My Diary Entries

2/26/15 2:45

I haven't done anything today. I slept till 12:30 even though I set an alarm at 10. I didn't sleep through it though, I just turned it off and keep sleeping. I don't know why I sleep so late on weekends, yesterday I sleep to like 2 pm. I guess it's the fact that at night, even when I'm tired it's hard to fall asleep. My mind just won't stop thinking about stuff and I usually end up spending 30 minutes to 2 hours just lying there. But the entire time I'm telling myself to "just fall asleep". And once I'm asleep I never want to wake up I guess so I am tired when I wake up on weekdays and sleep forever on weekends. I haven't gone downstairs at all today yet, literally, not even for food. Ugh, I guess I'll go down and make myself a salad. Piece for right now...

I'm back, hours later, and I'm bored as heck. I don't know what to talk about so I'll just think of something. Oh, I want to buy games for my ancient DSi. I guess it's not that ancient but it's not new or anything either. It says 2008 on it though. I was 7 in 2008. I barely remember anything, but I do remember my cousin wanting one and I got one before she did. The funny thing is I didn't even want one. I wanted just a DS, but I (prepare for idiocy) I thought Nintendo was Intendo so I thought the I stood for that. You have permission to laugh at me. I laugh at me for that too. I think I've only told that to one of my friends but I may be wrong. I also remember playing Nintendogs everytime she would let me go on her DS. I loved it so much and it's also why I wanted a DS. Yay for memories!! I'm not sure where it's charger is though, I'm hoping my dad does.

Next day:
So it's hecka late. Well 11:45 pm so not that late. It depends on what you'd think is late. For me, late is like 2 to 4 am. I haven't done much today so I decided to just add on to what I wrote yesterday. Drama Club was pretty fun although I don't remember much of it. I did my monologue and I'm not sure how good it was... Then we practiced this game for part of the show and it was fun, especially since we were just joking around the whole time.

So for some reason I've been less, I don't know, sensitive? Well for the past two days (yes I'm writing on a third day) I've been calling people and things stupid a lot more. Like I don't think anyone has noticed or they're acting, but I'm more incline to want to punch someone than ignore it. I guess I'm getting more aggressive or agitated. But this is in a small way, so it'd be hard to notice but I can. Yeah, my mind can hecka notice changes in how I'm thinking or acting so I really don't have an addictive personality. My mind subconsciously notices and I don't know, I'm not sure if it's just me or if that's normal. But this also sucks because I can't keep a routine for longer than a few days, like any routine I can change. For example doing my homework. It's hard for me to just do my homework everyday after school. The routine changes or is not even a routine. I also can't fall asleep at the same time every night. Wow, everything about me is just never definite. Like my mood, then things I do, or how I think. I hope that's not just me. By the way we have pictures today during PE (I'm in lunch) and I wore a dress. I wore it not because I'm buying my pictures, but because I just could. Also the stupid essay we are writing right now is stressing me. Like I guess it's my fault for procrastinating it on the weekend but I think you'd know by now that that's inevitable for me to do. And I'm bad at essays. Like I can write from my own imagination, but give me something specific to answer in an essay and I'm back to 3rd grader grammar. Well, advanced 3rd grader. Dude my foot just fell asleep and I'm not even really cutting off circulation. I'm standing up. Why?? My hands and feet have been falling asleep really easily. Like if I hold my hand up for more than like 10 seconds it starts going all prickly and numb. Well not numb right away but when I sit down for a bit, my leg does end up going numb. One time I stood up and tried to walk while my leg was numb since the bell had rung. Long story short it felt like walking on a big stick.

-Angel
5:50 pm