'Till Death Do Us Part {Trilogy to TPL and LTF}

Chapter 32

Chapter 32

~ Niall ~
"Niall! You need to hurry! You're the closest one to her and we can't make it in time! You need to go now!" Louis yelled at me through the phone.
This can't be happening.
This must be what Louis meant when he said that Nina does things she regrets after things like this.
God, why can't I just remember?!
"But I don't know what to do!" I yelled, rushing to get my shoes on.
"Just comfort her and make it sound like how you would help your wife if she were going to kill herself! Hurry, Niall! Go now! You're the only one who can save her!"
'You're the only one who can save her'.
Oh my god.
I need to go.
I hung up the phone and hopped in my car.
Stay here, Nina.
I promise I'll remember.
I sped all the way to Louis' and Jess' house, screeching to a stop in the driveway.
I ran inside, using the key that Louis had given me and panicked for a minute.
How would she want to kill herself?
Where would she want to kill herself?
Why would she want to kill herself?
"NINA!" I yelled out, running from room to room.
Every door opened but she wasn't in any of the rooms.
I came across one last one and it was locked.
"Nina!" I banged on the door.
"N-Niall?" I heard her cry from the other side.
"Yes, yes it's me, baby. Please open up." I begged.
"I can't, Niall. This is the end for me, I know it this time."
"No, it's not the end. I promise you that you still have a long, beautiful life ahead of you. And I will remember. So I will be there alongside you." I spoke softly to her, not wanting to worry her.
"You can't remember, Niall. It's the end of the month and you haven't remembered. I know you want to, but it's not going to happen. You heard Dr. Mitchell. He said if you didn't remember within a month, you never would. It's over, Niall. The month is over."
"Nina, open up the door. Please, Nina. You don't have to do this. I can help you. I can remember."
I'm desperate at this point.
I can't let her commit suicide, knowing I was on the other side of the door and I could've stopped it.
That's just with anyone, not because she's my wife.
"I'm sorry, Niall. This is it. I just want you to know something."
"Nina, don't do this!" I started to yell again.
I banged on the door as I heard her sob loud.
"I love you, Niall. I love you enough to let you go. I love you and I always will." She whispered through the door.
"Nina! Please!" I cried, tears starting to stream down my cheeks.
I can't save her.
This isn't going to work.
"Niall, you can't stop loving me for this. You have to trust me on this. And you have to have faith in whatever happens. I love you, Niall. You're my one and only."
I have to love her.
I have to trust her.
I have to have faith in her.
Love, trust, and faith.
That's our little relationship thing with three fingers.
How did I remember that?
My head started to pound and I squeezed my hands on it.
My eyes were screwed shut as I groaned in pain.
Everything with Nina was flashing in my mind.
Our first date.
The promise proposal.
The wedding.
All the bad parts in between.
How she left me at the hospital and cried while doing it.
How she tried to comfort me right before I was taken to the hospital, when I should've comforted her.
I remember everything.
I held up three fingers, walking towards the door and placing them on there.
My other hand was flat on it, and I leaned my forehead on it.
I knew Nina was on the other side of the door, mirroring me.
I just knew it.
We whispered each other's name at the same time, as well as 'I love you'.
"I'm sorry." She whispered.
I got angry, at myself, for not remembering this all sooner.
"DAMMIT!" I shouted and lunged at the locked door standing between my wife and I.
It was kicked off its hinges and I got inside.
Nina turned to me, her eyes wide, and a bottle of pills in her hand.
I jumped for the pills, knocking the bottle to the ground, the contents spilling out.
Nina was caught off guard, instantly crying harder.
She collapsed and I scooped her up in my arms on the ground.
"No, you can't leave me, Nina. I remember. I remember."
I started to rock her softly as she gripped onto the collar of my shirt.
"No you don't. You're just saying that."
"Test me. Ask me the deepest thing we share just the two of us."
She cried a little more, thinking of a question.
"What's my biggest fear?" She asked quietly.
Easy.
"Losing me, baby girl." I whispered in her ear.
"Oh, Niall!" She sobbed, wrapping her arms around me tight. "You remember. You remember."
She wrapped her legs around my waist, nuzzling her face in the crook of my neck.
I ran my fingertips over her back softly.
Every time she let out a sob, I would hold her closer to me.
"You forgot who I was. You left me. I was only the stupid songwriter to you." She cried.
My heart broke at hearing that.
'You left me'.
That hurt me the most.
I told myself since the beginning that I would never leave Nina, and I did.
And I hate myself for it.
"I know, baby girl. But I'm back again, and I'm never going to leave you. Ever." I whispered.
Her sobs were quieting down but she was still crying a lot.
She moved her head so she was staring directly into my eyes, our faces inches apart.
I could tell exactly what she was thinking.
She was still scared, scared of what she was about to do.
I shook my head.
"Don't be scared, princess. It's over. I'm back with you now. It's over." I whispered.
Instantly, I could see she wasn't scared after I said that.
I could feel it burning in both of our hearts.
It's been so long.
We leaned in at the same time and our lips were finally reconnected with a spark.
My lips worked slowly and passionately against hers, as her hands reached up to my cheeks to rest them there.
The kiss lasted so long and I didn't want it to stop.
Neither did she.
But we had to pull away for air eventually.
"I love you, princess."
"I love you too, my prince."
I kissed her again before I heard familiar shouting in the house.
"Nina?!"
Heavy footsteps came into the room and Louis sighed, relief washing over him.
"Oh, thank god." He breathed. "Jess! She's okay! Niall has her!"
I heard softer footsteps coming closer and Jess appeared.
"Oh, Nina." She gasped and started to cry.
"She's okay, babe. It's okay." Louis told her, pulling her in for a hug.
She cried into his chest and he brought her into the other room to calm her down.
I turned back to Nina and held her head on my shoulder.
"I'm so sorry I tried to do that earlier. I shouldn't have. It's just, it's the only thing I thought of doing. The month ended and I figured that if you wouldn't be with me, I have no reason to live. I'm sorry, Niall." She said.
"Shhh, baby girl. It's okay. It's over now and I'm here with you. It's all over." I whispered.
As she kissed my cheek, I felt her heartbeat through my chest.
"You saved my life. You didn't even know me like for who I really was but you still saved me. Why?"
I chuckled lightly.
"C'mon, babe. I'm not that heartless, am I?"
She giggled and it made me smile to hear it.
"No, I mean, like you went to such a far extent to keep me safe when you could've just stayed at our house and not even bother to check on me."
I kissed her neck, sighing into her skin.
"I'm always going to try and help you, baby. That whole time I was just thinking 'god, I can't let this girl commit suicide knowing I was on the other side of the door, able to stop it. Especially if she were my wife'."
"I love you, you know?" She smiled.
"I've heard it a few times." I smirked, kissing her lips softly.
"I love you too, honey."
I kissed her again, leaning her back lightly, my hand on the small of her back.
My lips trailed down her neck and nipped at the cleavage that was showing.
"Niall!" She gasped, her eyes closing and her fingers finding their way to my hair.
I continued to kiss along any of her skin that was showing and she softly moaned.
"I love you, baby." I whispered against her skin, blowing on the wet area, causing shivers to erupt through her body.
I heard footsteps make their way to the bathroom so Nina laid her head on my shoulder, carrying on like nothing was happening.
I kissed her neck softly, my teeth grazing the spot lightly.
Louis came into the room and I smiled at him.
"So... I take it you remember now?" He asked cautiously.
"Yeah, I do." I nodded.
"That's amazing." He grinned. "What made you remember?"
"I'm not sure exactly. I mean, if I had to guess, I'd say it was the relationship thing with the three fingers about love, trust, and faith." I said. "You said it, Nina. And I guess that's how I remembered."
"Well, I'm glad you do. It hasn't been the same."
Louis left the room and Nina began to cry on my shoulder.
"Hey, hey, what's wrong? Are you hurting?"
"I-I've just missed you. I was so tired of hoping you'd come back to me. I wanted to give up. So much. You were gone. I didn't know what to do. The guys tried to help but I knew in the end it would never work. Harry asked me what I would do if you didn't remember. I told him I'd kill myself. I don't joke about things like that, everyone knows that. So they just watched me 24/7 to make sure I didn't kill myself. And then after you snuck into the hospital and kissed me, Harry and I got into a fight and I told him I hated him. He ignored me once I got out of the hospital and I was worried I lost him forever. So I pulled out my b-box."
I gripped onto Nina harder, a few tears slipping from my eyes.
"No, no, baby. There's always better ways, darling. Always."
"Harry caught me. He startled me so I dropped the blade but picked up a new one. I was so close. I felt it touch my skin. It would've been so easy, just to get rid of the pain. He convinced me not to. So close. And because of that, I knew my ending was near."
"Your ending is nowhere's near. You've still got so much time." I whispered.
"If I didn't have you, Niall, I couldn't have lived. Honestly, I can't imagine life without you. You know. A lot of people who have gone through the things I've gone through, would probably want to go back in time and live a different life. I wouldn't. Because I know that if I lived a different life, I wouldn't be with you. And I couldn't be happy if I didn't have you. So I'd keep this life. I'd go through my earlier life everyday if it meant I still had you. Because I don't see any life worth living if it doesn't have you in it."
I let out a quiet sob, sadness infiltrating my body.
How could she think that?
How could she go through all that pain again, just to be with me?
"Ni, baby. Please don't cry."
"I love you. I'm so damn madly in love with you. You're my whole world."
I kissed Nina's body, anywhere I could.
She has to know she's loved.
She lost a huge chunk of her confidence while I was gone.
I need to restore it.
"I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you. If I could only say one thing for the rest of my life, it'd be 'I love Nina Marie Horan with all of my heart'."
"Oh, baby."
Nina pressed her lips to mine, moving them slowly.
Our tears mixed together as our fingers were intertwined.
"Everything. You're my everything." I mumbled against her lips between kisses.
"I love you." She said breathlessly.
I wanted to make love to her right now.
Right here.
Just to show my love and compassion for her.
"Let me make love to you when we get home. Let me make you feel good."
She seemed nervous when I said that.
We've made love before.
Why is she so nervous?
"Please just hold me."
So I did.
But I knew I had to tell her something.
She deserves to know.
After all, it does involve her.
"I've got to tell you something. But I need you to hold my hand as I tell you. Squeeze it whenever you hurt."
Her eyes met mine and she nodded, grabbing onto my hand.
"Back when this first started, back when I was caught in that building, I was dead."
Tears formed in her eyes again at the horrible memory and she squeezed my hand.
I kissed her nose for comfort.
"And at first, I didn't know I was. It was dark. And I was screaming out for you. I was alone." She squeezed my hand again. "And then I saw a light. A gentle voice called out to me and I thought it was you. I chased the light, calling out your name. And then I realized it wasn't you. A woman appeared in front of me and I backed away from her. She looked nice, but she frightened me. After all, I didn't know where I was. I remember I screamed out 'where am I? Where's Nina? Where's my princess?' She said my name, and I became quiet. I asked who she was. She just looked so familiar. She said 'I'm your mother-in-law'."
Nina's breath got caught in her throat and she let out a sob.
"My m-mum." She gasped out. "You m-met my mum."
"And I realized then that you guys look exactly the same, and that's why she looked so familiar. She smiled at me and I asked if I could hug her. She laughed and hugged me. You both have the same laugh. The same comfort. I said to her 'thank you for giving me Nina. She's the best thing that ever happened to me.' Then she said 'thank you for taking care of her. I know she would be here with me if it weren't for you. You and the other boys are the reasons why she's not with me. So thank you for looking after her.'"
Nina squeezed my hand again and that confused me.
"Why are you hurting?"
"You met my mum. That means so much. I was wishing for so long that you two could meet."
I kissed her softly, smiling against her lips.
"Well, then I was still confused as to why I was with her. So I asked her why. She sighed before telling me I was dead. I was shocked and scared. Like the wind was knocked out of me. I immediately thought of you. I was thinking, 'oh, no. Nina. I left Nina on her own.' Your mother must've read my mind. She said, 'Nina's here. I can show you her, if you'd like.' I needed to see you. And then you appeared, and I saw you collapse in Harry's arms. Your sobs filled the silence. My heart was breaking. And that's all I needed to see."
I started to cry, thinking about that image again.
Nina squeezed my hand really tightly, wrapping her other arm around me.
"Keep going."
She really wants to know what happens.
I kissed the top of her head, nodding and continuing my story.
"I needed to do something. I couldn't leave you like that. I'd promised you I wasn't leaving you. I turned to your mum and she looked down. I begged her to help me. Bring me back to life so I could be with you. She said she didn't have enough power to do it. I broke and fell to my knees, screaming out your name. Your mum tried to comfort me. I just kept screaming and crying for you. I thought I was going to die again from heartbreak. But then something amazing happened. Your mum placed her fingertips on my back, whispering some words. It started to burn but it didn't hurt all that much. She lifted my head up and smiled at me. 'Take care of my little girl. Tell her that her mommy loves her very much. Tell her I said she'll always be safe with you,' she had said. I knew what that meant. I kept thanking her over and over again. And then, I felt you again. Then I knew your mum had saved me."
After that, Nina and I were both silent.
I could tell she was crying because her body was trembling in my arms.
I stroked her hair, whispering soft things in her ear.
"It's too much. Too much for one day. I can't take it. Ni, please. I can't."
"Alright, alright. It's okay, princess. Relax, relax. Hold onto me."
Shit, I shouldn't have told her yet.
She's overwhelmed.
I kissed her temple, trying to calm her down somehow.
"Why don't we go talk with Louis and Jess before we head home? You, my dear, have to pack your bags."
"Yeah, we can do that."
I smiled and kissed her again, standing up with her following after.
We walked out to the living room where Jess had calmed down a little and Louis turned to us, smiling.
He whispered something to Jess and she stood up immediately, running over to Nina and engulfing her in a hug.
"Don't do that again." She scolded. "I was so worried."
I walked over to Louis and he gave me a quick hug.
"Thank you, for saving her...again." He chuckled a little at the end.
"Of course. I'm just glad I got to her in time and I remembered. I don't know what I would do without her."
It's true.
I'd be nowhere without this girl.
She's what makes me whole, we make each other whole.
I love her with all my heart, and nothing could ever change that.