Always And Never (Sapnotfound)

Chapter 7

George's POV

I woke up to the feeling of someone's hands playing with my hair. I leaned into the touch, sighing happily as I tried to remember last night. Opening my eyes I looked at whoever his arms around me. Sapnap was staring at me with a small smile on his lips. Oh yeah, right. That's what happened.

"Hi," it was dumb, but my mouth had moved without me.

Sapnap let out a quiet chuckle, "Hi George."

I felt warmth spread through my body and I hid my blush in his chest. This wasn't real, I was laying in bed with Sapnap, and I was okay with it. He was holding me.the last few years all hed dine was tease me and make fun of me. Now he was holding me in his bed, and I was letting him.

"We should get up." He whispered in my ear, and kissing my forehead.

"Noo," I tried to protest, but it came out muffled.

Nick sat up, taking me with him, I sighed untangling from his body. I watched as he got out of bed, bent over then the my phone at me. I turned it on, seeing it had died.

"I- um, where's your charger?"

He smiled and pointed towards his desk where the cord was sitting next to the bed. I leaned over and plugged my phone in.

I looked down to see I was in one of his sweatshirts and my boxers. "You want me to give this back and put my dress back on?"

"No!" His response seemed to be laced with fear, "i- um sorry, no, you can just borrow a pair of my sweatpants along with the sweatshirt and just uh give them back later."

"Oh, okay," I couldn't argue, something about wearing his clothes made me happy, "but Sapnap?"

"Yeah George?"

"We're not just gonna pretend this didnt happen right? I mean maybe this didnt mean much to you, and I know it's just sex, but I really dont want things to go back to normal and..."

I drifted off, I was rambling, but I really didnt want to go back to him hating me, I wasn't sure of how I felt about him, but something happened last night and I didnt want to be enemies.

I heard him let out a sigh and he sat down next to me, "George, of course, it happened, we can't just forget it.. but I'm not sure what this means, I've always thought- well I've never been with -"

"You're straight."

"Yes! No, I don't know, I thought I was, I've always told myself I was. So this is new to me. Can we just take it slow?"

I placed my hand over his and smiled at him, "Nick, I've spent the last two years mad at you for turning on me, I'm not sure what last night meant for myself either. I-I think I could have feelings for you? But for now I'm more than okay taking it slow."

"Thanks, do you want me to take you home, I have plans with friends later and need to get ready soon."

"Yeah sure, I still need pants though."

"Right!" He stand up and walks over to his dresser, shuffling through the clothes he pulls out a pair of black sweatpants, "Uh here! These are a bit small on me, they might fit you."

I stood up to pants from him and realised how big the sweatshirt was on me, I knew I was skinny, but I'd never realised just how much bigger Sapnap was. I watched him blush and run a hand through his hair.

"Here,' he hands me the pants and looks away, "you look cute in my clothes by the way. You can keep that if you want."

"Oh, thanks, I'd love that."

I quickly got dressed and we headed down the stairs to the living room, where his parents happened to be. I watched as his dad looked me up and down with a glare.

"Nick, who is this?"

Sapnap tensed next to me and I gave him a concerned look. "Dad its George, you remember him."

His mom's face lit up in a smile. "George! It's been so long!"

The words came out of her mouth at the same time as his dad said, "whys he wearing your clothes? Nothing happened between you guys right?"

"No! Dad, of course not!" He looked like he was freaking out, what was happening? "He just needed a place to stay last night and didnt have a change of clothes. I was just about to bring him home now."

"Nonsense Nicky! You're dads just overreacting George should stay for breakfast, it's been such a long time since hes been over, I'd love to catch up with him."

"Maybe some other time mom, he really needs to get home, right George?" I watched as Sapnap gave me a pleading look. Whatever was going on he was clearly uncomfortable.

"Uh yeah, my mom wants me back."

"Right so let's go!" He pushed me to the doors quickly shutting it behind us then letting out a relieved sigh before making his way to the car.

"What was that about?" I asked, climbing into the passenger side.

"My dad, well hes not, um very find of," he paused looking at me and the dress in my arms, "you know.."

Oh. That. "But what about Dream, don't you too hang out a lot?"

"Yeah, usually at his place or with when the rest of the team is over. My dad doesn't like him. That's kind of why I've never... explored before."

"Cause he doesn't want you to."

"I hope it doesn't bother you."

I smiled as he kept his eyes on the road, "I understand, he was a lot more restrained than most people are, and it's not your fault."

He let out a long breath, like hed been holding it. "Hes usually a lot more vocal about things. Its- it's part of why I stopped hanging out with you freshman year."

What? "But I didnt come out until after that."

"No you didn't, I uh, he thought I liked you... and maybe I did, I dont know I've never really thought about it. He just really got on me about it so instead of figuring out my feelings I shut you out."

"Oh. I didnt know that."

He down another street, "I'm really sorry, I never wanted to, but I could never find a way to explain it, so instead I just took it out on you."

"Its, okay, just please dont push me away again. I'm here for you."

He didn't respond, leaving us in silence for the rest of the ride. When we arrived at my place, I thanked him for the ride and be gave a sad smile in return before driving off.

I was still tired out from last nights events, so after having a small conversation with my mom, I headed up to take a shower and went back to sleep. I'd figure out everything with Sapnap later. The butterflies in my stomach as I smelled him on the sweatshirt could wait.