'Till Death Do Us Part {Trilogy to TPL and LTF}

Chapter 28

Chapter 28

~ Nina ~
"Liam, Zayn, and I gotta head out for a little, boo. Harry will be here with you." Louis said.
"Okay. Harry, you don't have to stay here. I'm alright by myself." I said.
"No, babe. I love you so I'm staying here with you so you're not alone." He smiled at me, popping out his dimples.
Louis came over and kissed my cheek, leaning in close to my ear.
"I know I should leave you to do this, but would you mind if we told our girls about what happened?"
Oh my gosh.
I totally forgot to tell them.
"Yeah, go ahead."
He nodded, kissing my cheek again.
"I'll be back soon, love. Just relax and boss Harry around for anything."
I giggled and he grinned.
"Love you."
"Love you too."
There were a few clearing of throats in the room and I rolled my eyes.
"Love you too, boys!"
"Love ya, Nina!"
The walked out the door and before it closed, I yelled, "Drive safe!"
Once they were gone, I turned to Harry.
"I'm starving. How about you?" He said.
"Nah, I'm good. I am thirsty though. Can you get me some water?"
He snapped his fingers, standing up.
"You got it, love. I'll be right back."
He kissed my forehead before he left the room also , leaving me alone.
I guess now that I'm alone, I can have some time to just think.
I haven't been able to do much of that, lately.
After a few moments of just staring at the wall, my mind blank, I came upon the fact that I can't think of anything right now.
I have so many things to think about any other time, but not now.
I guess I was really tired so I decided to take a little nap until Harry comes back.

~ Louis ~
After parking my car, I walked into the library where Jess works.
I looked around for a minute before my eyes landed on a small frame, reaching to the top shelf to grab a book.
I shook my head, chuckling to myself as I walked over.
Reaching up with ease, I grabbed the book and handed it to Jess.
A huge smile broke out on her face as she wrapped her arms around me, kissing my lips softly.
"What are you doing here, baby?" She asked.
"It's almost your lunch break, right? I'm gonna take you out."
"Aw, that's so sweet. Thank you." She kissed me again. "Let me just take care of this one customer and we can go."
I nodded and she took the book to the counter, scanning it quickly.
She's so cute.
God, I'm glad she's mine.
I wouldn't want anyone else.
She's perfect for me.
The elderly lady she was helping out grabbed her bag and walked out the door.
Jess reached under the desk and pulled out a sign, putting it on the counter, letting people know that her register was closed.
"I'm headed out for lunch with Louis. I should be back at around 1:30." She told her friend.
"I'll give you a little extra time so you can get it." Her friend winked as Jess and I both blushed.
"Ugh, whatever. I'll see ya, Dana."
Jess walked over to me and I wrapped my arm around her waist as we walked outside.
"Can we walk instead of drive?"
"Yeah, absolutely." I said.
We walked along the sidewalk, just silently in the beginning.
I know I have to tell her about Nina, I just don't know when.
I don't know if I should sit her down first or if it won't affect her that much.
I feel so bad for Nina.
She's gone through so much pain in the past, and now she's going through more.
I don't know what's worse for her though: emotional pain or physical pain.
Maybe they both equally hurt her.
I've wanted nothing since the day she was brought into this world but to protect her.
I haven't done a very good job.
It hurts me so much to see her in pain.
When she and Niall first met, I thought things would be better for her.
He, in my mind, was going to take all her pain away and make her feel like the princess she is.
He did just that, but now that he doesn't know her, she fell into the darkness once again.
I can't pull her out.
No one can except Niall.
He's the beating to her heart.
And she lost his baby.
She finally built up enough strength to go that far with someone, and it was just ruined.
It's crazy how horrible things could turn out.
If and when Niall remembers Nina, I'm afraid he won't take the news to greatly.
He gets really protective over things he loves.
When he finds out about his baby dying, I think he might lose it.
He would probably blame it on himself too for not being there for Nina.
I'm just nervous for them.
I know they want a family, and they can get there.
But the doctor said it would be harder for Nina to get pregnant.
The thought just saddened me.
I want her to have a family with him.
Just like I said at their wedding, she always wanted to find her prince.
But the part I didn't mention was that she said she wanted to become queen and make princesses and princes.
That made me even more sad to think about it.
"Louis?"
I shook my head, getting rid of all the thoughts.
"Huh? Yeah, what's up?"
"How's Nina?" Jess asked.
"Uh, she's alright. Still pretty upset, though." I said.
Jess stopped us from walking and pulled me over to the side of a building.
She leaned her back against the bricks and pulled me in front of her.
"What's wrong, baby? What's on your mind? I asked you that question three times."
I sighed, leaning my forehead on hers, intertwining our fingers.
"Yeah, everything's just perfect."
"C'mon, Louis. Talk to me. I don't like seeing you this way."
She ran her hands up and down my arms, kissing my lips.
"N-Nina isn't okay." I choked out. "She's really not okay. Her damn husband doesn't remember her. She's depressed because of that and has anxiety attacks every time she sees him. She's back in that darkness that almost killed her last time, and I can't pull her out of it. What kind of a brother am I, Jess? I can't even fucking take care of my baby sister and keep her safe. I just- I can't do it."
I completely broke down and Jess held me.
"C'mon, Louis. Let's go home so we can talk."
"No, no, Jess. We don't need to go home. I can pull it together and we can go out."
I wiped away my stray tears and stood up straight.
I'm not ruining our lunch over my feelings.
No way.
"How about we go to our little café and talk for lunch?" She suggested.
I nodded, deciding that was a good idea.
She pressed her lips to mine again before we started to walk along the sidewalk.
The walk to the café was silent and slow.
I didn't want to think about what was running through my mind.
I just want to clear my thoughts and have a nice lunch with my girlfriend.
"You go grab us a seat. I'll go order our usual." She said once we stepped inside.
We parted ways and I walked to the back corner of the room.
It's where we always sit.
No one can really see us back here so it's good being as I'm always in the spotlight.
It keeps us out of the public eye for a little.
A time for us to just talk and be together without all the cameras and fans.
Jess sat down next to me on the booth and snuggled up under my arm.
"Now talk, honey. Tell me everything you're thinking about."
I was silent.
I didn't know what to say.
My mind went blank on that part.
Jess sat up and looked into my eyes.
"C'mon. You can tell me anything. It'll make you feel better." She whispered.
"I just wanna be a better brother. I'm not there for her when she needs me. She's gone through so much pain that I could've kept her away from. I'm her big brother. I'm supposed to protect her from all the evil in the world. It's like, because of me, she's been exposed to all of it. And it kills me to know that. I just wanna be better."
Tears started to stream down my cheeks quickly before I was really crying and Jess was holding me.
"It's never been this hard. Never until the a-accident."
"What accident, sweetie? What happened?"
I guess I have to tell her now.
There's no way of getting out of it.
An she's sitting so it doesn't matter how this affects her; I know she won't collapse.
"Nina's in the hospital." I admitted.
Jess tensed and her eyes went wide.
"What happened?"
I took a deep breath and Jess grabbed my hand for comfort.
"S-She had a m-miscarriage."
I closed my eyes before I felt her body leave mine.
When I opened them, I saw her hand go up to her mouth, shaking, as tears streamed down her cheeks.
"She was p-pregnant?"
"We didn't know. She didn't even know. She miscarried Niall's baby and he doesn't know. She's a wreck."
"Oh, no. That's horrible. I'm so sorry."
"If I had been there. If I'd been there, this wouldn't have happened. If I kept her away from Nick, he never would've gotten ahold of her. He never would've bombed Niall. Niall would still remember Nina. She wouldn't be depressed and stressed. She wouldn't have lost the baby. They could've started a family. All because I wasn't there. I should've been there, dammit. I should've been there."
"Hey, hey. Don't beat yourself up, Louis. Don't you dare. This was not your fault. You are an amazing brother. You go above and beyond. Any girl would be lucky to have you as her brother. You're amazing. Nina knows you're amazing. She loves you the way you are. The only person who doesn't realize that, is you, Louis. Why is that?"
"I'm just scared. That night still haunts me. The night I woke up to hear Nina screaming bloody murder. To see her under our father, an ass I thought I could trust. I have nightmares sometimes, bringing me back to that night. And it makes me feel like shit because that's the reason I don't believe what you guys do. That's the reason."
"Let it go, Louis. That's the past. You've gotta let it go if you want to move forward. Break free from the chains. The past doesn't own you, you own the past. Release some tension. Let it go."
She kissed my neck and jaw, humming softly.
"Break free." She whispered.
I closed my eyes and breathed deeply.
I have to move on and let it go.
Nina is safe now and that's all that matters.
No, she's not safe.
She's crumbling to pieces and I don't have that glue to put her back together.
As soon as Niall remembers her, she'll be okay again.
I hope...
But I can't make him remember.
This is out of my control.
"I've got no control over this. I can't make Niall remember. I can't make her baby come back. It's not my fault. I had no control." I whispered to myself.
"That's right. It wasn't your fault, baby. You've taken care of her. She's become a strong woman because of you. She's had little hiccups but she's getting through them. What she needs is you by her side. She doesn't need you to be right in front of her, clearing her path of all the evil things. Just by her side so you can be with her. Just walk alongside her."
That's it.
That's what I have to do.
I breathed deeply once again and opened my eyes.
Jess' eyes were on mine and she smiled lightly.
"Thank you. I really needed that. I love you."
"You're very welcome. I'm proud of you. I love you too."
I kissed her lips softly before pulling back.
"Now let's have some lunch before I have to bring you back to the library."
"Mhm. Or maybe I could go back a couple minutes late, just so we could, do a couple things..."
Jess bit her lip and ran her hand down to my jeans.
A small groan escaped my lips and she smirked.
"I guess a couple minutes wouldn't hurt."

~ Nina ~
I felt my cheek being stroked softly as I opened my eyes from my sleep.
I blinked a little to see Niall standing next to me.
"W-What are you doing?" I asked him.
I looked around the room to see no one else in here besides the two of us.
Where's Harry?
"Shhh, don't tell anyone I was here. I just really wanted to make sure you were okay." He whispered.
He snuck in here, just to see if I was okay?
"I'm okay, I guess. Just shaken up."
He nodded and looked a little weary.
Like he wanted to do something but he was hesitating.
All of a sudden, Niall leaned down and pressed his lips to mine.
No spark was felt.
I gasped and he pulled away.
"I-I'm so sorry. I-I just thought it would help me remember to kiss you a-and-"
He was so worried and embarrassed and I was still shocked.
"Niall." I squeaked out, tears crowding my eyes.
"Oh, god. Please don't cry. I'm sorry, Nina. I didn't mean to." He panicked, grabbing onto my hand.
I glanced down to our connected hands and pulled away out of fear.
"Nina, please. I'm sorry."
The door opened and Harry walked in the room.
Once he saw Niall, his face was angry.
"Get out of here right now, Horan." He growled.
"N-No. He just wanted to make sure I was okay." I defended him.
"You're crying, Nina! This is exactly why he wasn't allowed in here!"
"Harry." I cried.
"Out, Horan. Now. You can leave on your own or I can help you. Your choice."
"Harry!"
"I'm so sorry, Nina." Niall said.
"No, Niall. Pleas-"
He ran out the room before Harry could touch him.
"I hate you! He was just making sure I was okay! You had no right to do that!" I yelled at Harry.
"I did it for your own good, Nina!" He yelled back.
"No you didn't! He wasn't hurting me! He was making sure I was okay!"
"I was looking out for you! Cause that's what your older brothers do for you! We look out for you because we don't want you getting hurt!"
"I wasn't going to get hurt! Goddammit, Harry! You don't understand! Just get out!" I screamed at him.
"Fine! Whatever, Nina. Just don't come crying to me when your heart starts to hurt again."
He shook his head out of astonishment and left the room, slamming the door shut.
My jaw was dropped and my eyes flooded with tears.
What have I done?
He really was only looking out for me, just like any of the boys would've done.
And I just screamed at him and told him to get out.
Oh my god.
"Harry." I cried out.
My head snapped up from my lap when I heard the door open, expecting to see Harry there.
It was Zayn and I cried.
"Hey, hey. What happened? Are you hurting?" He panicked, rushing over to me and sitting on the edge of the bed.
"I need Harry. I can't believe I just did that. Oh my god."
"Love, Harry just stormed out of here, mumbling something like 'I'm just protecting my baby sister'."
My hand flew up to my mouth to muffle the sobs coming out and I grabbed onto Zayn's with my other one.
"Babe, what just happened? Why are you crying?" His toned softened.
"Please go get, Harry. I need him right now. I never meant to do that." I cried.
"Erm, I can try. He may not be back until morning though. Liam and I came back about 10 minutes ago. Louis is still out with Jess."
"Please. Just get him here as soon as you can. I won't be able to sleep until I see him."
This is all going wrong.
My husband has no idea who the hell I am.
I just miscarried his baby we didn't know I was carrying.
I just yelled at one of my brothers and told him to leave because he was only trying to help me.
I'm a horrible person.
"Hey, I gotta head out for a little. Come in here with Nina." Zayn spoke into his phone, I'm guessing to Liam.
He hung up and turned back to me.
"It's gonna be okay, baby girl. I promise."
"I hope so."