why don't we imagines

lose control (d.s)

a/n: hey i hope you like this one. it does mention/describe anxiety. anxiety can be different for everyone but I kinda described how it is for me and how I've experienced it. it's nothing to crazy but read at your own discretion:) love you byee

Summary: Daniel unfortunately has a bit of an anxious day but you're always there for him. 

4:58am

Daniel awoke suddenly, his bright blue eyes snapping open. He felt the uncomfy tightness in his chest, rising and falling with every rapid breath he took, and his eyes darted around the dark room, paranoid that the terrorising monsters of anxiety had escaped from his dream world into reality. The silence of his bedroom and distant chirping of crickets outside said otherwise. Daniel swiftly shifted his gaze to his nightstand, the alarm clock read 5:00, signalling another rough night of sleep for him the third time that week.

He sighed tiredly before relaxing back into his bed, trying his best to smother his shallow breaths into his sheets. Daniel was wide awake, and mere seconds later, he slowly lifted his blankets to the side, draping his legs on the edge of the bed and got up cautiously. He walked slowly to the bathroom with quivering hands and approached the mirror in his en suite, grimacing at the sight before him.

Daniel reached for the collar of his sweaty t-shirt before pulling it off, distaste etched in the features of his tired face. He tossed it in the basket, huffing lightly as he leaned onto the vanity. He stared blankly into the mirror and let his mind wander from thoughts about work to music to Y/n. Y/n, he thought again, furrowing his brows as he contemplated calling her. His phone sat plugged into the charger near his nightstand, easily reachable. Daniel knew that Y/n wouldn't mind listening to his unwavering rambles about his nightmares like she typically did, but he still didn't move from his place behind the mirror. Before anything else could stumble into his mind, Daniel quickly turned the tap on, the cold water flowed easily from the faucet and he rinsed his face quickly, washing the remnants of his horrors away.

9:23am

Incoming call from Y/n/n

Daniel almost grinned eye to eye as he read Y/n's name on his phone screen and he quickly accepted the facetime, instantly seeing her sunshiny face light up his screen.

"Heyyy!" Y/n said tenderly from her comfy spot on her bed. Daniel's expression softened as he heard her loving voice through the phone.

"Good morning, honey." Daniel said sweetly as he pulled out a chair from the kitchen island and sat down.

"How did you sleep?" Y/n yawned.

Daniel paused for a moment, pondering what he should say next, "I slept well." Daniel grinned before continuing "Did you just wake up, honey?" He chuckled gently.

"Yeah..." Y/n smiled as she rubbed her eyes. She perked up quickly "Are we still coming over to my place later?" Y/n asked sweetly, gazing expectantly at Daniel.

"Yeah...of-f course" Daniel said as steadily as he could as he felt the anxiety boil up in his chest again. "Uh, I gotta go, I have a long day-" Daniel said with a tight smile, "I'll talk to you later, I love you so much Y/n." She smiled widely before replying.

"Okay, I love you, Dani." Daniel tuned into the warmth of her voice before fading out with a quiet goodbye and hanging up. He set his phone down tiredly and got up from his seat to make some breakfast. He worked quietly but quickly, avoiding the reeling thoughts in his head.

Daniel couldn't get his mind to stop, to just relish in the gift of presence like his girlfriend did. He admired her a lot in that way, in her ability to disregard any negative thoughts and go on with her day with the same soft, happy mood, gentle and steady. In truth, Daniel couldn't shake the gut wrenching, shameful sense of feeling like a burden. Y/n was the person he felt safest with, but recently, he found himself intentionally suppressing his uneasy thoughts, which only left him with guilt and a distressing pit in his stomach.

3:42pm

The band had been doing interviews since 11am that morning and Daniel felt particularly exhausted from his rough and frankly non-existent sleep the night before. "Okay, listen up. You guys have two more fan meet and greets, okay?" Randy reminded the group while they sat on Daniel's living room sofa.

The boys all agreed casually, replying with an asynchronous chorus of "okay", but Daniel's face only grew in panic and he shifted nervously from his spot a few paces away from everyone else. It was safe to say Daniel's anxiety was majorly challenging him today, throwing him into a prison of worry and holding him hostage. He stared deeply into the blank monitor in front of them, his own loneliness reflected at him. The vibration of his iPhone notification piqued his attention and he read the simple message from Y/n with a grin "I miss you". His eyes remained downcast and he dropped his phone in his back pocket again.

It felt like just minutes- no, seconds after they had finished their lunch break but the team were already preparing for the next zoom meet and greet. Daniel sighed deeply and approached the rest of the band before sitting down on the sofa beside Corbyn.

"Okay guys, you ready?" Randy asked, barely waiting for an answer before entering the zoom call. Daniel's breath hitched in his dry throat, and he felt his body tensing and his heart pounding. He wasn't ready. Daniel tried to cling onto any steady breath, but there wasn't one. He felt himself spiralling into even more anxiety and his body abruptly dropped to the carpeted floor.

"Dani?" Corbyn asked quickly, kneeling down beside Daniel. His sudden tone of concern sparked almost everyone's attention. Daniel merely clasped his hands over his head, failing to slow down his heavy breathing.

"Daniel? Hey? Daniel-" The guys stumbled out with jittery voices. Daniel heard their concerned words on repeat but couldn't get himself to respond. His poisonous anxiety flowed through his blood and soon he found himself heaving through heavy lungs. The boys all scrambled to get Daniel water or a cool towel or anything as Daniel sat sorrowfully on the floor with his knees up to his chest and his arms wrapped around his body. The group's concern for their best friend's wellbeing only made Daniel feel even worse and all he wanted in that moment was to leave. The overlap of panicked voices.

The abundance of eyes he knew were on him and the distant echoes of the fans' voices through the screen all sent Daniel into suffocating overwhelm. In one swift motion, he lifted himself off the floor with all the might he could muster and ran to the bathroom.

The boys stood there stunned and Randy rushed to get his phone "Who should we call? Y/n?" Randy asked swiftly.

"Y-yeah, I'll call her" Jack said quickly, grabbing his phone from his pocket and he dialled her number.

4:11pm

Y/n leaned her head on the bathroom door and she tried to call Daniel's name as calmly as she could without letting her own nervous tears fall. "Dani" she said quietly, pushing her ear against the door as if to hear what he was doing. The sound of Daniel's muffled sobs could be heard from the other side of the door. Her heart broke at that very moment, and she instantly felt sorrowful tears fall silently down her cheeks before she tried again. "Daniel, please, can you just open the door" Y/n said quietly, but Daniel heard and to Y/n's surprise, he opened the door cautiously.

Daniel's red teary eyes and quivering body were immediately noticed by Y/n, and she looked at him with concern carved in every part of her face. Daniel's frustration and anxiety balled inside him, ravaging his mind with painful thoughts and emotions, finally erupting in front of Y/n. She shuffled over quickly to wrap her arms around him as he cried heavily into her shoulder, panting from pure exhaustion. Y/n gulped down her tears as she held Daniel tightly, whispering quiet reassurances as he let all his emotions out. Daniel clung onto the material of his sweater she wore, and he let himself be calmed by Y/n's presence. The sheer touch of her skin made Daniel's sobs soften with each deep breath he took. Y/n looked down at him sweetly in her arms, "I love you, Dani" she said kindly, with the most genuine affection.

Daniel took a trembling breath before replying tiredly but easily "I love you too."