'Till Death Do Us Part {Trilogy to TPL and LTF}

Chapter 31

Chapter 31

~ Nina ~
After a short two hour nap, I woke up and walked downstairs.
Let's see, it's 9 AM.
What do I have to do today?
Oh yeah, how could I forget?
This is the last day for Niall to remember.
I can't believe the day is already here.
I'm scared out of my mind.
My hand gripped the railing hard to prevent me from falling.
I just want to sleep the day away, so I don't have to go through the pain.
I'll probably end up sleeping all tomorrow.
If I'm still here...
I wasn't lying when I told Harry what I would do if Niall didn't remember.
I would never lie about something like that.
Once I got downstairs, I pushed my thoughts away and went up to Louis, wrapping myself in his arms.
"Hold me and tell me today will be good."
He sighed, rubbing my arms.
"It'll be okay. I'm here." Louis said. "Do you want to meet up with him today? To try one last time?"
It's not a bad idea.
It's probably the best idea in the long run.
At least I could say I tried one last time with him if he doesn't remember.
"Yeah, I'll go see him. Just don't know what I'm gonna do."
"It'll all work out. I promise you."
I guess I've gotta trust him on that promise.
My mum is gonna help me.
I know she will.
We'll get Niall to remember.
"I'm late! I'm late!" Jess cried out, running past us.
I shook my head and cracked a smile.
"Baby, you'll be fine. Just like you always are." Louis said, walking over to her at the door.
"I've got the keys, Louis! Dana texted me and said she left her's at home. We're supposed to open up today!"
Oh.
Well she may want to hurry.
"Alright, calm down. You're gonna get there." Louis said. "Have a good day today. Call me if you need anything. I love you."
"Thanks, you too. Love you." She kissed him quickly and left before popping back in.
"Bye, Nina! I'll see you later, sweets!"
"Bye!"
She left again and Louis looked at his phone.
"Oh, shit! That's tonight?!" He yelled out.
"What's tonight?" I asked.
"I promised Jess we'd go out tonight and get her laptop fixed. Took us like an hour to set up the date and time."
"So go out. I'll go with Niall."
He gave me a confused look and locked the front door.
"You sure you can do that without me there?"
"Yeah, actually when I saw him earlier, I was a little anxious, but he ended up holding me like he always does. He remembered he did that."
Louis smiled, placing two tea bags in mugs of hot water.
"That's great. It's another step."
"Yeah. And we also sort of almost kissed." I said the last part quietly.
"You kissed him?!"
"No, almost! We brushed lips but then I pulled away and left to go talk with mum."
"Okay, well. Just be cautious."
I nodded, taking a mug from one of his hands, thanking him.
We sat down at the island and I took a deep breath.
This is the absolute last day.
Tomorrow, I may be with Niall, or I may not be.
I feel like crying now.
I don't know why.
Crying was basically the way I realized what was happening and how I could fix it until Niall came along.
He helped me heal.
He made me a better person.
I don't know what I'll do if he's gone.
My life support would be gone.
"Nina?"
I snapped out of my thoughts and looked at Louis.
"Yeah?"
He sighed, reaching to grab my hand from across the counter.
"I'm telling you. It's gonna be okay today. Stop overthinking. Trust mum and I."
He's right.
It's not in my control.
We talked for a little longer until our tea was gone, and soon enough, it was around 1:00.
"I think I'm gonna go get dressed and talk with him." I said.
Louis nodded and kissed my cheek before I headed off to my room.
After taking a quick shower and washing my hair, I looked in the closet for some clothes.
I picked out a pair of ripped, black skinny jeans and slid them up my legs.
I also grabbed a white cami and put that on.
What shirt do I want to wear?
I sighed, grabbing Niall's grey sweatshirt.
I know I shouldn't be wearing it.
Especially not today.
But I have to.
I slipped it on over my head and tied up my wet hair in a messy bun.
Looking on my dresser, I picked up my necklace Niall had given me and put it around my neck, tucking it in the sweatshirt.
When I was done, I walked to Louis' room and kissed him on the cheek.
"I'll see you later."
"Be safe."
I left the house after that, and headed off to see Niall.
He doesn't know I'm coming over now.
He just knew at some point today I'd be over.
For some odd reason, as I drove to him, I felt really strange.
Not strange like how I normally feel about him.
But strange like I feel scared.
Like I shouldn't go see him.
Maybe I shouldn't.
Maybe I have to turn this car around and go back home.
But my home is where Niall lives.
And I can't stay with Louis and Jess forever.
They're going to settle down and have kids soon.
I can't be in the way of that.
I shook my head, knowing that I had to do this.
When I finally got to my home, I knocked three times, standing back and waiting for him to open the door.
The knob jingled and my heart seemed to stop.
"Hey, Nina. How's it going, love? Are we going to try again?" He smiled, inviting me inside.
"I'm good, thanks. And yeah. We can try one last time."
Wow.
It actually hurts to say that it's the very last time.
He guided me to the couch, sitting me down on it.
"You start this time. I know Louis isn't here and I want to make sure you'll be okay." He said.
Where do I even start?
"Okay, well. I guess to start of with, do you know this song?" I asked.
I pulled out my phone, putting on a clip of "XO", the song Niall and I wrote together.
"It sounds really familiar. Is that you singing?" He said.
"Yeah, we both wrote it together. Do you maybe know why we wrote it?"
"No, I don't think so." He said. "But wait! Did it have to do with applications?"
"Sort of. It had to do with my school assignment."
He nodded, processing the information.
Minutes went by and then it turned into an hour.
Niall has answered a bunch of questions, mostly wrong, but some right.
"Dammit!" He yelled out. "I can't do this! I can't do this to you! I can't even imagine how much this hurts you, but it hurts me, too. I feel so worthless because I can't remember you."
No.
He can't be hurting like this.
I started to get hot because I was worried for him, so I took off his sweatshirt.
I moved over to Niall, holding him while he cried.
"Please don't feel this way. I know you're trying. I don't want you hurting. When you hurt, I hurt. Please." I whispered.
Niall's hand reached up and grabbed mine, warming me up even more.
"I'm so sorry." He said.
"It's okay. I promise. All that matters is we're trying."
He looked up at me before glancing down a tiny bit.
His eyes widened and found mine again.
"Forgive me for looking and asking, Nina, but where did you get that scar from?"
I looked away, knowing exactly what scar he was talking about.
Last time he saw it, we were making love.
I can't think about that right now.
"It was a car accident. Wasn't it? When you were a baby." He said.
"Exactly that. You're right." I looked back at him before looking down. "I lost my mum because of it."
Niall sighed and switched positions so now he was holding me.
"I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have looked or asked."
"It's okay. You know, you used to hold me like this when I was upset. You'd always be holding me and calming me down."
"And I would whisper to you, wouldn't I?" He whispered. "Sweet nothings to calm you down. Cause you could only calm down if you heard me. And if I were with you."
"Y-Yeah. Always."
I cuddled deeper into his chest, needing to know he was here.
"I'm here. It's okay. You're safe with me." He whispered.
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A little while later, it was 7:00 PM.
I knew it, and Niall knew it.
It was over.
He would never remember.
"Nina, I'm so sorry. I-I tried. I just couldn't do it."
"No, no it's alright. Maybe it was supposed to work out this way."
I choked back the sobs and tears and stood up, as did Niall.
"Can I hug you one last time?" I asked.
He pulled me into his body again and held me tight.
"Why 'one last time'? We could still see each other again."
"Just trust me."
I held onto him a little bit longer, but soon pulled away.
A tear escaped my eye and I wiped it away quickly.
"Thank you, for everything you've ever done for me." I whispered, standing on my tippy toes to kiss his cheek.
He looked so confused, and I felt so bad.
But it has to be done.
"I love you." I said quietly, just below a whisper. "Goodbye, Niall."
"Goodbye, Nina."
We looked at each other one last time until I looked him in the eyes.
I blinked, trying to hold back the tears before I left the house I would never be coming back to, and the man I would never see again.
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"C'mon, babe! We've got today and tomorrow before we leave for tour. You've gotta pack." Louis said.
"No. I'm not going."
"What do you mean? Of course you're going."
"I said I'm not going!" I raised my voice.
Louis was quiet and he came over to me.
"Why do you not want to go?" He asked softly.
"Niall didn't remember. I can't be with him everyday if it will never be the way it was before. I'm sorry. I can't do it."
Louis sighed and I knew that I put him in a tough situation.
He wants me to go on tour with him because that's how it's always been, but he knows that I would be upset every day if I went.
"Are you sure you don't want to go?" He asked.
"I couldn't do it."
He breathed out, nodding his head in understanding.
"I'll tell the boys."
He left the room without another peep.
How could this happen to me?
Is this what my mum thinks is the best?
It has to be.
She wouldn't do that to me.
And she's gonna take care of Niall for me.
Protect him from all the evil in the world.
I guess this is it.
My mum can take care of my support system.
But while she's doing that, I'll go find her so I can help her take care of him.
"Nina, I'm about to head out with Jess. Do you need anything before I go?" Louis asked, coming back in the room.
"No, I'm okay. Thanks."
He half smiled and turned to leave the room.
"Louis, wait!"
He turned back around and I got up, hugging him.
He was taken aback but soon hugged me back.
I need this.
I need to hug him one last time.
"You okay?" He asked.
"Mhm. Just need a hug."
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"L-Louis?" I hiccuped.
"What's wrong?" He asked, sounding concerned.
"I love you." I cried.
"I love you too, boo...? Why are you crying?"
"I'm so sorry for what's going to happen. But I just wanted to let you know how much I appreciate everything you do for me and how much you love me." I said.
"N-Nina?" Louis's voice cracked and I knew he was starting to cry. "Don't tell me you're doing what I think you are."
"I'm sorry, Louis. But I love you. I love you so much. You've been the best big brother any one could ever ask for."
"Nina! Don't do it!" He started to yell.
I heard horns honking from his line and cried out.
"I love you."
"Ni-"
I cut him short, hanging up the phone, opening the cap on the pill bottle.