Always And Never (Sapnotfound)

Chapter 20

T/W - mentions of bad mental health and suicide, abuse

George's POV

   "Sapnap?"

   "George?"

   Was this some sort of sick joke to Dream? Why the fuck was he here. I was spending the night at Dreams house, unwillingly, and he shows up?

   "What the fuck are you doing here?"

   "I need- I need to talk to Dream-"

   At the mention if his name Dream showed up, "George who's at the... oh, Nick, this is a surprise, what are you doing here? Come in."

   I reluctantly move away from the door to let the raven haired boy to walk in. He looked terrible in the light, his eyes were filled with some negative emotion I couldn't place and there was a purple bruise, almost like a hand print spreading across his face.

   "Fuck, you look like shit, what happened, why are you here?"

   A fake smile was placed over his tired face, "I decided it was time to take up your mom's offer, since I need a place to stay."

   "What? I thought you didn't want to, you told me things were fine at home. You're straight right, so your father has no problems." The sarcasm and hurt in Dreams voice almost brought a chuckle out of me. Almost.

   I watched the two have a conversation, just going to sit down on the couch, but as I do I catch Sapnaps eye.

   "Well... um. Shit Dream I'm sorry I've been pushing you away and lying to everyone. I was with Abby, and we were... doing it." He wouldn't stop staring at me so I had to look away, "but I- well I said the wrong name and she got upset and my father heard us fighting. He um hit me, told me he needed to fix me."

   "Did you say another girls name? Why is he fixing you if you're straight." Dreams voice still had a hint if an accusatory tone as he speaks.

   "Can you stop talking to me like I'm the bad guy Dream?! I know I've been shifty but I'm still you're friend!"

   "Yeah a friend who hurt my best friend and has been pushing me away instead if letting me help!"

   "Fine. You're right I'm sorry. It was... I may have moaned- God I said Georges name.."

   My eyes found their way back to Sapnaps in surprise and I stood up quickly.

   "Dream I'm going to your room. I shouldn't be listening to this conversation."

   I didn't wait for a response as I walked out of the room and found my way to the bedroom. There was no way I could continue listening to them, no way what he said was true.

   It didn't take Dream long to open the door of his room, Sapnap stood awkwardly behind him.

   "Hey George, um long story short, Sapnap was kicked out and needs to stay here, I hope it's not a problem?"

   It very much was a problem. I couldn't stay with him, "I can go home Dream, then it's definitely not a problem cause we can't-"

   "George, we both know that isn't gonna happen. Your mom is gone for the next week and she doesn't want you alone, frankly neither do I. We really don't need you trying-"

   I cut him off just like he did to me, "Dream! I'm fine. I'm not gonna do anything I wanna be in my own bed anyway!"

   "We both know that's a lie, your rooms disgusting. If I let you go home nothing good is going to come of it."

   "It was an accident! I wasn't even-"

   "You don't just accidentally do something like that George! I just want you safe!"

   "Can you guys stop arguing? You're getting nowhere, George we won't even be in the same room. We can avoid eachother. Just stop yelling please."

   Dream and I both turned to glare at him.

   "Shit, no, I'm sorry it's not my place to speak. I just already had too many fights today and hearing you guys scream is a lot. Plus I'm confused what this is even about. Dream why can't George go home, he obviously wants to."

   I scoff as Dream sent me a look that seemed to ask if I was okay. I wasn't but maybe Sapnap should at least know why I was here, "Dreams just worried about me cause I accidently took some sleeping pills the other night. I'm getting help for it anyway so I'm not sure why this matters."

   "Some? George if your mom hadn't found you, you would've taken the whole bottle!"

   It went silent after that. I couldn't say anything, he was right. And if I went home I definitely would try it again.

   "Did you- it wasn't cause of me right? I know I hurt you but I didn't want that."

   "No. It wasn't you, well partially I don't know. I haven't been the best for a while, what happened was just kind of what pushed me over."

   "Oh."

...

   The decision came to Sapnap staying in the guest room where I was supposed to be and me staying with Dream. I tried to argue, wanting to be alone, but I'm the end Sapnap would be here longer and I'd need an eye on me anyway.

   Late into the night, long after Dream had passed out, I stared at a dying phone. I had left my charger in the spare room and couldn't borrow Dreams as he was using it. Figuring sapnap would probably be asleep I got up and made my way to the room.

   As I opened the door I came to the realization he was definitely awake.

   "George?" The light of his own phone was the only thing illuminating the room. It almost hurt to see how upset he looked, a hopeful look almost over taking it at the sight of me.

   "I'm sorry, I thought you'd be asleep. I just left my charger in here."

   He sits up as the hopeful look fades, "Yeah, thats fine, just grab it."

   Silence filled our ears for the 100th time that night. I found my charger as quickly as possibly and left the room. After the door closed I pressed my back to it letting out a sigh. I was angry at him but so many questions filled my head and it was better to talk while Dream was asleep.

   So I opened the door.

   "Sapnap, why did you say my name?"