aligning stars

Dear Boy who broke my heart

I should have listened, oh god I should have when they told me to run as far as I could away from you. If I could go back and do it all over again I would have left without ever looking back.

I've made myself a bed in your hands, I've dug my grave in your chest because these are the sacrifices I've made for you. I've ruined myself, I've become a strange thing because I picked the particularly dangerous poison when you bought me a drink that night. I've done these things, I've done them for you because you turned me inside out and told me, love is free. Love is free and light and shining and I will never have to drown myself in the oceans I never learned to swim. Love is free and a pretty face is always kind and gentle. Love is free and you would never do the things that the ones before you did. Love is free and you were my prefect angel who would never hurt me.

I wish you couldn't lie so well, I wish your words felt like steel wool instead of velvet. I wish I never learned to love you because love is not free and now I'm paying the price.