Yay for night time writing! I'm obsessed with writing in this, like it's not even funny. I guess this is just things I wish I could tell someone but i'm bad at expressing my emotions, just a little better at it when I have more time to think about what I want to write. So even when i'm with my friends I feel lonely, and just in my own world. And i'm starting to complain about things and get too sensitive. I feel like my whole personality is changing but I know it's not, i'm just in one of my "moods" again. Like last time i'm contemplating suicide but that wouldn't make sense considering I'm kind of happy that I didn't die that last time. So yeah, and I've lost all hope T and I will ever be a thing. That was just a fantasy and dream that will never happen. She doesn't like me like that and I seriously doubt she'd say yes if I asked her to be my girlfriend. I want to kiss her and punch her for making my emotions like this. I don't even know if I'll ever meet someone as accepting and awesome as she is, so I can't let go of my feelings. I don't even know if I want to? A weird part of me likes having my mind distracted by a crush and likes those feelings you get, but I hate the part after the daydreaming, which is the part i'm on. Also I just wish I could not have friends for a day but the next it would be right back to normal. I'm probably the weirdest person ever for having so many emotions so young, like people don't get these until they are in high school but i'm getting them in middle school... I think i'm going to stop writing for tonight but I'll continue my thoughts tomorrow.
Next day:
Hey! So right now i'm outside my door, my front door, because when I got here I at 6 (I went to A's house) no one was home! Now it's 6:16 but it feels like forever! So yeah, I mean my dads car is here but no one answers when I ring the door. Whatever I just hope I'm let in soon! Lol there's a bird! I'm going to peep through the window again. It's seems dark and i'm pretty sure no one is home, or my dad is sleeping and my grandma is the one not home. But literally I rung the doorbell a million times!!!! I would call but the phone i'm using doesn't have a SIM card... Now it seems like taking away my working phone wasn't such a good idea huh? I'm screwed until someone gets home/wakes up! Ugh!!!!!!
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My Diary Entries
AléatoireGot this idea from someone else on wattpad. I will be writing my diary entries here that I've written in my actual diary. Well from now and on. So in my entries I like to get descriptive of time (like month and date) and, sometimes, place. It's desc...
