Flip of a Coin

Chapter 12

I'm sitting on the couch with Asher in close proximity. The warmth of his body radiates on to me and everything seems to be going great. I see a small movement out of the corner of my eye and turn towards Asher. There he is, staring at me. It's almost as if time is frozen. Our eyes connected and inseparable. There is something about us that just... I don't know. I guess we just click. Time slowly begins to melt and I find our faces getting closer together. I find my hands starting to shake and eventually I feel warmth on my lips. Asher wraps his arms around me with our still interlocked lips, I lift my legs up and put them across his lap. The sweetness ends quickly with Asher pretty much tearing his face away from mine. I throw my legs off of his lap and stay as silent as possible. I hear footsteps and we stand up in sync and begin walking down different aisles. 

"Hey Asher," I hear a quiet voice.

"Oh... Hey Sam," I hear Asher's voice.

"So, um... about after school. Do you like Eden?" someone asks, It must be this Sam person.

"Not really." Asher's voice echoes inside my head. I walk away quietly before finding myself sitting outside the library against the library wall with my head in my knees. I thought Asher was perfect... but... it can't be. He's leading me on to just break my heart in the end. This can't be. That kiss was perfect. I couldn't have asked for a better first kiss. Obviously it was just from a jerk though. I've spent everyday of the last 5 months or so thinking and dreaming about the day when Asher and I would get together. Sadly, nothing is perfect and he is not right for me. Stupid, Idiotic male beings who think it's ok to lead a girl on, the way Asher has lead me on. I will never be able to trust anyone this easily ever again. Stupid, Inconciderate guys who don't know how to respect girls' emotions. 

I continue to sit outside the library with my head in my knees while I sob quietly. Soft, salty drops of water trail down my checks like water droplets on a window. But... what if he just doesn't want people to know... Agh.... oh well. He isn't one to lie. At least that's what I thought. I've been torn apart by who I thought was the sweetest guy in school. My cold hands reach for my face and wipe away the tears.