Seeing Bryce with Riley hurts. I want him to be happy but I've never really wanted him to be with anyone but me. I love Bryce and I always will but if Riley makes him happy so be it.
Over the past few weeks him and Riley have gotten a lot closer. He's with her all the time. I can't even look at his social media's without crying cause he looks so happy with her.
I was drunk last night. And when I say drunk I mean like blackout drunk. My head hurts so bad it's not even funny.
I picked up my phone for the first time today and holy shit.
WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO!
Like I said I was drunk last night but I was sad drinking. Listening to sad music and shit while I was drinking everything in the house bar by myself in my room.
I looked at the screenshot of what tiktokroom had posted.
tiktokroom
whoisaddison hold on i still want you
whoisaddison come back i still need you
looks like #addisonrae is missing #brycehall but he's looking like he's moved on
liked by ameliezilber, nessabarrett, brycehallsmom, and 164,926,027 more
avani good to see i'm not the only one who misses them
nessabarrett adds you good babe?
brycehallsmom leave my daughter in law alone
rileyhubatka umm
bryce michael 🥵♥️
we have to talk
21:37
addison
21:49
addison answer the phone
22:19
adds we need to talk
22:43
ADDISON
23:19
Oh my god why would I fucking do that. Because of what I did now I have to openly talk about it and I can't even say that I was drunk and didn't mean it cause like you know, drunk man tells no tales.
I went downstairs and took an aspirin and someone knocked on my door. Leave me the fuck alone.
I opened the door and surprise surprise guess who it is. Bryce.
"What are you doing here?" I asked walking into the house leaving the door open for him to come in. "You know exactly why I'm here." He said closing the door.
I walked into the kitchen and popped my aspirin in my mouth. "I'm happy with Riley and then you go and stir up drama like this! You just hate seeing me happy!"
"Stop yelling I have a hangover." I held my head. "Addison you don't even drink." He responded.
I walked over to the trash can filled to the top with many various alcoholic beverages. "I do now." I said showing him the contents of the trash.
"It's not that I hate seeing you happy. I love seeing you happy. But Bryce I love you. And I will always love you and I'm sorry that we never worked out but I can't see myself with anyone but you. I love seeing you happy I just hate that it's not with me. I get sad and I drink and sit in my room by myself thinking about us and how great we would've been if we just trusted each other. That's all our relationship was missing. Trust. That's it. If we would've completely trusted each other we would've been perfectly fine." I finished and walked up to my room leaving him by himself.
"That still doesn't explain why you posted it in the first place." Bryce said following me. "I WAS DRUNK! I didn't even know I had done it until a few minutes ago when I woke up!" I yelled back at him.
"I need to know if you actually feel that way. Do you actually still want us to happen after everything we've been through? Do you still want us?" He asked.
Is he not here to yell at me? Did he come here to get back together.
"Weren't you just yelling at me that you were so happy with Riley. Go be with Riley. Like I said, all I want is for you to be happy. I will be perfectly fine." I told him.
"Okay. If that's what you really want." He whispered with his head down and walked out my room closing the door. Not long after I heard the front door open and close.
I fell to my knees and cried. I had my chance to get him back and I told him to leave. I should've just told him. All I had to do was say yes.
After a couple minutes I heard the door open again and Bryce practically running into my room.
I sat at my side and pulled me into him. "For me to be happy. I have to be with the girl I really love." He said while I was still crying on his chest.
"I love you more than anything in the world. So tomorrow I go to Riley and I tell her that I want to be with you, but today you and I are gonna lay here in that bed right there and I'm just gonna hold you. All day." He explained. I looked into his eyes and stared for a second before wrapping my arms around him and burying my head in the crook of his neck.
"I love you too"
