If Only...(Scömìche)

The End?

I never thought out-of-body experiences were possible, I thought it was just a thing that people in stories wrote about when they needed a dramatic plot line, but this is ral life and I'm currently staring down at myself laying in an uncomfortable looking hopital bed. My mum is there, she's whispering in my ear. I can hear it, as if she's whispering to me. Well, she is, but I can hear it clearly. She's begging me to wake up. I hope I don't. Kirstie and Avi are there too, they're both asleep. Kirstie is gripping my hand, and I feel the warmth and her light squeezes as she snores quietly. Avi has his arms around his knees with his chin resting on top. Kudos, that's not something all boys can do, but I'm not really sure why he's here. I think Kevin is talking to the doctor, I can hear his voice. There's just one person missing. Scott. He went missing the day after I was admitted to the hospital, and nobody has heard from him since. They think he tried to kill me. That was two weeks ago. I've searched and searched, but each time I come back to the hospital and to my own body feeling deflated. I don't want his life to end because mine already has.

I don't know why people are still visiting me, I'm a lost cause in that bed. I thought people would get over me, but people are still hoping that I will wake up and everything will be fine, that I'll go back to being Mitch again. But realistically, there's no point waiting for someone you love, because in the end nobody stays the same forever. I learned that from him. 

Every day the doctors tell my mum the same thing. "His condition is stable, his heartbeat is normal. This coma could last weeks, months, even years, there's no way of knowing". She doesn't know what to do. The table next to me is covered in flowers and chocolate from her, presents for if I wake up. 

Kirstie's phone rings and I feel her release her grip on my hand. It's weird, I can feel everything that's going on even though I'm not in my body. She rubs her eyes and answers her phone.

"Mmmello?" She groans. I can't hear the other side of the conversation but It's not hard to hear her gasp.

"Scott, where are you? Scott, you have to come back. We know you didn't kill him. He's alive! Barely. Okay fine. Just me? Sure. Bye." She was the only one awake at this point so she slid out of the room without anyone asking anything. My first instinct was to follow her. I needed to know why Scott was hiding from the rest of the world. I sit in the back of her car, being still and silent even though I know she can't see or hear me. She drives steadily and carefully, not how I remember at all. Every so often she sniffles and wipes her nose. I place a soft kiss to her cheek, and stroke her hair softly. She starts to speak, and I sit back and listen. But I won't let myself cry.

"Mitch, I don't know if you're on your way up there or if you already are, or if you're still in that body of yours back at the hospital. I'm probably talking to myself right now. But Mitch, if you can hear me, you can't leave us. We had big plans, us three. The trio. We were going to become famous, and we were gonna take on the world. How can I take on the world by                myself? I know what you would say if you were here. You would ask me what's stopping me. That I have the voice of an angel, why can't I do it myself. You told me that a lot, but I never believed you. I still don't. I need you and Scott, I can't do it by myself. He's in love with you, you know? When you got together with Michael-" for the first time in her little speech, I let out a little gasp. I'm still not ready to hear his name, and a few tears roll down my cheeks. I've been fighting them back since she started, but I can't keep them in any longer.

"-Scott came to me. He was devastated, and he was picking out everything that you should hate about him. I was confused at first, but he burst into tears and I knew in that moment what was wrong. He left because the love of his life is laying in a fucking hospital bed. I know you love him too, even if you won't admit it. Come back, Mitch. For us." I feel my body slowly get dragged away from the car as she finishes. I sob into my hands as the car gets further and further away. I want to go back, I want to be me again. I don't want this to be the end. Everything fades, the world slowly passing by in a blur. I feel light-headed, like I'm going to fall asleep. My head droops and I feel my eyes closing.

I want to go back.

I was stupid.

Please don't let this be the end.

This took longer than expected, I'm so sorry. I hope you guys like it!

Love always,

Georgie.