all of my friends finally convinced
me to get out of the house
to help me forget, to help me move on
then i heard your back in town
"Bryce come on bro! Hype house is throwing the biggest party of the year and you've been sitting in here mopping about Addison for the past couple months. You need to move on!" Blake tried to get me to get out of my room.
"Blake be nice he loved her. But Bryce he's right. She's gone and you can't change the past just loosen up. Just for tonight." Amelie tried to reason with me.
They're right. Addison went back to Louisiana. She went back cause she was homesick. All this became too much for her. So she left. She left me behind without a second thought. Just a note.
A note saying that she's sorry and that it would hurt too much to say goodbye in person and that she loves me but she has to go back home.
I can't let my love for her hold me back forever. I need to live my life. She was a huge part in my life but I'm not me anymore. Let's party.
I got ready and met Blake and Amelie in the car. Walking in and saying hi to everyone was such a relief. I felt free so the first time in a while. Not as much free as I felt myself.
"Oh Bryce I didn't know you were gonna be here." A very drunk Mia told me. "Why wouldn't I be here?" I asked going up to the bar to get myself a drink.
"Cause Addison is coming." She said holding on to Kouvr so she wouldn't fall.
No way she's coming. She's in Louisiana. How would she be here.
"Amelie! Amelie." I called her attention from across the room. "What?" She asked. "Is Addison on her way here?" I asked her.
"I don't think so she would've told me." She said opening all of Addi's social media's and sure enough she had landed in LAX about an hour ago.
in a crowd of strangers and lovers
someone told me that you were coming
"AND SHES HERE! THE STAR OF OUR SHOW! THE ONE AND ONLY ADDISON RAE EASTERLING!" A very drunk Thomas yelled.
so i should probably go to bed
i should probably turn off my phone
i should quit while i'm ahead
i should probably leave you alone
cause i know in the morning
i'll be calling
saying sorry for the things i said
so i should probably go to bed
"I need to leave. Right now I need to leave." I told Amelie. "Bryce come on the party is just starting." She tried to have me stay.
"Amelie, I cannot be here while she is here I cannot be here. I can't even look at her. I need to leave." I explained.
"Fine I'll go get Blake's keys. We'll ride with Griffin on the way back." She gave in.
so i don't undo the got over you
that it took so long to find
cause all it would take
is seeing your face and id forget
"Here. I'll see you at home." Blake come over to give me his keys. "Thanks." I said to him.
Walking out I was stopped. By Addison. "Hey where are you going?" She asked me. "I can't be here. Not while you're here." I told her coldly before walking out the door.
"Bryce! Please! Stay!" She followed me out. "No. Addison I've tried so hard so get over you and I can't be here and hang out with you when I know you're leaving again."
I don't want her to be upset. I hate seeing her upset. But I also can't put myself through this again. Trying to get over her again.
"Do you wanna know why I came back?" She asked as I got in the car. "Not really. I'm really trying to stay away from you."
before i question my decision
is it love i know it isn't
now i'm all up in my head again
cause i know i don't
have the self control
to walk away if you walk in
"I came back cause I missed you. I came back cause I wanted to see you. Not for them. I missed you and I wanted you. That's why I came back." She told me.
"But what about when you leave again. This is torture for me. Leaving. Avoiding you. Trying to keep it in my head that you're not here. You're still in Louisiana to me. Cause I know you're not staying. Cause I know you're going home. So I'm protecting me. So even if you did come back to see me. As much as I would absolutely love to be with you, I can't put myself through losing you again."
"We never got a proper goodbye. Could we at least have that. Pretend like this is me leaving the first time. Can this be our goodbye?" She asked tearing up.
I got out of the car and held her in my arms. "I love you." She whispered into my chest. "I love you more." I kissed the top of her head.
She looked up at me with tears rolling down her face as well as mine. "Goodbye." She whispered before holding me face in her hands and placing a soft kiss on my lips.
"I should probably go to bed..."
i know it doesn't exactly follow the song but i like it so shut up
