Okay well I hi!! I can't wait for 3rd term to be over! It's one more step to finally being a highschooler! I don't know why but I've been waiting to be in high school my entire life and i'm having one of my realization moments. I especially can't wait because I want to start over with my grades and I can do that with the 4th term. But why do we always have finals on the same day?? Like I had my history final, math final, and my science final on Wednesday. Like WTH are they all plotting our demise when they have meetings like "ok let's have all the finals on Wednesday and announce study guides too late so they procrastinate it." Well that's how it goes in my mind. Btw i'm so mad at my score for my science final!!! That was the only one I even really cared about! T said it's not that bad but to me, I failed without actually getting a failing grade. But I love minimum days! Also i'm so weirded out by my emotions. Yesterday/an hour ago, I wanted to kill myself but now i'm actually happy. How the heck does that work?? Like I've been telling A about it but it's on my mind so much that I needed to tell you too. Also it's weird but I can't really show emotions very much. Now don't think i'm a psychopath because I feel emotions, I just can't react to them very easily. I also can't cry. Like if something makes my eye water the tiniest bit that is such a feat! Like even at my worst, my eyes are just dry even though sometimes I just want to let it all out. But the thing is, when I don't want to cry, I feel the tears coming, but the moment i'm like "okay you can cry" it goes away. It's hard to explain but I just think it's really weird. Also, don't complain to me or be excited around me. (For the complaining) I will just stand there and say "ok." (For the excited one) I'll still be like "ok." Like in side I'll be like "that sucks" but I can't show it... I'm soooooooo weird, but I think we all knew that. Also for PE the unit we've been on is badmitton (badminton but I refuse to write it that way) and I SUCK but today we played glow in the dark version and I was a lot better at it. T said it was harder for her, but for me it was easier (that's what she said. Again my dirty mind). Btw I swear on my life that one of my friends like the other better than me. Like it's so obvious, she should just admit it (like Dan and Phil about Phan) but I guess that would still hurt. Maybe it's my paranoia or trust issues, or low-confidence but the signs all point to what i'm thinking. Btw I was too lazy to write what I wrote in math so maybe you'll get that tomorrow. Thanks for reading!
-Angel 9:45
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My Diary Entries
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