Always And Never (Sapnotfound)

Chapter 17

T/W - a bit of homophobia at the end

A/N - Okay but the the names of the reading lists this story has been added to are amazing. Like there are some really creative ass names and I love seeing them and it makes me so happy when I get a notification that someone's put this story in a list. I love you guys so much you are all so nice and patient waiting for me to put out chapter.

Sapnaps POV

   Waking up tangled with George's body will never be something I get tired of. The sight of the sleeping boy next to me makes my heart soar and I can't help but lean down to kiss his forehead.

   Judging by how bright it is in the room I could assume it was probably late morning. I gently tried to untangle myself from the boy, not wanting to wake him up.

   "Where are you going?" I didn't succeed.

   "I'm just thirsty, I'll be back, I promise."

   He didn't respond, only rolled over. Judging my his slowed breathing he fell right back asleep.

   I smiled softly at the brunette. I've never felt so lucky, George is perfect.

   When I made my way to the kitchen I was greeted by his mother. She smiled wide, "Hello Nick! Did you spend the night?"

   She hadn't seemed to imply anything on hearing what George and I did but my face still felt hot.

   "Um yeah, is that a problem? We just stayed up late and didn't have the energy to drive home."

   "No, it's perfect, you're more than welcome to stay whenever," shechuckled softly, "come sit with me I want to catch up it's been a while."

   So I did. I sat across the table and smiled. I'm not sure how long we talked, but it was a while. I told her what I had been up to, how my parents had been, and George.

   Eventually as the conversation slowed down, and we sat in comfortable silence, I felt a pair of arms rest on my shoulders. I looked up to see George, he was smiling softly at me and I smiled back. As I did he leaned down to give me a quick kiss.

   When he pulled away he looked at his mom, "Good morning mum."

   "Good morning sweetheart. How'd you sleep?"

   "Amazing, I got to sleep with Sapnap. He's great at cuddling." He rested his head on my shoulder.

   "I'm glad, he cares about you a lot. You two are very lucky. And you're allowed to stay over whenever you'd like Sapnap."

   "Thank you ma'am, I appreciate it." I meant it.

   And it was a lazy morning. We ate breakfast, then snuggled up in the living room to watch some movies. I had no interest in them, only the boy in my arms. He and his mom made jokes and laughed at almost everything. I found it incredibly adorable, he really was the best I'd ever have.

   During a particularly important part of the movie I moved to kiss him a small kiss in the cheek before resting my head on his. George seemed interested in what was happening so I whispered something I knew he wouldn't hear.

   "I love you George. So much."

   Even with the movie playing, things seemed to go silent. I watched as my boyfriend turned and moved his body to look at me. I couldn't read the expression in his eyes and I felt my heart rate quicken. He shouldn't have heard me.

   "What?"

   "I- I really enjoy being with you George."

   He shakes his head, still trying to be quiet, "Say it again."

   "I did."

   "Bullshit. Say it again. I wanna hear it again."

   I squirmed where I sat, it had gotten hot really fast. He shouldn't have heard. I shouldn't have said it. I wasn't worried of rejection, I knew it wasn't bad. The problem was I'd never said those words to anyone before. I'd never felt that way for anyone.

   Pushing George all the way off me I stood up, "I'm going to the bathroom."

   He was on my heels, not caring about the strange look his mom gave us. I wasn't given a chance to close the bathroom door on him. His hand pushed it back open and he looked at me.

   "I'm- I'm sorry George."

   I felt his arms wrap around me quickly, he was so warm.

   "Why? Don't be sorry. What's wrong? Did I push a boundary?"

   "No!" I spit it out a little too quickly. I don't want him doubting himself, "No, you're fine. I just- just didn't think you'd hear me. I've never told anyone that before."

   He pushes off of me to look me in the eye, "is it true?"

   "Um.. yeah. I do love you George. So much it hurts. If you're not ready to say it back that's okay. I was just surprised by your reaction, if you-"

   He cut me off with a kiss. It was slow, and filled with love. I melted into his mouth as he kissed me gently.

   "I love you too Sapnap."

   I sighed. "Thank God."

   He laughed and tugged on my arm, "come on we've probably confused my mom let's go back to the movie."

   We only made it down the hall before his mom was walking towards us. She had my phone in hand.

   "Um, I hope I wasn't unterupring anything. I just wanted to find you, cause Sapnaps phone went off. It was your dad and I figured you should know."

   I smiled at her and took my phone, "thank you. I'm going to call him back, you two go on with the movie."

   Giving George's hand a squeeze I walked back to the bathroom. Currently on cloud nine, I couldn't be happier as I dialed my dad's number. Though everything crashed down as soon as he picked up.

   "Where the fuck have you been?!"

   "I texted you last night. It was late I stayed at a friend's."

   "The same friend you were out with yesterday?"

   "Yes. It was Clay."

   "Don't fucking lie to me!"

   I pulled my phone away from my ear as he screamed.

   "I saw you with that George boy. Is that who you stayed with? What did you do with him? You know you shouldn't be hanging around those kinds of people. It's bad enough you talk to Clay."

   "Dad I-"

   "Shut up. Get your ass back home. You're not seeing him again. And if you don't get here in twenty minutes I'm coming to get you myself."

   The dial tone went off as he hung up, and I choked on a sob. I didn't want to go home. There wasn't much of a choice though, it was easier to deal with him where nobody else could see. So I quickly found my things in George's room and raced out the door before I could be questioned.

   I didn't have time to remember George had convinced me to put on the skirt for the day.