in a different way actually, I did my puzzle, and and a good amount, it was really satisfying honestly. It made me feel happy in a way. Then I

pretty much went about my normal routine, napped in the afternoon.

It sucks how the monsoons have have though, I can't go for walks anymore. But I guess my college will start soon and will occupy some time of my day.

So it was like our thing, when ever one of us had to catch a flight the other one would be awake to messsage them while they were bored at the airport, just to say have a safe flight and

message when you land. Hopefully when he comes back these tiny tiny things will make him realise that he wants me and we weren't as bad as he made it sound, and eventually take me back.

This again is only a girl hoping though, I just really hope this hope isn't the reason I get even more hurt/ shattered later.

So because I couldn't go for a refreshing walk, I decided to take a long warm shower. Another way of relaxing. The shower got me thinking. I realised I wasn't sad anymore. The love and

affection a boyfriend would give me, that he was giving me, which I had gotten used to, didn't feel like a necessecity as such. I decided that he and I were best friends initially and um

not immediately of course, but um in the long run I did see us as friends, like I could give it a try because we really click, we laugh, we are good friends and we like each others company.

One more thing bugging me is that um, he is really inactive on netflix, he hasn't watched anything since 4th of june, he is RARELY online on whatsapp and Discord, where the whole music

thing was happening has also stopped, he has completely vanished. Im not sure if its a good sign in terms of us or not, but never the less, it isn't making me sad or anything, which is a

good thing.

At night, I videocalled my best friend for a really long time. We spoke, she took my mind off it. I updated her on my shower thoughts and she gave me good advice. She didn't force me, or

wasn't being too pushy about kicking him out of my life, she just said, dont keep a fixed time limit for becoming friends, it could take 6 months or even a year and you could go back to

being friends but you need to heal before that, etc etc. I completely agreed, I was really glad she wasn't the annoying toxic best friend who just told me to cut him out of my life.

After talking to her I watched my show. I went to check his netflix activity, which by now had become (obviously not legal) habit. But hey I was in love, it will take time for me to process

things. So anyeays, I checked it, and I saw, after nearly 6 days he was watching something, and the best part was that he was watching the same show that I was. Now this really made me

happy, not cause of our choice, but because the show had a couple who reminded me of him and I. So I just hoped it would remind him of me a little too.

Although I am done with 10 days i.es 1/3rd of the minimum no contact wait period and 1/6th of the maximum waiting limit I have set for myself. After which I am no longer going to sit

waiting for him to come back and I will know that, it is over for good, and I need to move on.

The next day was the 11th of June. My mom came up to me after I woke up and told me that dad and her were planning to go out of town to our holiday home. She asked me I wanted to tag along.